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Started November 14, 2019 by Deleted user

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Yo you can PM me, Owen. I'll listen and/or give advice. I'm not always on, but I like you and want you to be well.

well first of all, mood
second of all… Um, I can't really give advice on vents… Someone helpful take over

The amount of books I'm currently reading and the amount of books I need to read quickly before they expire is very overwhelming and I have no desire to read any of them except the nostalgic rereads. And I can't focus enough to read physical books or ebooks. I read like 15 pages and all I could do was be confused over how everyone's related and sing the song from Barbie in the 12 dancing princesses
I have a dentist appointment tomorrow and I really don't want to go

Goodnight you stupid fucks, I love most of you. Don't kill each other and don't get killed.

Mood. I'm reading a graphic novel rn and it's super fun, and I'm getting some anticipated holds tomorrow (Calamity Jane retelling, gay political fantasy, and queer witch contemporary) so I'm excited for those at least, but none of the books I currently have are intriguing me.

Tired me writing/Rping: And he quietly quieted his quiet breath

Dude, I feel that.

Heck I can't sleep
I'm not super great at giving advice but my PM's are always open if you want someone to listen and/or give mediocre advice

Tired me writing/Rping: And he quietly quieted his quiet breath

Dude, I feel that.

Same.

Yo you can PM me, Owen. I'll listen and/or give advice. I'm not always on, but I like you and want you to be well.

Thanks Dom. I'm rather fond of you as well, and I extend the same offer to you :)
('Tis a depiction of a human facial expression)

well first of all, mood
second of all… Um, I can't really give advice on vents… Someone helpful take over

Lol it's ok, I don't always need advice. It's nice to know it's a mood and not just a me thing, ya know? So thanks, Mir.

Yo you can PM me, Owen. I'll listen and/or give advice. I'm not always on, but I like you and want you to be well.

Thanks Dom. I'm rather fond of you as well, and I extend the same offer to you :)
('Tis a depiction of a human facial expression)

But seriously, if you're, down, pm me and I'll see what I can do.
(Ah, indeed.)

The amount of books I'm currently reading and the amount of books I need to read quickly before they expire is very overwhelming and I have no desire to read any of them except the nostalgic rereads. And I can't focus enough to read physical books or ebooks. I read like 15 pages and all I could do was be confused over how everyone's related and sing the song from Barbie in the 12 dancing princesses
I have a dentist appointment tomorrow and I really don't want to go

Goodnight you stupid fucks, I love most of you. Don't kill each other and don't get killed.

Mood. I'm reading a graphic novel rn and it's super fun, and I'm getting some anticipated holds tomorrow (Calamity Jane retelling, gay political fantasy, and queer witch contemporary) so I'm excited for those at least, but none of the books I currently have are intriguing me.

oh lordy same. I'm angry at my library. I placed six holds and got four of them today, but not two of the six books. And the two I didn't get are the two I really wanted the most "My Plain Jane" and "The Cruel Prince"

Tired me writing/Rping: And he quietly quieted his quiet breath

Dude, I feel that.

Same.

apparently I deleted the original post bc i'm a dumbass, but at least I'm not alone lmao

Heck I can't sleep
I'm not super great at giving advice but my PM's are always open if you want someone to listen and/or give mediocre advice

Sleep is essential for the creative process. Also thank you <3

Tired me writing/Rping: And he quietly quieted his quiet breath

Dude, I feel that.

Same.

apparently I deleted the original post bc i'm a dumbass, but at least I'm not alone lmao

Quoting it made a mile of script. So I copied it.

The amount of books I'm currently reading and the amount of books I need to read quickly before they expire is very overwhelming and I have no desire to read any of them except the nostalgic rereads. And I can't focus enough to read physical books or ebooks. I read like 15 pages and all I could do was be confused over how everyone's related and sing the song from Barbie in the 12 dancing princesses
I have a dentist appointment tomorrow and I really don't want to go

Goodnight you stupid fucks, I love most of you. Don't kill each other and don't get killed.

Mood. I'm reading a graphic novel rn and it's super fun, and I'm getting some anticipated holds tomorrow (Calamity Jane retelling, gay political fantasy, and queer witch contemporary) so I'm excited for those at least, but none of the books I currently have are intriguing me.

oh lordy same. I'm angry at my library. I placed six holds and got four of them today, but not two of the six books. And the two I didn't get are the two I really wanted the most "My Plain Jane" and "The Cruel Prince"

Oof I didn't like My Plain Jane. Love TCP though
That happened to me a few weeks ago, it was especially annoying since I knew the one I wanted was on the shelves. I got it a few days later, which was nice.

The amount of books I'm currently reading and the amount of books I need to read quickly before they expire is very overwhelming and I have no desire to read any of them except the nostalgic rereads. And I can't focus enough to read physical books or ebooks. I read like 15 pages and all I could do was be confused over how everyone's related and sing the song from Barbie in the 12 dancing princesses
I have a dentist appointment tomorrow and I really don't want to go

Goodnight you stupid fucks, I love most of you. Don't kill each other and don't get killed.

