forum Do you really want to trust insanity? (Private with Icefire, it's pretty fooking mature, matey)

Started December 04, 2019 by @ElderGodSwimwithGamers group

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Alex let out a breath, staying snuggled close to Gabe. He felt safe. He really, really did, and he wasn't going to stop this unless Gabe did.

Gabe knew what he was doing was wrong, that he couldn't feel this way, or be this way with another man. Still, he pulled himself closer, eyes closed as he put both arms around Alex.

Alex let out a breath. He wondered vaguely if Gabe would have to leave soon. He hoped not, but…he didn't know.

Gabe was snuggled close to Alex, but his lips were pursed. He shouldn't be doing this, this was wrong. He moved as if to let go, but then just tightened his hold.

Alex glanced up at Gabe, raising his eyebrows slightly. "Are you..are you alright with this?" He asked softly.

Gabe was silent for a moment. Was he? He himself didn't know anymore.
"I… yes," he finally said. So long as it stayed at this, he was okay with it.

Alex nodded. "Okay." He said softly, closing his eyes again. He could feel, in the back of his mind, that there was a ghost nearby, and he didn't want to see it. Didn't want to deal with that. He couldn't.

Gabe fell silent, putting his chin in the top of Alex's head again. He let out a soft breath, rubbing his back again. Something felt… Off, but he said nothing.

Alex took a deep breath, not knowing what to do. Please I don't wanna deal with those right now…

"What's wrong?" Gabe said quietly, pulling his head away just enough to look at Alex's face. He looked concerned, wondering if Alex was going to have some sort of episode.

Alex shook his head a little. "Ah… nothing. I-I'm fine." He replied softly, clenching his jaw for a moment. "I just…"

Gabe frowned a little, hand going up to caress hold Alex's head, concern showing.
"What do you need me to do?" He said softly.

Alex shook his head. "Nothing." He replied softly, closing his eyes again. There was nothing Gabe could do. He didn't want to tell Gabe about his abilities. He couldn't.

"Are you sure?" Gabe said, trying not to press too much into it. He just wanted to keep Alex safe.
"You can trust me," he said gently.

Alex nodded. "I-it's…nothing you can do anything about." he whispered, keeping his eyes shut tightly.

Gabe's eyebrows creased.
"Okay. Just remember I'm right here for you." He held Alex close, as if to hide him away from whatever he was facing. He rested his forehead against Alex's.

Alex took a deep breath. At the forehead rest, he creased his eyebrows together for a moment.

Have pulled away when he felt Alex's eyebrows crease.
"Sorry," he says quickly, telling at himself. Not sure the act, but for letting this happen and being okay with it.

Alex shook his head. "It's okay. I just need…" he shrugged slightly. "Sorry."

"Don't be," Gabe said quietly. "You did nothing wrong. Do you… Want me to leave?"

Alex shook his head quickly. "No, it's…" It was worse when he was alone. "It gets worse when I'm alone." He whispered.

"Okay then. Do you want me to stop holding you?" If Alex needed space, Gabe would give it to him.

Alex shrugged. "If…if you want to." He replied softly.

"Alex, " Gabe said softly, "I want to know if you want me to or not. You're the one being affected by this decision. You shouldn't let me make it for you."

Alex shrugged. "I…" He didn't know what to say. "Please don't let go." He whispered, glancing up at Gabe.

"Okay then," Gabe said, not taking his arms away. "I'm not going anywhere." He smiled softly, trying to be comforting.

Alex swallowed, holding onto Gabe still. He closed his eyes again. I don't want to see the ghost. I don't wanna I don't wanna I don't wanna.

Gabe slowly rubbed Alex's back with his thumb, moving a touch closer.
"I'll keep you safe," he assured gently.

Alex nodded just a little bit, shivering slightly.

Gabe pulled the blanket up around them more, resting his head on Alex's without a word.