forum Crushing Hearts (Mature content [might turn out to be 18+] and TW) (Moved) (1/1)

Started March 12, 2023 by @Rhys group

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Cyrin stays silent, keeping his eyes closed, “I don’t know. . .” He murmurs, “I. . . I really don’t know.” He bites his lip, taking another breath, “I’ve never seen Mama this way, not even when Grandmama or Grandpa died.”

….Perfect….

Arthur nodded sympathetically and slid his hand towards Cyrin, though he didn't touch him outright this time. "I'm sorry, buddy… have you all sought professional help on this? I know it's only been a day, but… you don't want something to happen to her because she hesitated to get help."

He looks at Arthur, not moving, “Dad’s looking, but Mama’s like me, she doesn’t open up very easily.” He sighs, biting his lip.

"…It's ok to be worried, Cyrin. And it's ok to try to help her yourself. If you two are alike, you might be the one who knows how to get through to her." Arthur said gently.

And if you fail, it will be so much more rewarding…

Cyrin sighs softly, “I’m trying. . . But she’s even closed off with me. . .” He shifts slightly, looking back to his food.

Arthur kept nodding, sympathetically. "That's difficult, but… you've got to try, man. Same way she's blaming herself now, you'd likely blame yourself if something happened to her."
Maybe not, but if it was suggested to him… perhaps.

Cyrin stays silent, biting his lip, taking another bite of food. After a moment, he shrugs, “Probably, but I don’t want to think about that right now.” He sighs, “I don’t really want to think about anything, to be honest.”

Arthur nodded. "I get that… besides dancing, what do you like to do to relax?" He finished up his food and waved down the waiter for a box for Cyrin and the check for himself.

Cyrin sighs, “Dance—“ He chuckles, “I don’t do much in my life besides dance and be with my family. The dancing brings in the money, which in turn goes to pay for my lessons, me using the studio, food for the month and rent. The rest goes home to my parents.”

" You have no other hobbies at all?" Arthur asked gently.
Internally, he was banging his head against a wall. Dumb AND one dimensional, can I pick 'em, or can I pick 'em?

Cyrin laughs, “Well, I love art. I was going to school for it, but I decided I wanted to go the dancing rout. I also enjoy reading, and writing short little stories. I haven’t had much time to figure out what I like, I’m always super busy making money for my family. I know there are other things I like to do. I just dont know what exactly they all are.”

He pauses, thinking, a thoughtful look on his face, “I enjoy video games, movie nights, clubbing is fun when I have time for it. Reading while listening to music is another one.” He shrugs.

Arthur beamed at him. "See, there's a person! You're not just some dancing automoton, there's a personality in there." He winked at Arthur as they stood to head out.
"Listen… lets get your mind off this for a bit. Let you not think about anything, like you said. Just for a little while." His voice turned a bit more gentle than playful. "We could head back to my place? I've got a huge TV, we could watch a movie or play some video games. Or… there's that art gallery over in Brixton." The next city over was a bit bigger, and only a half hour away. "We could go walk through that, if you want."

Cyrin laughs, tipping his head back, “Look, I love dancing. I’m perfectly fine with it being the thing I do most. Though yes sometimes I can get tired, but often times I don’t.”

“Movies or video games sounds much more relaxing and entertaining.” Cyrin grins, pushing the door open and holding it for the other guy.

Arthur smiled at him as he walked through the door. "Back to my place it is, then!" He'd driven down here, and there was a flashy car parked in the parking lot. "You're driving with me, right?"
Little steps.

Cyrin hesitates, then shrugs, “Why not?” He follows Arthur, smiling slightly.

"Exactly!" Arthur opens the passenger door for him, before going around and climbing into the driver's seat. "It's a decent walk from here anyway, though it's only a couple minutes drive."

Cyrin nods, leaning back and looking out the window, quiet.

Arthur put on some quiet music, and they made the couple of minutes just fine. He pulled into his spot in the parking garage and locked his gate, and they headed up into the lobby and onto the elevator.

This time, they went to the top floor, and there was only one door, and a janitor's closet. Arthur grinned at Cyrin.
"I'm curious, what do you think my domicile looks like?"

