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Started November 14, 2019 by Deleted user

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yeah, we still cant find ruby, it's nina aha

You may have a disorder but you are still in ruby's body!!!! Therefore that is ruby!!! And I will be calling you ruby because I cannot keep track of who the hell all of you are!!!!!

yeah, we still cant find ruby, it's nina aha

okii
is it okay that, until further notice, everytime i address a message from you that isn't labeled with a specific person/alter/whatever they're called sorry i'm so ignorant i say nina?

yeah, we still cant find ruby, it's nina aha

You may have a disorder but you are still in ruby's body!!!! Therefore that is ruby!!! And I will be calling you ruby because I cannot keep track of who the hell all of you are!!!!!

righto dearie

yeah, we still cant find ruby, it's nina aha

okii
is it okay that, until further notice, everytime i address a message from you that isn't labeled with a specific person/alter/whatever they're called sorry i'm so ignorant i say nina?

all good

yeah, we still cant find ruby, it's nina aha

okii
is it okay that, until further notice, everytime i address a message from you that isn't labeled with a specific person/alter/whatever they're called sorry i'm so ignorant i say nina?

all good

cool beans

I cannot wrap tiny things. That is my vent for now. It's very frustrating

I cannot wrap tiny things. That is my vent for now. It's very frustrating

omg SAME!

the struggle is real

You know what my problem is? In sectionals today I was playing relatively quickly and I was pushing the tempo really fast bc i knew how to play the part and it was like, Emi’s playing too fast!

no

I’m going the correct tempo you freshie

ofc i understood lmao but it annoyed me for like, two seconds, since they were still learning it

I cannot wrap tiny things. That is my vent for now. It's very frustrating

omg SAME!

the struggle is real

I can't wrap things in general sooooooooooooo yeah

You know what my problem is? In sectionals today I was playing relatively quickly and I was pushing the tempo really fast bc i knew how to play the part and it was like, Emi’s playing too fast!

no

I’m going the correct tempo you freshie

ofc i understood lmao but it annoyed me for like, two seconds, since they were still learning it

Me when the last chair freshman who literally cannot read music (like, he's admitted it to several people) tells me that I'm off tempo when I'm jokingly playing something at 200 bpm because it's a marching band joke
I hate sectionals

You know what my problem is? In sectionals today I was playing relatively quickly and I was pushing the tempo really fast bc i knew how to play the part and it was like, Emi’s playing too fast!

no

I’m going the correct tempo you freshie

ofc i understood lmao but it annoyed me for like, two seconds, since they were still learning it

Me when the last chair freshman who literally cannot read music (like, he's admitted it to several people) tells me that I'm off tempo when I'm jokingly playing something at 200 bpm because it's a marching band joke
I hate sectionals

lmaooo i can imagine

Also i was playing maybe five clicks faster, not even twenty or so where the tempo is supposed to be

and like any rational person who watches their band director, i do better with a tempo in my ears and in my eyes

You know what my problem is? In sectionals today I was playing relatively quickly and I was pushing the tempo really fast bc i knew how to play the part and it was like, Emi’s playing too fast!

no

I’m going the correct tempo you freshie

ofc i understood lmao but it annoyed me for like, two seconds, since they were still learning it

oof

but at least you guys have sectionals
(smal vent incoming, ignore if you want) reeeee it annoys me so much when the ahem second violins don't practice at all and then they wonder why they're so bad at their instrument?? like seriously?? and then there's this one guy who i can't even begin to start with. sure, he's a nice guy and all but when it comes to instrument wise?? he has this absolute terrible bow because it has like three hairs on it max! and regular bows have like, i don't know, maybe a hundred? or five hundred? all i know is that he needs a new bow but he has one at home, the thing is he leaves the violin he uses at school and then uses his sister's old violin at home to practice which happens to have a perfectly good bow!

Some of the people in my band do that too
And like….the music we do isn't that hard

i knowwww

i mean, i understand that i'm definitely more advanced than most of the group, but that doesn't mean that they can at least put in some effort and try!
let's take the section leader of the viola section, we'll call him B. See, he doesn't have a private teacher but at least he always tries to do above and beyond, even if his technique for doing so is absolutely terrible.

You know what my problem is? In sectionals today I was playing relatively quickly and I was pushing the tempo really fast bc i knew how to play the part and it was like, Emi’s playing too fast!

no

I’m going the correct tempo you freshie

ofc i understood lmao but it annoyed me for like, two seconds, since they were still learning it

oof

but at least you guys have sectionals
(smal vent incoming, ignore if you want) reeeee it annoys me so much when the ahem second violins don't practice at all and then they wonder why they're so bad at their instrument?? like seriously?? and then there's this one guy who i can't even begin to start with. sure, he's a nice guy and all but when it comes to instrument wise?? he has this absolute terrible bow because it has like three hairs on it max! and regular bows have like, i don't know, maybe a hundred? or five hundred? all i know is that he needs a new bow but he has one at home, the thing is he leaves the violin he uses at school and then uses his sister's old violin at home to practice which happens to have a perfectly good bow!

What? Bruv. What kind of bow only has three hairs? That's stupid. Also, the second violins that I deal with are the exact same. They're so bad, it makes me want to cry/laugh.

