Kinda bumming out at the moment. Missing my friends and and family. Missing my shows that are on hold. Also bummed that nobody wants to read one of my old rp….
Whatever, its not like I was planning on attempting a reboot au version of it at some point or anything….I mean shoot me a link and I'll give it a look
https://www.notebook.ai/forum/sharing-critiques/power-play#post_2134500
I need to stop opening my mouth, every time I speak things just get worse-
why am i this fucking pathetic?!
why can’t i just be a normal, properly functioning human being…
I need to stop opening my mouth, every time I speak things just get worse-
why am i this fucking pathetic?!
why can’t i just be a normal, properly functioning human being…
MOOD
I need to stop opening my mouth, every time I speak things just get worse-
why am i this fucking pathetic?!
why can’t i just be a normal, properly functioning human being…
I felt that! You wouldn't happen to have autism or exhibit any symptoms of it, would you? (Assuming you mean normal, everyday conversations.)
I don’t think so… maybe? according to my mother adhd seems more likely but then again she barely knows me
So i just had an anxiety attack. and my mom thought i was having a seizure. I told her, i was just thinking, and she was thinking i was smoking something. I Don't smoke. and barely drink.
:) i :) want :) to :) bury :) myself :) alive :)
I want to punch someone :)
:) i :) want :) to :) bury :) myself :) alive :)
You okay dude?
nope
i will be
but nope
wanna talk about it fren?
Ella, Do you want a Mom Relsey hug? you can have a hug.
hug sounds good
i would talk but I’m also waiting for cake and I can’t look like I’m crying when I go to eat some cake or else people will ask what’s wrong and i don’t want that
to put it simply:
i said words, but stupid
mom responded to words in a completely normal and innocent way but due to my own issues I perceived it as negative
negative bad
i sad
time to go sit in corner and get angry at myself again because i’m clearly such a burden and should perish even though during the conversation she literally said the exact opposite-
ok there’s cake now
act natural
So uhm I spent the past 30 minutes looking at pictures of Koi fish and im just never let down from their majestic selves swimming and eating on food like no tomorrow. That's my ONE favorite part about Zoo's . Is all the adorable Koi fish.
:/
to put it simply:
i said words, but stupid
mom responded to words in a completely normal and innocent way but due to my own issues I perceived it as negative
negative bad
i sad
time to go sit in corner and get angry at myself again because i’m clearly such a burden and should perish even though during the conversation she literally said the exact opposite-
Hey, we're going to try to calm ok. One, you are a human being, you are going to make mistakes, it's ok to do that because you are a human. Two, You. Are. Important. You Have Value. Try to breath focus on something other than your own thought's imagine a great big eraser getting rid of all of those thoughts, draw something new on that space.
what is the zoo possessing?
Zoo’s?
Zoo’s what?
what is the zoo possessing?
Zoo’s?
Zoo’s what?
What does the zoo have that's so important?
what is the zoo possessing?
Zoo’s?
Zoo’s what?
What does the zoo have that's so important?
I certainly don’t know
what is the zoo possessing?
Zoo’s?
Zoo’s what?
What does the zoo have that's so important?
I certainly don’t know
I wasn't aware 'Zoo's' and 'Koi' were proper nouns either.
oh for heck's sake
what is the zoo possessing?
Zoo’s?
Zoo’s what?
What does the zoo have that's so important?
I certainly don’t know
Someone please tell me I don't like being out of the loop
what is the zoo possessing?
Zoo’s?
Zoo’s what?
What does the zoo have that's so important?
I certainly don’t know
I wasn't aware 'Zoo's' and 'Koi' were proper nouns either.
Koi are our overlords, Miriam. They deserve the capitalization.
to put it simply:
i said words, but stupid
mom responded to words in a completely normal and innocent way but due to my own issues I perceived it as negative
negative bad
i sad
time to go sit in corner and get angry at myself again because i’m clearly such a burden and should perish even though during the conversation she literally said the exact opposite-Hey, we're going to try to calm ok. One, you are a human being, you are going to make mistakes, it's ok to do that because you are a human. Two, You. Are. Important. You Have Value. Try to breath focus on something other than your own thought's imagine a great big eraser getting rid of all of those thoughts, draw something new on that space.
thank you
i'll try to do that
what is the zoo possessing?
Zoo’s?
Zoo’s what?
What does the zoo have that's so important?
I certainly don’t know
I wasn't aware 'Zoo's' and 'Koi' were proper nouns either.
Koi are our overlords, Miriam. They deserve the capitalization.
No, that's andrew (Our Supreme Lord and Overseer) and the worms
oh for heck's sake
I’m sorry Ella, I couldn’t
just
possessives as plurals hurt
I’ll stop now
You can't expect people on a writing website to not comment on grammar
to put it simply:
i said words, but stupid
mom responded to words in a completely normal and innocent way but due to my own issues I perceived it as negative
negative bad
i sad
time to go sit in corner and get angry at myself again because i’m clearly such a burden and should perish even though during the conversation she literally said the exact opposite-
Okay that actually sounds exactly like RSD which usually appears with adhd. Doesn’t mean that you have adhd, but that sounds 100% like RSD