ok so I'm not making a joke about it this time but like, I'm genuinely worried about Nate.
He was so sad today and I don't know what to say or do. He's so overwhelmed and I know how that feels and I want to help him so bad, but it's so HARD TO HELP AND I JUS T ajajaOIJAKSJMNDHL,
and basically I sent him this because i was so worried and i don't want him to fall or burn out but i don't know what i said is right
"You probably won't see this until later, but I want you to know that you're so important to me. Seeing you so upset is like agony to me, for I know how you feel. I was this depressed last year, I felt so hopeless, and felt like I was just floundering in the amount of work and stress I had on my shoulders from the change to high school and the massive amount of work I had. I don't WANT you to feel like that. I don't want you to be alone in this mess we call a world because I was alone, too. I know how it feels to not be able to turn to anyone. It just feels like it gets worse and worse. And I really am here for you. I can support you and make you feel better in the best way I can. I believe you can get through this, and I'll be there with you every step of the way. I believe in you, and your hardcore work ethic and how much determination you have in yourself to always push yourself harder. I love you for that, and never let me slow you down, no matter what I think. "
If you couldn't tell I think him slowing down and getting less work done is because of me, and I KNOW IT IS because he pushes himself so hard and I just want him to take care of himself!!! BUT HE"S NOT!!! aahaianaiakaa i don't know what to do
Also my friend looked at a thing I did and was like "I bet you'd be good at calligraphy" and I was like "I'm not" and that makes me sad
I wish I was good at it
Also my friend looked at a thing I did and was like "I bet you'd be good at calligraphy" and I was like "I'm not" and that makes me sad
I wish I was good at it
You can be if you practice a lot and get the proper tools! :3 You can do anything!
Hey um, I back because I drove an hour to the hotel, got checked in, went out for dinner, saw that my tournament got canceled, and drove another hour back home.
So hi again
Hey um, I back because I drove an hour to the hotel, got checked in, went out for dinner, saw that my tournament got canceled, and drove another hour back home.
So hi again
I am genuinely worried, Dom
just
i want him
to
be
joyous
i break people i swear
he swears now? and now he’s depressed? i-
Oh jeez Emi. I doubt it's your fault. At least I think not? Idk dude… There's something in the air, in the culture. Something. I don't even know. But it's probably at least mostly not your fault.
so, again, she knows i like my space and need time to myself or i get s t r e s s e d o u t
but?? she invited???? her boyfriend and his kids over??????????? like,, on the weekend,,, on which she knew i planned to have good 'ol alone time
'nd i don't hate them, but i don't really like 'em either considering my dad's death is still really recent
so i'm not exactly thrilled that they're gonna be here to invade on my me time
and my mom doesn't want to let me hide in my room so i can still have said alone time, she wants me to spend time with them
the MOST interaction i wanted to have today was with internet friends, not face to face with people.
and i know it's really stupid, but it almost bothers me how much my mom likes his kids, it kinda feels like she wants to replace us failures with newer cuter kids 'nd i feel really really bad for feeling that way
Oh dude. Sounds like you're hurting. Hope to God you feel better.
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AHAHSHHSHAHAHAHNSNSJSJ I WANNA ASK SO BADLY I’LL DO IT MONDAYYYYY REEEEEE @LittleStupidPatoG YOU WILL HARASS ME UNTIL I DO IT @Emi-Is-a-Bad-Influence-on-Nate YOU WILL AS WELL
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yea i fucking will
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Lol
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oh update on Nate if any of you are viciously following the news story. Basically Nate read nothing that I showed y’all yesterday but I ended up reiterating it to him and I was just so upset and apparently that showed?
but idk he seems much better today. I think he just needed a break from school. sigh
knowing me I will still be infinitely more concerned
