idk what this vent is but I'm doing it anyway and there's a lot of feelings so buckle up kids

_{First of all I am feeling very strong feelings I get a distinct feeling in my chest or stomach when I'm feeling really strong feelings and I'm feeling that now but idk what the fuck they are. I feel totally normal otherwise and I hate it. Wish I knew wtf was going on there.}

_{Also. I just want privacy. I don't want to have to make sure I have everything deleted every night before I go to bed in case my mom looks through my phone. I want to be able to text my internet friends around my mom without fear of her looking over my shoulder and ask who I'm texting. I want to plug my phone in at night in my own room for fucks sake. I'm gonna be in college in like eight months. I'm gonna be a legal adult in five. And yet my mom doesn't trust me. She doesn't say it explicitly but why the fuck wouldn't she let me plug my phone in in my room if she didn't trust me?}

_{I feel like I'm never gonna get all my school work done by the 14th. And my mom doesn't believe in me and I don't even blame her because who the fuck knows if I'll get it done. I might fucking not. I want to but lets fucking face it. I have the worst fucking work ethic.}

Rant over.

I really feel this, dude. It sucks. I have no advice because I know how hard this is. But hang in there bro.

Also. You know this as well as I do. You're not lazy. You have an issue that is not your fault and is out of your control.

Yeah… I know…..
I try and be nice to myself about it but that shits hard sometimes

Also I got a bag of veggie straws today and it's supposed to have three servings in it
I'm almost done with it. This can't be healthy

Of course it's healthy. They're veggies!

I mean because I ate three servings
And apparently they aren't healthy

idk what this vent is but I'm doing it anyway and there's a lot of feelings so buckle up kids

_{First of all I am feeling very strong feelings I get a distinct feeling in my chest or stomach when I'm feeling really strong feelings and I'm feeling that now but idk what the fuck they are. I feel totally normal otherwise and I hate it. Wish I knew wtf was going on there.}

_{Also. I just want privacy. I don't want to have to make sure I have everything deleted every night before I go to bed in case my mom looks through my phone. I want to be able to text my internet friends around my mom without fear of her looking over my shoulder and ask who I'm texting. I want to plug my phone in at night in my own room for fucks sake. I'm gonna be in college in like eight months. I'm gonna be a legal adult in five. And yet my mom doesn't trust me. She doesn't say it explicitly but why the fuck wouldn't she let me plug my phone in in my room if she didn't trust me?}

_{I feel like I'm never gonna get all my school work done by the 14th. And my mom doesn't believe in me and I don't even blame her because who the fuck knows if I'll get it done. I might fucking not. I want to but lets fucking face it. I have the worst fucking work ethic.}

Rant over.

1. I get what you mean by feeling strongly but not knowing why. It happens all of the time where I'll start shaking a lot (a sign that I'm not feeling well mentally or very sad/mad) but I'm just sitting talking with my friend or just sitting at the computer. What normally works for me when that happens is thinking over anything that could make anxious/sad/mad in that situation and taking long, deep, breaths.
2. I also have little to none privacy in my house, so I can totally relate to what you're saying. I mean, I'm only in 8th grade though so that's just silly that as someone going off to college (which is a feat of it's own and should show responsibility) can't plug their phone in their room. Otherwise I totally get the anxiety of parents going through your phone or asking who you're talking to/texting.
3. That's no way to come at this situation. I know you're capable of great things just by seeing you on here, so I know you're capable of getting this work done. Just make sure you're taking care of yourself first. Get enough sleep, eat well, and stay as unstressed as possible.

One of my teeth I chipped last year during August is now decaying; and you might be wondering why I didn’t get it fixed, well; I’m wondering that too. I thought I was going to get it fixed but apparently the other appointments I had were for different things.

Now it hurts like hell, I can’t close my mouth together without extreme pain and if I accidentally touch that tooth with the upper teeth, it still hurts quite a bit. I can’t sleep because of that as well. Can’t eat certain things either. I’m not sure if I can wait a week to get it extracted either.

