I hope no one minds me joining just to complain for a minute, but… social quarantine sucks, my dudes. I'm spending far too much time with my toxic father, and I feel awful because I can't get enough energy to do fun things with my mom and sister (which makes me feel worse, and it's a relentless cycle lol (this is in like no way funny, I'm just too awkward to be serious)), and it's now setting in that I'm not going to see most of the people I really care about and like I can't- like - ugh. Just, social quarantine really sucks.
awww that really sucks em
sorry you have to deal with that
when your family’s fine and loving so you really can’t complain but they annoy you so freakin much and you have to be in social distance with them and you hate not seeing the people you have actual healthy relationships with and you can’t go anywhere cuz they won’t let you and geez i’m just a mess lately. we’re like three days in and i’m already going insane
^ That is literally the exact situation I'm in, I really feel for you mate. We can get through it, though. Quarantine can only last for like… 8 weeks.
If you're feeling sad, listen to the tickle-me-wiggly jingle.
update: it is nearly 2am and i am still up. cant sleep. not okay…
My sanity is slowly being chipped away. I'm gonna start writing letters to myself.
another update: didn't sleep. shaking. terrified. not okay.
nia hun… you need to sleep
i was shaking and basically in a never-ending panic attack all night. i am tired and scared because i got an email from school saying i shouldn't be taking these days off because of what happened because it shows that im immature and can handle the truth.
oh nia… i'm sorry…
they're wrong, okay? you aren't whatever they claim you are
you're nia, a wonderful bean who shouldn't have to suffer from this abuse people give you
it's not fair, it really isn't
i was called into the office, my home teacher, a pastor and the head of senior school was there, here is the baseline of what they said.
‘you are endangering the other students by going to them if you are not okay. we need to protect them and you need to help us. come to the adult because we will understand. don’t talk to your friends about anything because it will freak them out and we don’t want that.’
now, this is all well and good, but i dont tell people in my real life whats going on…
i'm so sorry i hate when adults do that
(and i have the same problem about not talking to people, but i would suggest trying? at least with people you trust)
This is sort of a late reply but like… that's so absolutely fucking not okay. If you aren't okay, you're allowed to tell people you're not okay. You're allowed to tell the people you choose to tell that you are not okay. What they're saying is so damaging and just - god, that sucks. I'm so sorry, friend.
update: still not okay. these days i took of to get better have only made me worse…
i'm so sorry. feel free to pm me if you need anything although idk how quickly i'll respond because i probably can't come on again until the end of the day
sorry everyone, i’ll shut up…
i’ve had like, four panic attacks today alone this is all so fucking draining.
sorry everyone, i’ll shut up…
i’ve had like, four panic attacks today alone this is all so fucking draining.
- please don't shut up you're awesome, you deserve to be listened to, and we like having you around
- i'm sorry that things are draining
please feel free to talk to me
wow i have realized once again how bad i am at at comforting people,,, or at least trying to comfort people
why must life treat me this way???
it's okay i'm also bad at this-
wow i have realized once again how bad i am at at comforting people,,, or at least trying to comfort people
why must life treat me this way???
izzy you are literally amazing at it
you did so well bub, you always do!
thank
but seriously you haven't seen me irl tho
you have not seen how bad i can be