Mood. I'm reading a graphic novel rn and it's super fun, and I'm getting some anticipated holds tomorrow (Calamity Jane retelling, gay political fantasy, and queer witch contemporary) so I'm excited for those at least, but none of the books I currently have are intriguing me.

oh lordy same. I'm angry at my library. I placed six holds and got four of them today, but not two of the six books. And the two I didn't get are the two I really wanted the most "My Plain Jane" and "The Cruel Prince"

Oof I didn't like My Plain Jane. Love TCP though
That happened to me a few weeks ago, it was especially annoying since I knew the one I wanted was on the shelves. I got it a few days later, which was nice.

oof alright
Yeah. I'm second for TCP so that's understandable, but still

Ooh wait it was My Lady Jane, not My Plain Jane. Whoops

AHHHH I LOVE MY LADY JANE!!!!

Lmao that was a much different response

But that's good to hear! I'm hoping that I like it

ME TOO!!! I JUST GOT MY PLAIN JANE AND I CAN'T WAIT TO READ IT

Ha, I'm getting My Calamity Jane tomorrow!

:o no spoilers!

_{that's a face}

Yo you can PM me, Owen. I'll listen and/or give advice. I'm not always on, but I like you and want you to be well.

Thanks Dom. I'm rather fond of you as well, and I extend the same offer to you :)
('Tis a depiction of a human facial expression)

But seriously, if you're, down, pm me and I'll see what I can do.
(Ah, indeed.)

Maybe another time, I'm going to bed now. What a night. Thank you, Dom. <3

G'night, Owen. Sleep soundly.

Night!

Good night, my friend.

bruh

My friend got a haircut and she looks like Willy Wonka from the 2005 version of the movie.

That sentence is giving me such horrible flashbacks.
I finally have one thing to be excited for! IDK when, but my cousin might be dying my hair hot pink. Bleaching sucks, but it'll be worth it just to look even more obnoxious.

On the other hand, I'm just waiting for any excuse to hide in my room and never come out again. Eating and chatting feels like a chore and I honestly wish I could just get dropped into a brine pool.

You know, somedays I want to vent, but it feels like it'd be a complete waste of time. It doesn't help me, and I'm pretty sure that almost no one gives a damn.
But whatever, here I am now. I've given up on most other options at this point. Pain doesn't hurt the same anymore, but it's not like it's something I can resist anyway. But what does it really matter? I'll be gone in like a week anyway. Either way, I guess I'll just get straight to the point.

I feel so alone. Typical, right? Fuck yeah, it is. But it's how I feel. Despite how many times people say that they love me or care about me, it always feels like a lie. As if they're just saying it as to not hurt my oh-so fragile feelings. Maybe it's because of my past experiences, but it's just the way I am. I feel sort of bad pushing the feelings onto you all.
I feel disgusted. With myself, of course. I feel like I can get nowhere in this world without selling myself to someone. It hurts. I don't feel like a person or a basic human being. I feel like a toy. Something to be played with, tossed aside for later, and eventually forgotten about.
I'm bitter. So truly bitter. And I hate it. I shouldn't be this way, but I am. But I don't think I should explain exactly what makes me bitter because I'm pretty sure I'll sound like an attention whore if I do.
Really, I just want someone to understand. I don't want to bite back half of the words I do, but I feel like if I don't, no one here will look at me the same. It's terrible, living with a filter over my mouth. Because not a damn person in the world will truly know what I really feel.
I hate thinking I'm getting better just to feel like this. Crushed, dizzy, blinded by tears, afraid, and alone. I'm sick of it. I feel like my life is just a huge example of what not to do. I've screwed myself over way too many times. I can't recover from this. I can't turn back from this road I've paved. Not without every single person I know and love hating me and leaving me behind. I don't want that. I'm in a constant state of conflict. I want someone to love me, but I'm hardly ever myself. I don't know what the fuck to do anymore.
I can't do this. So many nights wasted, stained by tears and blood. The bad thoughts and memories getting to me. Everything is too stressful. I just want this to go away. I want to escape.

Shutting up sounds like a good option. I'm pretty sure I've reached my limit for spilling my feelings. Sorry to waste your time for whoever reads this.

oh zach…
this most likely won't help at all, but my time wasn't wasted at all-
if there was anything i could do to help, i would-
i swear.
however, we're all still just strangers on the internet, whether we call ourselves frens or not
we live on opposite sides of the country
there isn't a way for me to help you right now,
but i hope you feel better soon,
even if its just a teensy bit

offers big hugs

on another note
i went to write something cause i dont feel too great today
but like now im looking at it and realising
i relate to half of this way too much
i didnt mean for this to turn into a vent
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