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Started October 04, 2022 by Deleted user

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Nikki fell straight on her ass and she glared up at Jo "what can I do to keep you from drinking? "

Jo shrugs, grabbing his bottle again.

"That, my dear, depends entirely on what you want to do."

"Jo I'm serious stop I'll do whatever stupid thing you want if you stop drinking"

"I'm just trying to forget for a while, okay? I've had too many large emotions in too short a time. There's not much you can do-" Jo starts.

"Whatever then Jo drink until your fucking hear stops feeling shit I don't care, I'm going to sleep have fun" she rolled her eyes and stood up turning out the lights except for a lamp by the couch so Jo could still see and she went to go lay down in the bed

Jo sighs and sets the bottle down.

"Nicole. . . even drunk, I still love you. No ammount of alcohol can change that."

"It doesn't matter okay just do whatever.. " she paused grabbing the blanket and moving it out of the way so she could sit down and she took her hoodie off leaving her in a tank top and leggings

Jo sighs, picking up the bottle, walking over to the balcony, stepping out and pouring the contents of it out, tossing the bottle for good measure.

"I'll be done for the night, okay? Just. . . stop being mad."

Nikki's expression softend a bit she wasn't exactly happy but wasn't as mad anymore and she nodded kicking off her shoes "okay fine."

Jo smiles a little.

"But you're still pretty damn pissed. What can I do to make you less mad now?"

She sighs as she throws her shoes to the side "I just….. I just want you to talk to me instead of" she stops and motions to the empty bottles that scattered the room " and not drowned yourself in liquor"

"Talk about what?" Jo asks, genuinely curious.

"About what's going on with you, anytime anything happens you just run to a bottle. "

Jo snorts.

"Well, you see, emotions are something I was told I should never show, so when there's too many of them the only thing I can do is drown them in a lake of vodka. My father told me many times, 'Don't cry. Don't love. Don't fear. Those things make you weak.' And then I proved him wrong, and then he killed my wife. So yeah, I run to the bottle when something happens. Because at least drunk, I can forget about everything that makes me want to turn the world to ashes."

"Jo… It's not healthy and you know that that's not true because if you really felt that what you wouldn't tell me that you love me… Liquor is not something you should indulge in because your doing what a human does, which is feeling emotion. "

Jo pauses.

"I told you, Nicole. . . I proved him wrong. My wife was my strength, my will to live. I lost her, I lost both of those things. I lost sight of the lessons I'd learned, and fell back on the harsh beatings and screams of my father. Then I found you. At first, I absolutely hated you. I still stayed around, though, because I understood then that maybe that hate would give me a reason to live. I never expected to fall in love with you. But now that it's happened, I have strength. Maybe not a will to live, as much, but enough of one to avoid putting a round in my skull."

They pull out their gun and simply toss it to the side.

"But if my fights, my recklessness, irritates you, I can change that." they say, a hopeful gleam in their eyes. There's also pleading, there.

She say there looking at him for a moment before getting up and walking over to him "your telling me that your willing to change your ways… Just so I'll be happy?

Jo nods.

"I may be drunk, and tired of the world's bullshit, but I'm telling the truth. It won't be an immediate change. Hell, it may not be visible changes even in a few months. But I'll change. So just. . . stop looking so sad all the time, okay? It hurts me to see you always looking so hurt and defeated. . ."

Nikki laughs a little bit and kisses his cheek before whispering in his ear "maybe I look sad and defeated is because I am"

Jo sighs, and places a gentle hand on Nikki's cheek.

"I want that to change, Nicole. I want you to look happy and victorious. I want to help with that. Let me help, okay?" they murmur, placing their forhead on Nikki's.

She sighs with a little smile on her face "I don't do shrinks jo you remember that they have no use to be they don't help, do not try and be my shrink"

Jo snorts.

"I'm not trying to be a shrink. If I wanted to be your shrink, I would have a clipboard, pen and paper out."

"Hmm that's exactly what a shrink would say. " she said with a smile as her looked up at him her forehead still on his

Jo sighs.

"Okay, well. . . if that's the case, then I'll prove through action that I'm not trying to be a shrink."

They move their head back a bit, then lean down, pressing their lips to Nikki's carefully.

Nikki smiled and leaned into the kiss she wrapped her arms around his neck and she let out a soft breath

Jo smiles a little himself, wrapping an arm around her back, pressing her against him, the other coming up to the back of her neck.

He parts her lips with his, gently, sliding his tongue into her mouth.

Nikki let's him do as he pleases not really caring at this point she was… Actually happy I this moment and she didn't want that to change she let out a soft gasp when he slid his tongue into her mouth but she didn't fight against it

Jo eventually pulls away from the kiss, looking at Nikki.

"What do you want to do?" they murmur.

Nikki collects herself and eventually looks up at jo "i- don't know.. "

Jo gazes at Nikki.

"I mean right now. What do you want right now?"