It is though. Unless you think there is another physical way to define yourself.
I agree. It is me, it's just not an accurate representation of the internal me. Ya feel?
You have a personal mental image of how you should be but actually aren't. But even more than most people.
Sleep well, Red.
God damn can my brain stop convincing me to push away all my friends, like I don't really want then to have to see me or deal with me in this kind of mental state but I know pushing them away isn't the right thing to do
In other news my laptop should be delivered tomorrow which is fabulous but nerve wracking and I made a poster for the game I made which is also being printed tomorrow
I hate this girl at school she is such a bitch and she is so sarcastic and she literally climbs trees during sport and goes on piggy backs with her friend i hate her rreeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee grrrrrrrrrrrrrr
I hate being depressed…. Why am I depressed? I don't have anything to be depressed about!
i'm starting to think somethings wrong again but i'm not sure what :/
i just,,,, don't wanna get up in the mornings anymore again
i don't wanna do anything but sleep
but the more i do that, the worse i feel
'nd that's why i failed a grade twice already, i just,,,, didn't want to do ANYTHING except sleep. so that's what i did.
i know i have to go to school no matter what, but it's getting really really hard again
but like,,, things have been getting a bit better?? i've readjusted to life again, i get art therapy on fridays, i no longer have toxic friends, and i've been trying to get more into my hobbies again
and yet, i want to do nothing but sleep.
i'm mostly just disappointed in myself more than anything tho. i know i can be better than this bUT HERE WE ARE-
Me: sees a tumblr post on pinterest
Me: me too dude
Another tumblr person responding to said post: this is a symptom of depression
Me: 👀
Aaaand I just realized I forgot my lunch. I'm already hungry
Oh no
Oof. That sucks, Pickles.
I've adapted to not eating breakfast or lunch.
I eat half my lunch before 10 am this is a problem. But I texted my parents so hopefully one of them can bring it to me. I'm 90% sure I forgot it because I'm wearing nice clothes. Something bad always happens when I dress nice. It's colder than I thought it would be oops
i. am. not. okay. and i would talk to my brother but he has a funeral tomorrow and then is taking fri-mon to recover from that. so i'm feeling kinda alone and i wish i could help him but he won't let me.
Oh me oh my oh heck I'm staying at school until 6. Well I usually go without a snack after school so maybe I'll be fine?
FLIP IT'S THE NECKLACE NOT MY CLOTHES. I SWEAR THIS NECKLACE IS CURSED. BAD STUFF HAPPENS WHEN I WEAR IT. EVERY TIME
i. am. not. okay. and i would talk to my brother but he has a funeral tomorrow and then is taking fri-mon to recover from that. so i'm feeling kinda alone and i wish i could help him but he won't let me.
That sucks. I spent a whole twenty seconds trying to figure out what a frimon was
i. am. not. okay. and i would talk to my brother but he has a funeral tomorrow and then is taking fri-mon to recover from that. so i'm feeling kinda alone and i wish i could help him but he won't let me.
That sucks.
I spent a whole twenty seconds trying to figure out what a frimon was
this isn’t the first time i’ve been scared to talk to him. i feel like i can’t tell him stuff because he doesn’t actually care about me…
friday to monday aha
i. am. not. okay. and i would talk to my brother but he has a funeral tomorrow and then is taking fri-mon to recover from that. so i'm feeling kinda alone and i wish i could help him but he won't let me.
That sucks.
I spent a whole twenty seconds trying to figure out what a frimon wasthis isn’t the first time i’ve been scared to talk to him. i feel like i can’t tell him stuff because he doesn’t actually care about me…
friday to monday aha
He probably does care about you and is just distracted
yup, I'm just dumb
i. am. not. okay. and i would talk to my brother but he has a funeral tomorrow and then is taking fri-mon to recover from that. so i'm feeling kinda alone and i wish i could help him but he won't let me.
That sucks.
I spent a whole twenty seconds trying to figure out what a frimon wasthis isn’t the first time i’ve been scared to talk to him. i feel like i can’t tell him stuff because he doesn’t actually care about me…
friday to monday ahaHe probably does care about you and is just distracted
yup, I'm just dumb
it’s been like this for years. and i feel that way about everyone. i feel no one actually cares about me… (you can tell i’m at my lowest here aha…)
you are not dumb dearie.
I know how that feels. But unfortunately, I don't know how to help. If you ever want to talk, I'm here almost constantly
how… how am i supposed to help a friend who i've only talked to once but still consider a friend?? i- i'm not made for this, i can't comfort people when i'm not close to them but they-their mental state is worse than mine, and i want to help them- but i can't- and i- i'm breaking…
Wow, I'm so close to either stabbing someone or crying as I stab someone.
My parents are trying to take away all of my support systems in the quest to "fix me"
It is though. Unless you think there is another physical way to define yourself.
I agree. It is me, it's just not an accurate representation of the internal me. Ya feel?
You have a personal mental image of how you should be but actually aren't. But even more than most people.
Yeah. You get it.
Sleep well, Red.
Thank you. I tried.
I saw my ex, who was a toxic cunt after he broke up with me and used me trying to get with my friend, at AC&T. So me being me I looked away and tried not to go up to him, slap him and tell him off. I mean I wasn’t in school so they couldn’t expel me lmao. Should have gave him a piece of my mind though, him and another person are the only people I hate. Yes hate. I hate no one else. I mean I dislike characters but I never hate them. The only other person I hate is basically a perv who talks about rape and makes me very uncomfortable reeeee why me. My day is going to be good though, I have anime club and I’m gonna read RP’s from here with my crush and close friend.
I killed a bug and it’s guts are still on my palm. Now I need to wash my hands, thanks fly. But seriously fuck that fly it landed on my sketchbook, I waited until it got on the table then YEET my hand crushed it. Don’t touch my sketch book bugs I’ll kill you.
Thank you random guy who sits next to me in Psych. You really saved me a sprint across campus and back just to get a scantron for the exam today.
I knew I was forgetting something this morning.
My friends:
Also my friends:
one of them just told me my hair dye job sucks.
the same one who says I'm not allowed to do/try out {to see if it's my thing} 'witch stuff' because she started doing it first.
I'm this close to slapping her.
A fight is about to be had.
That sucks, Mir. Have you asked them to stop the teasing? Have you sat down(so to speak) with them and had a talk about how this makes you feel? Also, with your witchy bitchy friend. Tell her off. Tell her that she can't stop you. But don't like, physically slap her. Do it verbally.
Thank you random guy who sits next to me in Psych. You really saved me a sprint across campus and back just to get a scantron for the exam today.
I knew I was forgetting something this morning.
Y'all gotta bring your own scantrons? Whack