but I can't even help people as much as I used to
Like…. in high school I was The Mom FriendTM and I was providing support and I rarely needed it. Heck, I was really emotionally self-reliant and could often provide my own. I rarely had to reach out to others.
but now I'm barely helping other people it feels like and I'm taking too much and draining everyone and that's just not okay
Well all of that good stuff describes me to this day… So…
we never really officially designated it
at some point you probably joined the oligarchy
but now Chuck is gone and I'm depressed more than ever and you're sad and struggling too so the chat is just falling apart and I feel terrible about it
and I want to eliminate stressors in my life bc it's too much, so part of me is like…. TAKE A BREAK FROM NOTEBOOK but the other part of me is like NO CHUCK WANTS THE CHAT TO SURVIVE AND I DO TOOTake a break darling… So help me I'll keep this alive til' your return…
The chat would rarely go a few hours without anyone commenting. Overnight, yeah, but that was six hours max, and no one else was on notebook either. This keeps getting down so far, and I'm so worried about it
and the people who were here in the "glory days" (which just sounds Angsty and Dramatic (wow like me how fitting)) aren't here as much. Darren and I, yeah. Sol isn't able to get on as much. Skit, Cass, Gabby…. and even more whom I can't even name because I have the worst possible memory. Thanks depression!
but I can't even help people as much as I used to
Like…. in high school I was The Mom FriendTM and I was providing support and I rarely needed it. Heck, I was really emotionally self-reliant and could often provide my own. I rarely had to reach out to others.
but now I'm barely helping other people it feels like and I'm taking too much and draining everyone and that's just not okayWell all of that good stuff describes me to this day… So…
finger guns
and I have to go to class in like 15 minutes
so
that'll be fun
I skipped my first class this morning and took a nap instead
we never really officially designated it
at some point you probably joined the oligarchy
but now Chuck is gone and I'm depressed more than ever and you're sad and struggling too so the chat is just falling apart and I feel terrible about it
and I want to eliminate stressors in my life bc it's too much, so part of me is like…. TAKE A BREAK FROM NOTEBOOK but the other part of me is like NO CHUCK WANTS THE CHAT TO SURVIVE AND I DO TOOTake a break darling… So help me I'll keep this alive til' your return…
The chat would rarely go a few hours without anyone commenting. Overnight, yeah, but that was six hours max, and no one else was on notebook either. This keeps getting down so far, and I'm so worried about it
and the people who were here in the "glory days" (which just sounds Angsty and Dramatic (wow like me how fitting)) aren't here as much. Darren and I, yeah. Sol isn't able to get on as much. Skit, Cass, Gabby…. and even more whom I can't even name because I have the worst possible memory. Thanks depression!
Then I'll set a timer and keep posting every two hours or so! Kat… You should know by now that I'm a shining beacon of willpower… If I want to do something… It's gonna happen no matter what. I don't care what it takes… Anything for you awesome people and this perfect sight… I'll be in charge if I have to!
I mean it! I won't let you down… Take a week off, come back to us when you're better… I'll tell you what you missed!
and I have to go to class in like 15 minutes
so
that'll be fun
I skipped my first class this morning and took a nap instead
i did so too!
Then I'll set a timer and keep posting every two hours or so! Kat… You should know by now that I'm a shining beacon of willpower… If I want to do something… It's gonna happen no matter what. I don't care what it takes… Anything for you awesome people and this perfect sight… I'll be in charge if I have to!
I mean it! I won't let you down… Take a week off, come back to us when you're better… I'll tell you whst you missed!
I'm v impressed actually
In that case, I might
but just like
I'll probably check in every once in a while, even if I don't post
Bc I use notebook as a writing reference (its intended purpose WOW) and I'm on p much every morning at like 6 am whatever time zone my college is in I don't remember and checking/augmenting character sheets lol
and I have to go to class in like 15 minutes
so
that'll be fun
I skipped my first class this morning and took a nap insteadi did so too!
it's great! I love sleep!
I got up at like 4:45 am this morning lol
then went for a run
but I forgot my card to unlock the building so I was locked out of my building and I was blessed at like 5:32 when another early riser left the building
Damn… I'm gonna get in a good workout today!
Ooh you got this!!
I gtg- gotta pack my bag for class. Love you all. Stay safe.
You too!
So do I need to start the timer?
I'm sorry for what's been happening to you, Kat. I sincerely wish it gets better for you. I don't know much else to say on this, as I have been having problems as well…
I'm going to try to be on more, though. I probably won't be on in the morning because of school, but afterwards I'll post. I've been busy with moving into our new house and school as well as coming back from Hawaii, but things are getting less busy for me now, so I'll have time. I missed going on here.
It might not be the same with everyone busy and all such now, but I think we'll be able to make it work. If you need to have a break for a while, you can.
I love you, Kat. Stay safe
Yeah… I get it… I love you wonderful, smart, beautiful, simpatico bundles of angst!
What is everyone's favorite animal?
I set the timer regardless of whether you leave or not, Kat. I'm gonna keep this thing up and running indefinitely!
What is everyone's favorite animal?
I'm really indecisive… I like all animals, how can I choose a favorite? Though I do love hummingbirds and foxes much.
Nice!!!
Here I am! Time to reset the timer!!!
Reality will break your heart
Survival will not be the hardest part
It's keeping all your hopes alive
When all the rest of you has died
So let it break your heart
Sarah that is a big mood
See… I told you I could do it Kat…
I have 1 hour 12 minutes before my next reply to keep thIs thing alive, and to keep it active!
amazing
Sarcasm, eh?
What is everyone's favorite animal?
Stegosaurus
Sorry people I fell asleep so I couldn't make a post after two hours.
I'll set the timer tomorrow…
Also… Stegosaurs are cool.
Otter is a sensible guide who uses spiritual awareness and devotion as a framework for progress. Perhaps most importantly to Otter symbolism is the ability to play – to find renewed joy in our lives that balances out more serious matters.
He could always do that, when things where rough, he was able to be happy.
Otter is a sensible guide who uses spiritual awareness and devotion as a framework for progress. Perhaps most importantly to Otter symbolism is the ability to play – to find renewed joy in our lives that balances out more serious matters.
He could always do that, when things where rough, he was able to be happy.
Cool!
It looks as if you're in need of cheering up, eh, Darren?
Yeah…