forum Romance Roleplay (Closed O/O)

Started March 02, 2020 by @Rainy_day_artist_classic group

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"Hey, I want to help you." Melissa insisted, rubbing circles into his back to try and calm him down. "Please bother me with it. I want to help, and to fix this."

"But it's… it's stupid. It shouldn't be bothering me anymore anyway…" Lucas drew in a harsh, wavering breath. "H-He's already in jail, so it doesn't do me any good to think about the things he did or didn't say…"

"But if you never talk about it, and never get it out of your system, it'll always be there to bug you," Melissa whispered, continuing to rub his back. "I know I'm not a professional, but I want to help you."

Lucas sighed shakily and huddled closer to Melissa. "B-But it's stupid…" He whispered again. "I-I mean, I always tried so hard, and never once did he ever tell me that he appreciated it or that he's proud of me or… or anything…"

"I'm proud of you…" Melissa hummed softly, kissing his forehead softly. "I'm proud you could survive that long." She insisted, playing with his hair quietly. A soft look stayed on her face as she traced circles into his back.

Lucas buried his face in Melissa's shoulder, crying softly. "W-What did I— ever do— t-to him?" He hiccuped, trembling a bit more violently. "I-I was obedient and… a-and quiet, most of the time… I never caused him any trouble…"

Melissa's heart dropped some, pulling him even closer to her. "I don't know, honey… I have no idea why. Some people are just cruel…" She replied softly, hands somewhat shaky as she rubbed his back.

"W-What's wrong with me…?" He asked weakly. "After… after all he's done to me, I-I still care about him… I still feel bad for him. I still love him and I want him to love me. I-I want him to be proud of me…"

Melissa gently tipping his chin up again, rubbing the tears off his cheeks. "There's nothing wrong with you. It's… that's something that happens a lot. You can't help but want to be loved by the person who hasn't loved you."

"Why do I care about him, though?" He asked in a shaky whisper. "After all he's done for me, I-I… I should want him to rot in hell or something… but I dunno, I just… don't."

"I dunno honey…" Melissa whispered, tracing his cheeks with her thumbs to try and relax him. "I dunno what to do, or how to help. I'm sorry…"

Lucas leaned into Melissa's touch a bit, still trembling. "I wish I could just be a kid again…" He whispered. "A naive little fool without a care in the world…" A couple more tears rolled down his cheeks. "Back when we were all lying to ourselves about being happy, but god, at least they were all still alive…"

Melissa looked down at him, tears stinging at her own eyes as she rubbed his face. "I know… but we can't really do anything about it. I- I wish we could, but… but we can't."

Lucas nodded and huddled closer, drawing in a wavering breath. "I miss the way it was, Mel… I miss it so much…" He whispered. "I-I want them back…"

"I want to bring it back for you… I'm sorry I can't…" She whispered weakly in return, burying her face in his shoulder. "I want it to be fixed, and I want it to be better…"

"I'm sorry…" He hiccuped and gripped Melissa tighter. "I'm… I'm putting too much pressure on you. It isn't your job to make any of this better or… or the way it was before."

"No, no please," Melissa lifted her head up, giving him a weak look. "You're not doing anything to me. I'm fine, I just… I feel awful knowing I can't make things better for you. Knowing that I can never fix it…"

"I-I know, and I shouldn't be making you feel that way. It's cruel of me." Lucas closed his eyes and turned away, feeling guilty. "I shouldn't expect so much of you."

Melissa's heart sunk, voice shaky as she turned his chin to look back at her. "Lucas, you're not cruel. You're the furthest thing from cruel that I can think of." She insisted before curling back up and tucking her head under his chin.

Lucas hid his face again, still trembling. "I-I feel cruel…" He whispered. "And… and inconsiderate, and cumbersome, and generally just a problem…"

Melissa listened to him, shoulders sinking as he continued to talk. "But… but you're not a problem…" She insisted still, rubbing circles into his back. "Not to me… you haven't done anything wrong, Lu."

"I-I've done so much wrong…" Lucas whispered. "I… I keep hurting myself, and you guys have to deal with me…"

"You don't do it on purpose," Melissa insisted, tipping his chin up to look at her. "And if you're thinking of last night, that wasn't your fault either. You should know that, honey."

Lucas looked up at Melissa weakly, still not seeming very convinced. "B-But I still feel guilty about it… I should never have gone out. I should've known better. I was so… stupid…"

"Lu…" Melissa whispered weakly, burying her face back in his shoulder. "Please, it's not your fault… you didn't do anything wrong. It wasn't your fault. How were you possibly supposed to know?"

Lucas shrugged a bit. "I-I should've known better than to go out alone knowing she could be out there…" He hiccuped weakly and held tighter to Melissa.

Melissa rubbed his back softly, letting out a soft sigh. Resting her head on his shoulder, she kissed his shoulder softly. "I should have warned you, honey."

"You shouldn't have had to warn me. I should've known better on my own… and you were at work, anyway." Lucas sighed shakily.

"But I could have before I went to work," Melissa whispered, sitting up on the couch. "Have you taken your meds?"

"Meds…? Um…" Lucas considered for a few seconds, still not seeming entirely there. "No, I don't think I've taken them yet…"