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Started November 09, 2019 by @The-N-U-T-Cracker

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of course nie! i'm hereeee

Yay

So honestly, I have no clue what to talk about. Any ideas?

well i can list off a bunch of topics off the top of my mind:
how are you all doing?
cats
daylight savings
winter
summer
notebook
puns
music
idk anymore i ran out of ideas

Aww man. I just started looking back at some writing I did like a month ago. It's so bad. I can't believe I ever willed myself into sharing it.

oof but like mood
which reminds me i rebooted an rp like three days ago and while i was looking over it saw "help me finding" and i internally cringed so hard
HOW ON EARTH DID I NOT SEE THAT

_{i feel like i shouldn't be panicking about this situation as much as i am but eek?}

_eek?

_{yup eek indeed. a tough situation, it is. just take a deep breath nia. you don't have to know anything about the situation. it's perfectly fine to be confused}

_{but i was done questioning my identity and now i’m thinking i’m not aromantic and damnit!}

_{i know. it's going to be very confusing and scary. but you can do this. just take your time to figure things out, there is no rush.}

_{i’m fucking scared}

(I can't be bothered to do the subs.) It's alright, nia.

(That's fine Nie)
_{I know nia. but like nie said, it's alright. it's going to be okay. yes, it's scary. yes, now you're questioning your identity again. but it will be okay. besides that, teenage years (all of them) are supposed to be about figuring yourself out so maybe there will come a time when you question your identity again but it will work itself out. it will be okay.}

eek

yeah, questioning yourself is okay. I've been questioning myself for years and still am to this day.

i think i-
eek

You…?

ummm, yeah, don’t know if i can answer that

Okay…?

You know what? I'm about doing one of two things. 1) Staying completely silent on Notebook or 2) Leaving Notebook completely.

why…?

Because, for some reason, someone always has something bad to say about something I post, and I don't want to deal with that. I've decided that I am just better of remaining silent or full-on leaving. I wouldn't want anyone to have to suffer my existence because they are purely annoyed by me.

Nie, no one is suffering. In fact, I would suffer more if you left.
I think you're overthinking this because you're actually a great part of this community, super helpful, and just an overall great guy.

…but we aren't annoyed by you?
you're a really great bean and i like having you here…
if you don't feel comfortable that's okay, i understand…
but please don't think you aren't wanted here
because i promise you
you are

I'm not so sure about that.

Why not? What makes you unsure that you're a great bean?
Because Ella never lies about people being great beans.

I really don't
if someone's a terrible heccing bean i'll say it to their face
i have no reason to lie about such things

_{yells at myself in mirror}

I just don't think that I should speak anymore. It will only serve to annoy someone.

Nope. Not true at all. I refuse to believe it.
Nie, when people tell you on here that you're awesome and we love you, we mean it.
You'd have to turn into a real jerkface real fast to make us not like you, and you're not a jerkface at all. You're not annoying, and if you don't not feel comfortable speaking than it's us who have failed.