Cyrin shrugs, “No clue. A nicer bigger version of mine, I’m assuming. More lived in. Slightly homey?” He hums softly, shifting on his feet slightly.

Arthur nods. "You're close. I don't know what you'll think of this." He opened the door, heavy solid oak, and they stepped into the apartment.
Black walls. Red trim and accents. Red carpet.
Definitely a particular vibe going on here.
The door opened into a small antechamber, kinda like a coat room. Arthur had a neat shoe rack there, with multiple kinds of shoes on it. He also had various jackets, and even what looked like a cloak, hanging in the closet.
They stepped through, and they were in his living room. It was huge, with massive couches. They filled most of the floor space of the living room, and were all oriented to face a huge screen. Easily 20'x20', the screen took up a good portion of the far wall. Big speakers were mounted in various places along the wall and behind the couches, providing an obvious surround-sound experience.
It was all done in that same red-and-black vibe.

Cyrin raises an eyebrow, "You very much like red and black. . ." He mutters, looking around. "Its very. . ." He shrugs, " I don't know. . . " He laughs softly.

Arthur laughs. "Well, luckily you don't have to like this one. Now, movie or video games?" He indicates the shelving below the screen, where there are multiple game systems and games, as well as streaming devices. "I've got access to all the major movie sites, so. Whatever you want."

Cyrin bites his lip, "I. . . Don't know. . ." He mumbles, "Why do you keep making me pick from so many things? Like dates and now games or movies. I suck at picking things from this big a variety. Why don't you pick a few and I can go from there."

Arthur quirked an eyebrow at him. "Why do I-… because I'm not making your decisions for you, buddy. You're an adult, you have your own likes and dislikes. Just pick something, there are no stakes. This doesn't have to be hard. I'm not going to dislike any option you pick." He turned and rested his hands on Cyrin's shoulders, looking up into his eyes.
"This is a safe space. You're safe here, with me, really wherever we are. By that, I mean that you can just choose what you like, without having to worry about other people." He let go and stepped into the room.
"You've been worrying about other people your entire life. Worry about what you like when you're with me."

Cyrin bites his lip harder, "But I. . . I don't like choosing things, Arthur. I dont." He shrugs, "I much prefer someone telling me what to do. Or at least giving me not so many options. It overwhelms me." He stares at the floor.

…Hmm…

Arthur tipped his head sideways, giving Cyrin a gentle look. He stepped back into Cyrin's proximity, tilting the taller guy's head up by nudging his chin gently, until he was looking Arthur in the eyes.

"You're sure you'd rather have me tell you what to do?" His voice was soft, gentle, on the verge of tenderness. "Cuz I can do that… I can help you not be overwhelmed."
The moment was intentionally charged, and he hoped Cyrin would lean into it, but he wasn't sure.

Cyrin looks at Arthur, quiet for a moment, listening to him. He blinks slowly, staring at the other man now, “I. . . Yeah. . .”

Arthur's face slowly slid into a smile, and he held Cyrin's eye contact. "…Ok then." He let go, and turned to walk back into the room, and the closeness of the moment was broken, though it lingered for just a second, like an aroma after a candle has been blown out.
"I'm thinking a movie. Do you like animated stuff? Cuz I do, and I think you'd really like this one movie… gotta see if I can find it." He turned on the screen, using a small tablet to navigate the streaming platforms and search for this show. "C'mere, sit down." He smiled over his shoulder at Cyrin, beckoning him to the huge couch.

Cyrin follows him, quiet for a moment and smiles slightly, “I do like animated stuff.” He flops down onto the couch, “What movie is it?” He tilts his head slightly, smiling slightly, looking over Arthurs shoulder. His eyes scanned the screen.

Arthur found it, and the cover pic was of a boy and girl, dancing while dressed in outlandish clothes, surrounded by folks in very formal clothes.
"There it is! [Insert Title Here!]" He turned his head and smiled, his face close to Cyrin's for a moment.
"You like dancing, right? This one's got a lot of it. Thought you might enjoy that, or at least we'd get some good conversation out of it if it's all animated wrong. You could tell me why." He grinned, before heading towards the kitchen.
"Want some popcorn? I'm making some for me regardless."