John hugs her back knowing it was a friendly one and he left it at that and smiles sadly "I am going to miss you alot jackie….and I will never forget how we met" john laughs at the memory then places a kiss on jackies forhead and murmurs softly "Something for you to remember me by"
Jackie smiles and accepts the kiss "I won't forget you either. I promise to stay in touch. I'm glad you came over now."
Nym, feeling all of this goes to her room locks the door and sits on her bed. She felt strange, "maybe you should have told him sooner" she wasn't aware of the conversation. She was aware of the feeling though. Her phone rang, it was her brother. She ignored it and sat staring at her pale green wall
Jackie motions towards the open door. "I don't wanna be rude but you should probably go back to that other girl. You left her so abruptly."
John nods and leaves , returning back at Nyms house and he knocks on the door. John feels melancholy and unsure what to do do, all he knows is that he really needed to talk to Nym and he hopes she will open the door for him
she looks up and realises she was crying. She wipes her face and slowly stands up, unlock her bedroom door, walks downstairs and opens the door a crack "Yes? What is it? " She sounded so dejected
John frowns then upon hearing how dejected Nym sounded and he felt a slight constricting of the chest "Nym, we really need to talk. Please let me in Nym"
Nym looked at him, searching for something that told her he really didn't want to talk. She sighed and opened the door to let him in
(should be back in a few hours)
once john walks in he turns and faces Nym with a serious expression "Nym I really like you and I want you to know that I would never hurt you. But please tell me what is going on"
see gulped "A link, we went through a link. I'm sorry, it was completely unintentional. It just happened and… And" she plopped on the couch and sobbed "I can feel everything you do, damn near"
John pauses taking her words in then sighs and drops his head into his hands "Nym…" john stops unable to finish his sentence then sits next to nym on the couch and turns to face her "Nym look at me please….Just look into my eyes and I want you to tell me what I am to you "
Nym sniffled and sobbed, but look him in the eye "I don't exactly know what you are to me, but I can tell you what I want you to be," she paused and hesitantly lifted a hand up to gingerly play with his hair, she sighed and then a small smile spread across her lips. She whispered "My everything and I don't know why I want you or how I ever thought I could." she froze and looked away
can i still join..?
(@ellesta yes)
(hi I'm back)
John smiles slightly as Nym played with his hair then grabs nyms hand and holds it in his "What makes you say you can't? And I am not going to deny that I come with some evil, but I am also not going to deny that I am a great guy in some aspects." John then lets go of Nyms hand and reaches out to touch Nyms face and trails off not sure what more he can say to Nyms confession
( Well my character doesn't really fit into this story anymore I think I'll leave the rp )
"I say I can't because form what I just felt you're with some one, I don't mean to snoop. It just happens. Hun, you act like I'm an innocent child looking for a mature relationship. Caters bring unintentional trouble." "Nym, you need to show him. Do it now!" Without thinking Nym grabbed his face and pushed her own longing emotions out to him. Each hurt, each spark of love, twinge of anger, anything and everything she every felt with him
John growls feeling anger rise and panic along with it , not sure if he can fight his alter side again but before he could protest. Nym grabbing his face caught him off guard and he closed his eyes feeling all her emotions thrown at him. John lets out a small groan and opens his eyes after several minutes and mumbles weakly amide turbulent emotions "Little warning next time"
"Sorry, you were getting upset. Here, I'm going to calm you down." Nym gave him a wave of calm "Why the anger? Don't beat around the bush either."
John avoids eye contact with Nym "The anger….I hate it…It comes from when I was tortured. It turns me into a bad guy and I loved every minute of it. I was in power and nothing could stop me…john trails off then looks at nym and answers honestly "I'm angry because what you seem to have felt between me and jackie was nothing. She was saying good bye to me , jackie is leaving on a plane here soon and wanted to say good bye. And yes I do kind of treat you like a child and I am sorry for that. I thought with your hypersensitivity with feelings that I should keep it low and easy. John pauses and sighs slightly feeling ashamed " I didn't mean to coddle you Nym ..
"You think I knew she was saying goodbye?" she smiles "and uh, I'm also on an end of the torture spectrum. I enjoy it cause it happened too often. I don't want to talk about it." she grazes the side of his face "Don't feel ashamed, hun. I don't mind being treated like a child, but you can't keep things from me." Nym froze and for a brief moment looked toward the kitchen door, then to the fire place as the wood became engulfed in flame. She stood (not herself) and reached a hand out to the yellow and orange licks of flame "Don't be alarmed," she spoke sounding more dejected "I have to…" she trailed off as she sat in front of the fire
"Mmhmm" Nym mumbled and slowly removed her hand from the fire "I'm sorry" Nym said with a little more feeling "I love you my prince, but why can you not remember, do you even know?" Nym spoke softly as he walked out the door and a tear fell
John parks in front of his house and sighs knowing he left things unsaid so he then drives back to Nyms house and gets out. He barges back into Nyms house and right up to her then without thinking he leans in and kisses Nym softly. After a long moment he pulls away and murmurs softly "Maybe next time I need to show how I feel instead of saying it"
Nym was taken by surprise, a small noise arose in her throat as he kissed her "I thought you left to sort your thoughts." Nym looked up at John with her red eyes and sniffled "I thought you needed time to think, what even is our relationship?"
John tilts his head sideways then shakes his head " I didn't want to leave you without a kiss. And I didn't leave to think about us. I left because I was afraid of confronting us….but the more I thought about it. The more I felt that leaving us like were are was me being a coward." John reaches his hand up and caresses Nyms cheek "And the thought of you crying more made me feel like I was being a jackass"
Nym smiled at his touch "I understand, but honestly do you think we could work out?"
John hesitates then nods slowly "I would hope so….What do you think Nym? " John hopes she says yes but thinking back to all their encounters he feels ashamed for bringing her into things she didn't need to be brought into if she would be involved with him
Nym smiles and nods "I say yes, but on one condition."
John smiles but to keep from getting too excited he nods and replies "Yes? What is your condition Nym? "