forum I summon @Everwolf to the field and with this card I can role play and more

Started June 25, 2019 by Deleted user

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"I'm your lover. It's my job darling. You deal with my shit too," Saayan chuckled.

Eclipse sighed, leaning over into him, hugging the other tightly, needing comfort before he started crying again.

"Shh, shh, I'm right here," he whispered.

Eclipse nodded, hugging him tightly.

He started to eat his egg as he held Eclipse. "Are you sure you don't to eat?"

"I'm not hungry anymore…." he mumbled, feeling hopeless.

"That's fine, feel like sleeping today? I have go to work. You would have to come with me though," Saayan pointed out.

Eclipse hummed, "Yeah.. okay…" he humed softly, tense.

"I can all ways stay home with you if you'd like," Saayan got up to go throw out the food and put the dishes into the sink.

"No.. you'll get fired.." he said softly, still remembering last night.

He frowned, "I don't want to force anything though. That's worse than losing my job. Do you want me to stay home?" Saayan asked wanting a truthful answer.

"Yes….. But you can't or you'll lose your job.." he seemed upset by the fact that the other as willing to sacrifice so much for him.

"I don't mind. I mean we'll move anyway so. I won't have to pay as much for the house," Saayan shook his head with a soft smile.

Eclipse hummed uneasily. He didn't wanna upset the other again.

"I'll take some time off," he got up to get his phone and call his work. "Yeah…I know sir…..I need some time off, something came up with my boyfriend…….I know….I'm sorry……thank you."

Eclipse hummed softly as he listened to the other call in, feeling guilty.

He smiled at his phone before putting it face down, “All good. What’s wrong?”

"You didn't have to…" he murmured, looking down at the floor.

“I wanted to. I want to help you through this. I love you. I would rather love you than have all the money in the world,” Saayan meant what he said.

Eclipse didn't say a word, unsure if he was even worthy of that kind of affection.

"Ready to take a shower? Bath rather." Saayan kissed his cheek with affection.

Eclipse hummed softly, but didn't object to the idea.

Saayan picked him up and brought him to the bathroom. He placed him on a chair as he rolled up his sleves. He let the water pour in making sure it was just right.

Eclipse pulled his knees to his chest when he as set down, feeling uneasy for some reason.

“Babe, you gotta undress,” Saayan looked up to Eclipse.

Eclipse nodded, still feeling uneasy about everything. He felt guilty, anxious, scared, unsafe, loved, hated, cherished and unwanted, and trapped. Trapped because he didn't know how to let it all out, much less understand it.

"Puppy what's wrong. If your not comfortable with this, we don't have to," he crouched down in front of him holding his hands.

Eclipse shook his head a little, "I dont know…" he said softly, his voice turning into a soft whimper as he forced back tears. The other didn't need to deal with his incertainy.

"You do know so tell me," Saayan looked serious and he was. He cared about Eclipse more than anything.

Eclipse broke at that, once again breaking down in tears. Shame, guilt, fear, insecurity, love, unrest, self-hate, unworthiness, hope. It was all there, but so mixed up he didn't know what to do.