forum "The ocean is prettier with you beside it." | One-On-One | Male/Male Romance | Closed!

Started January 15, 2020 by Deleted user

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Cas looked up at him sympathetically and gave him a tight hug. "I… I know how that feels, honestly. I've got plenty of those myself."

"You do?" Sorrel sniffed, softly. He looked at Cas, and compassion filled his eyes. "I guess that's another thing we have in common, then. Oh well." He whispered. "We're strong, though, and together we can get through it." He decided. "I really met someone extraordinary, didn't I?"

Cas nodded weakly and blushed a bit at Sorrel's last comment. "I'm still nothing special… just someone who didn't have the kindest family."

"Would you ever talk about it? Or am I asking too much of you?" He asked, making sure Cas knew he understood barriers.

"Um… I suppose it's only fair after all you've done for me…" Cas considered for a couple seconds. "To put it simply, my mother left when I was really little, and my father… well, kinda blamed her leaving on me, and started drinking and stuff, and… yeah… gave me a fair few scars himself, which led to quite a few more I'm not proud of."

Sorrel's eyes widened. "Family problems run here, too. My grandfather disappeared when my father was born, and my father did the same thing to me. My mother committed suicide when I was ten, due to my disorders, so I get it. As for the scars you're not proud of, though, that makes me worried." He went on. "I won't let you be scarred again. The world's elements can die, people can die, I won't let it happen."

Cas hugged Sorrel tightly and hid his face in the other's shoulder, his eyes stinging with tears. "I-I… th… thank you…" He stammered, his voice faltering and fading to nothing.

Sorrel held onto Cas as he cried, slowly patting his back as reassuringly as he could. "It's nothing, nothing at all, I love you." He whispered. He hoped that Cas wouldn't catch the last part, because it was embarrassing to him. He'd not said those words since his ex left him, and they felt a little good.

Cas was too preoccupied to notice, lapsing into quiet sobs. He was standing on his toes so he could hug Sorrel more easily, but he was growing weaker from the crying. He started trembling, especially his legs, but he didn't go back down.

Sorrel noticed Cas's struggles, and gently lifted him up. He moved to the modular sofa, and simply sat down. He, taking personal space in mind, laid Cas right beside him, careful not to break their hug up. He could tell the guy needed to let his feelings out, and was relieved that he was doing so. He remained silent, not to disturb Cas.

Cas moved closer to Sorrel until he was basically sitting in the other's lap. He wasn't as concerned about personal space, but he was still afraid to move any closer. He started whispering quiet, shaky apologies over and over.

Sorrel laughed, softly. He noticed Cas was okay with him, and didn't mind it at all. He wrapped his legs around the guy, "Don't worry, don't worry. It's okay. I apologize for my missteps too." He whispered. He kissed Cas's forehead, as if it would calm him down.

Cas blushed and hid his face again, trying to get himself to stop crying. "Y-You didn't do anything wrong, I'm just… I'm… t-too sensitive…"

"Sensitivity is normal, Cas. I'll have you know that people all have their sensitivities." He explained. "I don't mind it, I'm too numb. I needed a little bit of life here." He purred.

Cas rubbed at his teary eyes, his cheeks now blotched with pink from crying. His breathing was still shaky and ragged, but he seemed to be calming down some.

Sorrel gently rocked his body back and forth. He messed with Cas's hair because he seemed to like it. "You've got a really nice heartbeat now, it's going stronger than before." He whispered. It was a random thing to say, but he really needed to liven himself up before it felt like he was dead.

"Um… thanks." Cas closed his eyes and relaxed into Sorrel's touch, sighing quietly. He mumbled something incoherently, blushing a bit after doing so.

"What's that, now?" Sorrel asked. He'd heard Cas say something, but ultimately missed whatever it was.

Cas blushed harder. "Uh… nothing. Just… um… rambling to myself…" He said quietly.

"Are you sure?" Sorrel asked him. He laughed, softly, at Cas's words. He knew it had to be cute, and he wasn't going to stop at wondering.

"Yeah…" Cas hid his face again, not wanting to give anything else away. "Nothing."

"Okay then..!" Sorrel lulled. He didn't mind Cas's sudden guarding of words, it was okay, nonetheless expected. He looked around, honestly unsure of what to do with himself. He then met eyes with Cloud the kitten, and admired all of the little cats.

Cloud mewled loudly at Sorrel, catching Cas's attention. Cas looked over at the cats with a soft smile, and Nix came over to him.

Cloud followed Nix, pretty sure of what he was up to. "Cats are so interesting. They have so much freedom, and don't entirely depend on things." He muttered, with a soft laugh.

"Yeah…" Nix climbed up Cas's leg and sat on his shoulder, purring softly. "They're great. They've helped me through a lot of shit."

"I bet." Sorrel said, thinking of all Cas had told him. "I used to own a few koi fish." He whispered. "They couldn't help me though." He said, with a laugh. "Nix is quite the special thing."

Cas nodded. "He's trained to help with my anxiety." He replied, petting Nix with one hand. "He's definitely something."

"Oh really?" Sorrel asked. "That's awesome." Sorrel exclaimed. Nix was spectacular! "What a smart cutie! Good job!" He purred, scratching between Nix's ears.

Nix pushed his head into Sorrel's hand, rather like Cas had done, purring softly. "Mhmm. I don't know what I'd do without him."

Sorrel grinned with amusement. "I wonder if Cloud can do anything like him, it might help me out one day." Sorrel said, with a laugh. "After all, Nix really helped you."