There’s nothing I can really do about it right now. Advil does not relieve it (apparently it dulls the pain according to some people, but I just don’t notice it??) and the stuff I had only numbs it temporarily, so I’m hoping it’s not going to get any worse from here.

I've been sick for over two weeks and none of the medicine I have taken has noticeably done a single thing to help me. Ooooof sorry about your tooth ouch. I hate tooth injuries because it's like all you can think about >_< Sorry

I had another dream about The Dude

Yikes… you okay? what happened, If you remember

We were just hanging out again

I think in both dreams we've been, like, together

As in a CoUpLe

I also got married to my best friend in my history classroom in the dream but that's a story for another day

oo conflicting
Sorry to hear that

Yeah

It's getting kind of hard to deal with–

"In some cases, the person represents a feeling that you want or had in your life. You may keep dreaming about them because your subconscious wants you to have that feeling again. In other cases, the person represents a quality you want in your life. For example, imagine that you continue to dream about a former crush"

THANKS GOOGLE

"According to DreamDictionary, if you're dreaming about your crush on an ongoing basis, it means that not only are you probably thinking about them during the day, but you also have a desire to express your true feelings to them, and your subconscious is telling you to just go for it already"

That's a no from me

Is it a crush or did something bad happen? What's the painful reminder?

I need to have an essay outline on a book with no plot tomorrow.
I legit cannot get my thought process to work on this.

What book?

The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy.
It literally has no plot after chapter five…

The literal plot is No Plot

“I got some college emails but then you tell me that you got some too, meaning everyone’s getting them!”

“Nate… you-you probably got more than I did to be honest. I think you’re being hysterical.”

(this conversation lead Nate to the depths of despair)

_(SHOT)

can we talk about the fact that there's a spider the size of a dINNER PLATE?

Australia's Bird Eating Spider. It is Australia's largest spider and can grow bigger than a man's hand. It can make hissing and whistling sounds so it has also picked up the nicknames “barking spider” and “whistling spider”.

Exactly.

It's a beautiful boi
But also w h y

TT–TT

I found one in my bathroom once

??!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
NO BUENO

intense screaming

I HAVEN’T STUTTERED AS MUCH AS USUAL LETS GOOOOOO

I HAVEN’T STUTTERED AS MUCH AS USUAL LETS GOOOOOO

Ok but whoever wrote stutter with that many T’s was an asshole

Lol it’s because ttttttttt

idk what this vent is but I'm doing it anyway and there's a lot of feelings so buckle up kids

_{First of all I am feeling very strong feelings I get a distinct feeling in my chest or stomach when I'm feeling really strong feelings and I'm feeling that now but idk what the fuck they are. I feel totally normal otherwise and I hate it. Wish I knew wtf was going on there.}

_{Also. I just want privacy. I don't want to have to make sure I have everything deleted every night before I go to bed in case my mom looks through my phone. I want to be able to text my internet friends around my mom without fear of her looking over my shoulder and ask who I'm texting. I want to plug my phone in at night in my own room for fucks sake. I'm gonna be in college in like eight months. I'm gonna be a legal adult in five. And yet my mom doesn't trust me. She doesn't say it explicitly but why the fuck wouldn't she let me plug my phone in in my room if she didn't trust me?}

_{I feel like I'm never gonna get all my school work done by the 14th. And my mom doesn't believe in me and I don't even blame her because who the fuck knows if I'll get it done. I might fucking not. I want to but lets fucking face it. I have the worst fucking work ethic.}

Rant over.

I just wanna say that I feel you with the privacy thing. I personally always feel trapped because I can't vent to my IRL friends unless its face to face, because my mom reads my messages, and I can't do anything on my personal google account because my mom has the password…
She won't let me have my own passwords until I'm eighteen or buy my own internet. She won't even let me have any freedom at school either, insisting on me taking certain courses or doing projects acertain way.