I'm sorry for not agreeing with Eris 24/7 and not just brushing it off when people are being bitches but this is honestly unbelievable at this point, I am literally sitting in my room sobbing and trying to resist returning to some bad coping mechanisms {yes, I'm talking about goddamn cutting} and this is not what I want to deal with right now.

MMkay but how did I get pulled into this bullshit.

Keep me out of your drama Miriam. I wont tell you again.

edit: Im not being aggressive so don't take it that way. take a chill pill.

And you say you have no cuteness Eris.

offended

yeah, we still cant find ruby, it's nina aha

You may have a disorder but you are still in ruby's body!!!! Therefore that is ruby!!! And I will be calling you ruby because I cannot keep track of who the hell all of you are!!!!!

GENTLY pointing out that this is a little insensitive to say. Considering you also 'have' DID…wouldn't your alter be upset over being called something they are not?

yeah, we still cant find ruby, it's nina aha

You may have a disorder but you are still in ruby's body!!!! Therefore that is ruby!!! And I will be calling you ruby because I cannot keep track of who the hell all of you are!!!!!

GENTLY pointing out that this is a little insensitive to say. Considering you also 'have' DID…wouldn't your alter be upset over being called something they are not?

first of all, Ruby wasn't offended by it because she knew what I meant. It wasn't supposed to be offensive. And yes, I have DID, so don't put it in quotes. I've been diagnosed. How petty do you have to be to accuse someone of faking a disorder? I don't think Leo or Jay would be offended because they would most likely understand that it was simply me stating that when I don't know who is fronting, I will refer to them as Ruby.

I'm sorry for not agreeing with Eris 24/7 and not just brushing it off when people are being bitches but this is honestly unbelievable at this point, I am literally sitting in my room sobbing and trying to resist returning to some bad coping mechanisms {yes, I'm talking about goddamn cutting} and this is not what I want to deal with right now.

MMkay but how did I get pulled into this bullshit.

Keep me out of your drama Miriam. I wont tell you again.

Then don't tell me again.

edit: Im not being aggressive so don't take it that way. take a chill pill.

hey I know you just got here, but the conversation has been ended. Please respect that.

yeah, we still cant find ruby, it's nina aha

You may have a disorder but you are still in ruby's body!!!! Therefore that is ruby!!! And I will be calling you ruby because I cannot keep track of who the hell all of you are!!!!!

GENTLY pointing out that this is a little insensitive to say. Considering you also 'have' DID…wouldn't your alter be upset over being called something they are not?

first of all, Ruby wasn't offended by it because she knew what I meant. It wasn't supposed to be offensive. And yes, I have DID, so don't put it in quotes. I've been diagnosed. How petty do you have to be to accuse someone of faking a disorder? I don't think Leo or Jay would be offended because they would most likely understand that it was simply me stating that when I don't know who is fronting, I will refer to them as Ruby.

I wasn't accusing you. Never did I say so. I pointed out that since you also 'have' or 'are' DID you should understand why someone would react the way they did.

Apologies for no knowing the proper terminology. Christ–no need to get upset over every little thing.

I emphasized gently for a reason.

So today was fucking weird. It's been raining all week and today was the only day it wasn't, but it was still overcast. And instead of heading straight home, I actually walked around campus and felt good with little to no anxiety? While all alone? And then when I did go home, I was actually motivated enough to create something?
Might be the cold moon effecting me, but yeah. That was my weird rant.

I wasn't accusing you. Never did I say so. I pointed out that since you also 'have' or 'are' DID you should understand why someone would react the way they did.

Rubes wasn't offended though?
She literally just said "righto dearie" lmao

So today was fucking weird. It's been raining all week and today was the only day it wasn't, but it was still overcast. And instead of heading straight home, I actually walked around campus and felt good with little to no anxiety? While all alone? And then when I did go home, I was actually motivated enough to create something?
Might be the cold moon effecting me, but yeah. That was my weird rant.

Hey, that's a good thing though! Congrats!

I'm sorry for not agreeing with Eris 24/7 and not just brushing it off when people are being bitches but this is honestly unbelievable at this point, I am literally sitting in my room sobbing and trying to resist returning to some bad coping mechanisms {yes, I'm talking about goddamn cutting} and this is not what I want to deal with right now.

MMkay but how did I get pulled into this bullshit.

Keep me out of your drama Miriam. I wont tell you again.

Then don't tell me again.

edit: Im not being aggressive so don't take it that way. take a chill pill.

hey I know you just got here, but the conversation has been ended. Please respect that.

you brought me into it despite no one else mentioning me. I'm telling you to stop. so I'm saying my piece, this is a new conversation about YOU respecting that I don't want to be apart of your drama with other people.

again I emphasized that I wasnt being aggressive for a reason.

This conversation is now over.

t'was over a long time ago but mkay boomer

I wasn't accusing you. Never did I say so. I pointed out that since you also 'have' or 'are' DID you should understand why someone would react the way they did.

Rubes wasn't offended though?
She literally just said "righto dearie" lmao

if you took it that way then sure.
This conversation is now over as well.

I'm telling you respectfully, Miriam, to let your beef with me go.

That is my vent. Now I'm done.

Goodnight. ✌

I do not have beef with you??

Please leave me alone. Respectfully.