flashback to freshman year watching the Romeo and Juliet version with a butt and actors the actual age of the characters
Romeo and Juliet hits so much harder when the actors are actually in their early teens. You watch it and you're like "oh my God, these are children and they're about to commit suicide because of their parents' stupid feud-" and that's a lot more powerful than watching them being played by 2 adults so they can add a sex scene in :/
It was really old and there wasn't an actual sex scene, but you saw his butt and one of her boobs the morning after
WAIT I WATCHED THAT ONE
My teacher awkwardly moved the mouse to cover up Juliet's boob but it was too late
My teacher didn't even mention it. She mentioned the butt and that CP teachers would skip over it, but she wouldn't because we were Honors and "mature"
flashback to freshman year watching the Romeo and Juliet version with a butt and actors the actual age of the characters
Romeo and Juliet hits so much harder when the actors are actually in their early teens. You watch it and you're like "oh my God, these are children and they're about to commit suicide because of their parents' stupid feud-" and that's a lot more powerful than watching them being played by 2 adults so they can add a sex scene in :/
It was really old and there wasn't an actual sex scene, but you saw his butt and one of her boobs the morning after
WAIT I WATCHED THAT ONE
My teacher awkwardly moved the mouse to cover up Juliet's boob but it was too late
My teacher didn't even mention it. She mentioned the butt and that CP teachers would skip over it, but she wouldn't because we were Honors and "mature"
Lol I was in Honors and we were just watching it, and my teacher goes "OH!" and tried to cover it up
I'm listening to an audiobook and the narrator just went "Oh. He thinks we're his kids" in the most nonchalant voice I'm wheezing
Can I be real for a second about something that's gonna make me sound like a coward?
Yeah, hop on the coward train. next stop: humiliation town. finger guts enthusiastically
I swear that made sense in my head-
I am so stuck in between wanting to die and being utterly afraid of death.
I mean, I think a lot of us know my history with suicide and self harm. And y'all know I still have relapses despite my meds, my therapy and my progress.
So you would think I'm not afraid to die.
And when I'm in those states, I'm not. At all. Because I want to die.
But otherwise, I am so afraid of dying (and getting old in general) that I've had full on anxiety attacks because I know in 60-70 ish years I'll probably die.
It's a mix between the idea of life just being over and the unknown. I kind of believe in heaven (yes I'm still Wiccan, I'm just forever in that place where I'm trying to figure out what I really think and I'm currently researching the traditional rebirth belief to see where I stand) but at the same time, I kind of believe that once you're dead… You're out. Nothing comes next. You're just gone.
And I know that I shouldn't worry about it but I do.
I dunno.
That was just my little rant because I didn't want to take the attention off of anyone in the venting chat, given the circumstances.
Surprisingly I'm not afraid of death, just of dying without doing anything worthwhile.
I think dying is what scares me the most.
The process of feeling your body shut down.
That scares me. But death doesn’t.
miriam you're scared of death because you probably don't actually want to die. you just want to kill off a certain part of yourself, or end the life you're living.
you're dealing with major depression, and a lot of other mental things. your mother, from what i've gathered, suck majorly and is a horrible person to live with. you're trapped in a shitty environment with a bad support system for help. that's what needs to die, your situation. not you.
death is absolutely and utterly terrifying, so that's perfectly normal. religion is often based, at least partly, on a need for some sort of option other than oblivion after death. because it's scary and unknown, you're right.
okay so crocs is now one of my favorite people
idk but I just needed to hear that
thanks love <3
also Crocs (this is wildly off topic)
I used to be like, super rude to you earlier in this chat
and i feel bad
i’m sorry
you’re super cool
okay so crocs is now one of my favorite people
idk but I just needed to hear that
thanks love <3
aawww. np my dude. for all our differences, you are a good person, and i understand what you're feeling just enough to try and offer some help. keep toughin' it out man, we like seeing you here, at least until you quit nb
also Crocs (this is wildly off topic)
I used to be like, super rude to you earlier in this chat
and i feel bad
i’m sorry
you’re super cool
apparently it's all water under the bridge dude cause i barely remember any of that. i. what did you even say that was rude?
also ur cool too and apology absolutely accepted
d00d I was so not in a good place for the first chunk of time I was here and I'm so sorry lmao
I was a bitch
I like to think I'm better now
I don't think I was ever rude to you but you're cool and I want you to know that.
also Crocs (this is wildly off topic)
I used to be like, super rude to you earlier in this chat
and i feel bad
i’m sorry
you’re super cool
apparently it's all water under the bridge dude cause i barely remember any of that. i. what did you even say that was rude?
also ur cool too and apology absolutely accepted
uhh hh great question I must’ve deleted it or something, cus you smacked on me for something stupid that i said lmao.
:ooooo thanks dude!
also like, I like to think I am wildly different from mid 2019 Emi. i definitely cooled down a lot lmao
i think i've already apologized a million times but i'm really sorry for the nightmare that was me
It's interesting to look back and see how much everyone's changed
It's interesting to look back and see how much everyone's changed
I like to think I'm better.
Not sure if I am, but I sure fucking hope so.
also like, I like to think I am wildly different from mid 2019 Emi. i definitely cooled down a lot lmao
speaking of
A friend of mine is kinda unsure of your opinion of them, mostly due to your past behavioral habits i'm trying to word this as respectfully as possible but it's not really working
Rvan?
I…have not been here long enough to have a past self to hate
Which makes me hope I won't look back on myself a year from now and go "wow i was such a dumbass" but hey
I'm already a dumbass tho so idk
wait emi where did i do that???
Me too.
You're a hell of a lot better than whoever had your current account before you
