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Started May 16, 2020 by @ElderGodSwimwithGamers group

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Nix closed his eyes, flushing lightly. "How do you know, though? He spends a lot of time with Zachary…"

"He does," Derlik said softly. "And you've been spending a lot of time with me," he pointed out gently.

"Yeah, I guess so…" Nix toyed a bit with his hem and looked away. "But that's partially because he doesn't need me around all the time."

"Well… do you care any less about Cas while you're away from him?" Derlik pointed out.

"W-Well, no… of course not." Nix looked up at Derlik weakly. "I'm always worried about him."

"Well, Cas isn't around you all the time," Derlik continued. "That doesn't mean he doesn't worry about you, or that he stopped caring."

"But how do you know?" Nix asked softly, nibbling a bit on one of his knuckles. "W-What if he doesn't love me anymore?"

"Nix," Derlik said softly. He took the man's hand in his own, holding him close. "In all my years, I've found one thing to be true; when someone has a connection to another to the level Cas does to you, then the possibility of it being broken is practically none."

Nix buried his face in Derlik's chest, trembling a bit. "I-I'm sorry… I'm… I'm probably being stupid, aren't I…?" He asked weakly.

"No, no," Derlik said quickly. "You're not being stupid. It's clear this is a genuine concern for this, and I can see it really scares you. I'm just trying to help, it doesn't mean you're stupid." Derlik hugged Nix close, kissing his head again.

Nix whimpered softly and huddled closer to Derlik, wrapping his legs around the god's waist. "B-But I shouldn't be doubting Cas like this… that's horrible of me…"

"It's not," Derlik promised. "Cas has doubted a lot of people before, hasn't he?" Derlik was grasping now- he didn't know if Cas had or not, not really.

"Well, I guess… but most of them were his ex boyfriends, and that doubt is… definitely warranted." Nix sighed.

"Well, you've seen him doubt so many people," Derlik said softly, running with it. Damnit, he wasn't a therapist!
"All you've seen is Cas being hurt by people he cares about. Now, you're doubting whether you can trust the people you care about."

"I-I guess so, I just… I don't want him to be mad at me if he finds out I was thinking this kinda stuff…"

"He won't be." Derlik would make sure of it. Though, he was sure Serna and Zachary would too, in their own ways.

Nix huddled closer to Derlik and rubbed at his eyes a bit. "I-I just… I want him to love me again…"

"He does, sweetie," Derlik said softly. "I bet, if you went into that room right now, and asked if he still loved you, he'd say yes."

"But I don't wanna bother him…" Nix murmured, curling in on himself a bit more to feel safer.

"I… I know." Derlik pulled Nix a bit closer to himself. He rubbed the man's back, kissing his forehead.

"I just wanna not think for a while…" Nix yawned and closed his eyes. "Might try and sleep…"

"Okay, then…" Derlik kissed Nix's head again, moving to lay down on the couch with thim.

Nix huddled up against Derlik's chest, tucking his head under the god's chin so he could get more comfortable.

Derlik let out a gentle breath, content to rest with Nix.
"Mm…"

It didn't take Nix very long to fall asleep in Derlik's arms, and he stayed asleep until he heard a door closing. He jolted awake, startled by the sound, and looked around to find its source.

Derlik had fallen asleep as well, snoring softly.
"Huh-?"
Serna was making her way out of her workroom, wiping her hands off.
"Why, hello, sleepyheads," the goddess teased gently. She moved over, lightly patting Nix's head.

"Hello, Miss Serna…" Nix leaned into the petting and yawned, obviously not quite awake yet. "What time is it?"

"It's just past six," The goddess said with a smile. "Did you have a good nap?"

Nix nodded a bit and rubbed at his eyes tiredly. "Mhmm… got kinda bored so I just slept."

"Ah, okay then." Serna knelt down, lightly scratching behind Nix's ears.
"Are you hungry for dinner?"