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Started November 14, 2019 by Deleted user

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DOMK
Officiate the wedding!!

Hmm. Sure. As long as I don't have to meddle religiously.

They just need the Princess Bride speech

1100! :D

Yay! :D

DOMK
Officiate the wedding!!

Hmm. Sure. As long as I don't have to meddle religiously.

They just need the Princess Bride speech

And I shall be glad to provide this thing.

welp
they arrived
anna’s officially in her new house, she even sent me a video tour
her best friend even made an appearance
they’re so happy…

_{i miss her dammit}

Dang, Ella. That sucks.

^^^^^^^^^^^

i wish i could move out, that would be a relief for me

i’ll be alright
it’s just gonna take some time to get used to.

I have two dusty clouds of soft fluffy happiness biting desperately at my fingers for some oat so that’s helping a bit-

since when did clouds have sharp razor fangs of destruction
ow

Good news though, my books are okay from when I spilled water on the earlier

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See normally I just stare at my face for a loooooooooong time and have no idea why.

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See normally I just stare at my face for a loooooooooong time and have no idea why.

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you do that too?

So uh. While we're on this topic…every time I get a knife out of a drawer to do something (cut cheese, usually) I always have this thought of "What if i just jabbed this into my thigh as hard as i could?" like…it's not something I'm actually going to do, but it happens every time i get a knife out

Actually I think that's kind of normal. I think any time you have a weapon in your hands, you immediately think "what if I shot myself or something lol." It's not normal to consider acting on it.

But I wouldn't know tbh. I've been a 'self harmer' for so long I don't know what's normal and what's not with those thoughts. I mean, I can't even use a lighter. I start shaking. And usually end up burning my wrist.

Ah. Yeah. It happens with other things, too, but I don't self-harm so…idk.

I'm sorry, Mir

Yup intrusive thoughts are normal
still not over the time my brain tried to convince me to throw my chip into the boy's bathroom

I'm sorry, Mir

shrugIt's fine. Usually it doesn't even hurt anymore, if I'm honest.

why is it that when i try to help they just push me away
i cant do this anymore
i cant
i'm thinking about self-harm again
and the butterflies do not help anymore
i just
i cant do this anymore
if i cant help myself
and i can't help my frens either
then what's the point of being here anymore?
what's the point of living?
maybe i'm better off dead
no
i am better off dead

Ahh
my brain tried to get me to throw my phone out of the bus window while we were driving and i'm like ???

Alright Izzy.
If there's one thing you're not gonna do, it's die on me.
What's going on?

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when you're having a nice family fire but all you can think about is sticking your arm or leg into the flames. Maybe your whole body, who knows.

You wouldn't be able to keep it up.

Yup intrusive thoughts are normal
still not over the time my brain tried to convince me to throw my chip into the boy's bathroom

What chip?

Yup intrusive thoughts are normal
still not over the time my brain tried to convince me to throw my chip into the boy's bathroom

What chip?

potato