“Are you asking me to sleep with you?” Cecil mused. Finnegan barked out a laugh and pulled away.
“Maybe later. I dunno what to say to make it not seem weird, though. It’d just be nice. Sometimes when I’m alone, it almost feels like I’m back there with… them. The people that took me. It doesn’t feel right closin’ my eyes like that. Doesn’t feel safe. I hope I, uh, don’t sound too paranoid.”
“No, that makes sense. Sure, I’ll stay with you. If you want, I can just pull up a chair and read while you nap. I still want to get through that book you gave me, the one about my abilities. Even if I’m not ready to use them anytime soon, I still want to learn more about them.”
“Sounds good to me.”
As they made their way together back to Room 603, Finnegan leaned on him quite considerably. It was clear that he wasn’t feeling very well. He closed his eyes at one point on the way up, and Cecil had to shake him to get him to keep going. Occasionally, a stray tear would slip down one of his splotchy cheeks. He’d push at it with his sleeve and crack a joke if he saw Cecil looking, but he just sounded weary. Guilt surged through Cecil’s body. Some friend he was, practically forcing the poor guy through a confession and then barely being able to help.
Finnegan ended up curling up on his couch, not his bed, with a blanket that Cecil threw over him and a pillow tucked under his head. He didn’t go to sleep immediately; rather, he stayed up and watched the other boy read his book. Sometimes, he’d let a witty comment or one liner slip out. Sometimes, he’d just breathe shakily and shiver.
“I have a sister,” he whispered suddenly after about an hour had passed and rolled into his side. Cecil’s head whipped up.
“What?”
“Remember? I told you when we first met that I lived with my nan, aunts, and sister.”
“Oh.”
“She’s not my biological sister.“
He was at a loss of what to say. “Oh.”
“When my mama took me away from my nan, she was my replacement. My nan couldn’t stand not having a kid in th’ house.”
“That’s horrible.”
Finnegan shrugged, yanked the blanket over his head, and yawned. “I don’t know why I told you that.”
Focusing on the words on the pages in front of him was hard after that. He kept sneaking glances at the other boy, who couldn’t seem to stop tossing and turning on the couch. The blanket slid off of him a lot. Each time, he’d groan and tug it back up so that it cocooned him once more.
Words, words. He intensely stared at them, trying to make sense of them in his jumbled up head. Darkness was often easier for people to use—was Finnegan going to be expelled?—although those that relied more on their light abilities found that they would use them more in everyday life—what had those bad people done to him to make him so scared?—and could often be paid for them. There was a slight stigmatization around those that tended to exclusively use their dark abilities—how many nights had he gone sleepless without Cecil noticing? And how many signs had he ignored?—and an overall public approval of those that didn’t, despite the fact that dark abilities did not technically make a person villainous or evil. He flipped through a page or two about the surprising history of horrid masterminds that used only light abilities before searching for a section strictly on learning how to use both types of magic.
“There’s coffee powder in the cabinet.”
Surprised, he lowered the book. “Sorry, what’d you say?”
“I got some coffee powder. It’s cheap, but it works.”
“You don’t like coffee.”
“I know. I got it for you, sweetie.”
“That’s- oh. That’s very nice, but-“
“But?”
“You got food too, yeah?”
“You’re askin’ if I’m starvin’ myself,” he stated flatly.
“That’s not what I meant.“
“I know. You’re tryin’ to look out for me. It’s sweet.”
Cecil smiled, knowing that he wouldn’t see it, and draped his legs over the side of his chair. “I might make some coffee later. Are you still having trouble sleeping?”
Finnegan pushed the blanket off of himself. “Yeah.”
“You’d probably feel more comfortable in your own bed.”
“Yeah, but that’s kind of weird.“
“It’s not that weird. Besides, anything’s fine with me if it helps you out.”
“Thanks. For all this, I mean.”
“No problem.” He cleared his throat. “So, is there anything I can do right now? Like, I don’t know, get you another blanket?”
“Maybe read to me? I dunno, maybe that’s silly, it’s just- when I was really little, that’s how my nan used to put me to bed. She’d sing, too, but I’m not gonna make you do that. Not that I don’t wanna hear your lovely voice, of course.”
“Sure, I’ll try that.”
It turned out that reading worked well. In about twenty minutes, Finnegan was sound asleep on the couch. He snored outrageously.
Some people thought it was weird, but in the upcoming days Finnegan and Cecil did the same thing several more times. Cecil would grab a book and settle into that chair while Finnegan, looking worse with every night that passed with no news on the status of his probation, would slump onto the couch and chat with him until it was crystal clear that he was about three seconds away from passing out.
Life went on slowly at Ravesson’s. Eventually, Finnegan gave Professor Scotch a decent apology, Cecil received letters from his father, and they saw less and less of Naomi. In every class, she seemed to find another group before she found them, leaving them to always partner up. Cecil’s powers grew; Finnegan started to use his less. Things, as messed up as they were, seemed to have finally found their rhythm.
And then there was a murder.