forum "I have a tendency to forget dumb shit." "Do you also have a tendency to forget the law?" "Yeah, like I said, dumb shit." (OxO)

Started October 04, 2022 by Deleted user

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"Why did you"

"Because I wanted to, next question."

"Can you give me actual answers? "

"I am giving you actual answers; and besides, I already told you yesterday why I would be doing this didn't I? You know, when I had you on the ground?"

"Well yeah I know…. But-"

"But nothing. I'm going to go back to sleep now, so unless the cops show up or your bleeding, don't wake me up. Or, alternatively, when you can tell me how you feel, wake me up." Jo yawns, closing their eyes again.

" _{are you mad at me?"}

Jo chuckles.

"Sweetheart, if I was mad, you wouldn't still be on the couch with me." they reply without opening their eyes.

Nikki was silent for a second before laying her head back down a taking a deep breath it felt like her stomach was in a knot

Jo absently reaches a hand back and ruffles Nikki's hair, without saying a word, then falls back asleep.

A soft grumble escapes her throat but before she could say anything he was asleep again 'god damnit.'

A couple hours later, Jo yawns and properly wakes up.

They look at Nikki, who was elsewhere by now.

Nikki is laying in her room on her bed with the door open staring at the ceiling thinking

Jo grumbles and sits up, getting off the couch and walking to Nikki's room, leaning against the doorway.

"Watcha thinkin' about?" they ask, knowing she was too distracted to have noticed him.

Nikki doesn't even bother to look at him "I don't know.. "

Jo steps inside the room and walks over to the bed, flooping down next to Nikki.

"Well, I don't exactly believe that. Talk to me. Explain what you're thinking."

"I'm just thinking Jo.. I don't know.. "

Jo sighs.

"Just say words, say whatever comes to mind."

"I'm…. scared" two words that Jo has never heard her say two words that nobody has ever heard her say

Jo freezes.

"That's never happened before." they say softly, turning onto their side and looking at Nikki directly.

"I know. " she said softly still looking at the ceiling

Jo sighs a little.

"Are you scared of what I said yesterday?"

… I don't know. "

Jo shifts so that they're sitting up.

"Okay. . . explain?"

"Explain what that it feels like I'm going to throw up any minute or the facts that I can't stop shaking to save my fucking life?. "

Jo tilts their head.

"Both."

"I don't know okay I just I don't know I can't fucking think about anything and I feel like I'm on the verge of fucking tears so I don't know okay?! "

Jo feels. . . awkward, for once, but hides it very well as they pull Nikki up into a tight embrace.

"That's okay, sweetheart. . . that's okay. . ." they say gently.

Nikki wrapped her arms around him and buried her face in his chest

"No it's not because you said you love me and I don't even know what that's like or what it means because I've never even been loved before and what if I don't love you back you're going to hate me and then your gonna leave and I'll be alone again. " she couldn't contain her tears anymore she sobbed as they ran down her cheeks (clear ass sign) she didn't even care that he would see it

Jo sighs, a small growl escaping with the breath.

"Nicole. If you don't know what love is, you'll find out eventually. And why would I hate you if I fucking love you? I know it's possible to love and hate someone at the same time - I've done it - but why would I do it with you? You don't really deserve my hate. And didn't I tell you? The only way I'm leaving is if you're dead." they reply softly.