Tbqh I'm thinking about changing my username online to the "Y in front of my name" thing bc it sounds better than "Cloudswift" and it's just more me, y'know? idk tho.
gonna put it out here bc I don't really mind sharing my first name too much, the nickname's Yaspen
My math teacher found out this morning that her daughter tested positive for Covid. My teacher said she's feeling fine, but she's going to take the test. So now I have to go take a test to see if I have it or not. Just to be safe. Not exactly the news I wanted to end the week.
I'm trying not to fall asleep in my 3rd period.
Were watching an assembly that out student council is livestreaming but it's so choppy and low quality that its painful to watch.
oooh, that really must be painful
I'd be asleep already
We need an AV club full of people who actually know what the hell they're doing
When your mom and sister say they understand that you don't feel motivated to do anything today but really you're just having a bad depressive episode and you don't want to tell them that cause they'll say you're self diagnosing
Long kind of rant incoming:
I love questioning my gender 😔
There's always the "am I seeking attention?" "Am I just following what my non-cis friends are doing?"
But like… a lot of it is me getting in touch with who I am, which maybe I wasn't comfortable with before. Getting called a boy, made fun of for body hair, and all that kind of struck a nerve when I was in a vulnerable life stage. But now, if I was presenting more masculine, I wouldn't be angry if I got called "he," I don't think. And I'm so much more comfortable with androgyny. I think I maybe went through some time of overcompensation? Sure, I do love to present very feminine some days, but that's not all of who I am.
Not to mention those urges to cut my hair short- which my friends are kind of all encouraging lmao.
Do I say anything? Or do I just present how I want and stay quiet? Like my fiance knows I'm questioning, and they're supportive, but like. How do I go about labels? Pronouns? Do I bother? I mean, they don't really use a label themself. Just they/them pronouns and call it a day. But I've found that choosing labels helps me understand myself a little more. Though more obscure labels can be tricky.
ha i keep putting "lol" or "😂" at the end of my texts so my friends think that I'm still somewhat mentally stable and not .2 seconds away from my breaking point
hey just wondering, is it normal to like being called flat?
Dunno. I've never been called flat nor have I called someone else flat.
idk like my friends joke around and call me flat cuz i dont have much of da boobs and i kinda like that
hey just wondering, is it normal to like being called flat?
I personally have the same experience and I do identify as the not woman so idk
holyyyy shit holy shit holy shit
i was just working on one of the pages on my neocities website and the whole thing fuckin CRASHED
i tried refreshing and i got logged out, tried signing back in and was told my login details were invalid
its like my account disappeared into the fucking void
i sent a message to their support contact and am now anxiously waiting for a response
all of that work, all that code, more than a month's work of just that- all just gone
i want to cry but i'm too shocked to do so
this doesnt affect any of you, it doesnt really have anything to do with chat, and you all could care less i know but i just feel like a bottomless pit opened in my stomach and my heart and lungs fell down into it and i would really appreciate a little comfort right about now
Idk what a neocity is but you were obviously devoted to your work and that's something very admirable. I'm sorry it all disappeared. I believe that if you put that much work into it before, you will definitely be able to rebuild (if you choose to).
thank you beans! i do kinda feel better about it now after a day of it being off my mind lol
i hope i'll be able to find the time between all my studies to begin again :)
gonna slide this here since i feel confident enough to share this with the world
i didn't realize how pretty this one girl in my english class was until today
i dunno what it is abt her , but i looked at her and her camera was accidentally on and something about her struck a chord in my heart so now i'm questioning my own sexuality hbhdejbjhe
Last night I barged into my lil sister's room and announced "I'm here, I'm queer, and I want to disappear."
And she just looked at me for a while and went back to her manga and said "mood tho"
mood but like, what manga was she reading >.>
Coroika. It's the Splatoon manga and shes obsessed with it
Ah, I see. I had no clue splatoon had a manga until now xD
Yeah, it's kinda little-kid-ish because in all honesty it's really stupid XD
The characters are pretty cool though except for the mcs they're total mary sues like the S4 and the X-Blood. They're cool.
I also have thousand of headcanons I press onto them… most of them are real angsty just cuz I can :P
My grandma just told me about this girl she had a crush on when she was in grade school, I'm-