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Started November 14, 2019 by Deleted user

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I get that.

Emi, my dear, we have to try and embrace the unknown.

the glitch happened and literally everyone was saying OH SNAP in thicc letters

I just want to vent so hard right now. I have so many thoughts in my head and I don’t even know how to make sense of them, so take them as you will.

I just finished the final second half of BoJack Horseman Season Six.

There’s a running joke that spurred from that show

“__ is over, and everything is worse now.”

But that’s what it feels like.

“BoJack Horseman is over, and everything is worse now.”

That show has made me think so much about my own personality and how I take my own mental illnesses. It makes me genuinely think that shows like that and people that work for Netflix just aren’t working to pump out money. BoJack Horseman was a genuine Netflix original series, and I’m so sorry to see it end. It’s a show I could watch over and over and over and over and over, and never get tired of it, nor take the same thing away.

It makes me think. Too much. It makes me think that if I live beyond my twenties, what will happen?

What will happen if I graduate high school?

What will happen if I succeed?

What will happen if I fall into a massive pit like before, but find myself unable to climb out?

Why?

but I’ll never get an answer

because it’s something I have to figure out for myself.

But I don’t want to.

Mood.

I was so ready to take Philosophy in my senior year but I don’t know if I can

I don’t even know if I’ll be here

ever

I feel like I’m living every day on a treadmill, and that treadmill will suddenly be ripped out from under my feet and send me cascading down a giant hill

I won’t be able to catch myself because everything will be gone.

But that’s life?

But for having these thoughts, I’m called “Wise”?

How am I wise? I’m living the same, dreadful life, to just march to the very end

I honestly can't reply with anything besides 'mood' because I don't know either.

This is a part of being human, b.

We crave to know what we cannot.

I don’t

want to hear that

just let me think

I know you care, and you’re trying to help, and sure you might get it, but this show is so important to me, and the message they sent is so profoundly impactful on my state of mind, it’s silly to think about.

I’m sixteen

I’ll just be called stupid or edgy if I provide these thoughts to anyone else

and that’s what these thoughts are.

useless.

Older generations fucked up and left us to clean up, then belittle and mock us for being upset about it.

I love bojack

it’s a hard fucking show

i love it too

I don’t

want to hear that

just let me think

I know you care, and you’re trying to help, and sure you might get it, but this show is so important to me, and the message they sent is so profoundly impactful on my state of mind, it’s silly to think about.

I’m sixteen

I’ll just be called stupid or edgy if I provide these thoughts to anyone else

and that’s what these thoughts are.

useless.

I see.
I'm going to sleep, seeing as I have a forensics meet tomorrow.

Good luck, Em.

<3

Forensic sciences or forensic speaking? I did Radio as my category for a little bit, then dropped it before ever really competing.

um

so I have a friend who I'm really close with and he's been sad lately and I've asked him about it and he said no, he doesn't really wanna talk about it

is there anything else i can do to support him?

Don’t push him to talk about it, but be supportive in other ways, like being around him or offering company when he wants it

alrighty

I think I get what you're feeling Emi. I wish you good luck finding something to help.

Also Nie, you have more family than me. That is an accomplishment.

Honestly, somedays, it feels like more of a curse than an accomplishment.

Haha, we have to do mental health classes in our school.
They talked about suicide qnd drug use wne no2 im on 5h3 vegre of q pqnic wttwck

we had a sudden fire drill and it's. so loud. i hate it so much.
my teacher has ptsd so we briefly talked abt loud noises and it was Good

Haha, we have to do mental health classes in our school.
They talked about suicide qnd drug use wne no2 im on 5h3 vegre of q pqnic wttwck

shit man you got any music to help?

n4po in c,lass

do you want me to take u thru breathing

ill b out of th4 clqss ib q bit

fcuk im hving a panic attack bc of the fuckingfire dirll

fukcing mod

I’m going to ask my crush out again, but to see the sonic movie coming out so I can make fun of it.

Well, it’s been a good run. I have gym. I’m probably going to die. I might be over exaggerating but god damnit I hate gym.

Ouch.

Never mind I survived. Good job me.