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Started January 17, 2019 by @The-N-U-T-Cracker

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My sympathies man…

-cries hard- why the fuck would i get back stabbed by someone….whom i helped get into showchoir with………

-cries hard- why the fuck would i get back stabbed by someone….whom i helped get into showchoir with………

Idk mate…. Idk

So, the fashionably late Halloween party was an absolute blast; I got reacquainted with some old friends that I haven't seen in a while, and danced! I'm now carefully drinking multiple glasses of good ol' H2O, because I imbibed in alcoholic beverages (99.9% legal for me btw) to cleanse me of my intoxication. I only wish that the DJ hadn't forgotten that I wanted to sing 'Hotel California' for karaoke…. Tonight was definitely worth not reaching the 2^nd day word count for NaNoWriMo!!!!!

@Pickles-Is-Team-Anti-Duck I'm glad that the night improved for you!

@Wolfheart (love the username) I sympathize with you girl, and have some advice for you:

• I hope that you don't mind me asking how your mom threatened your writing. (I'm aware that this one isn't advice….)
• You should, for mental health reasons, definitely take breaks from homework. (I had a routine that actually worked rather well for me while I was in school, and am willing to share that routine. This offer extends to anyone else that could use it!)
• Try taking your device into a repair shop.
• Test out/purchase another charger cord
• As far as your behavrial issues go, it's a tremendous first step to self-repairment to admit this, and I'm proud of you for taking that leap!
• Try to have a 1-on-1 heart-to-heart conversation with your mom asap if you can. Start out by kindly asking her not to interrupt you when/if the conversation takes place.
• I know that it sucks having to leave your friends, but I feel know that going to a different corps I the right move! Perhaps you can exchange #s, emails, etc with your friends so that you can keep in touch.

For the first one,my mom has basically threatened, (Multiple times) to delete/toss anything I have that it writing related, (google docs, my Airtable account, tossing my notebooks) and then threatening to ban it until I'm eighteen.
Second one, yeah, I know this, and I have a system, my mom just doesn't understand it.
third: I do actually have another cord, it's just at my dad's and I don't see him until the weekend. And I know for a fact it's not the device.
Fourth: I'm glad I'm going the right direction
Fifth: I have actually tried multiple times. ut for many many many reasons, it never works. So at this point there is really no point in trying. (And I've done this in every way,from writing to texting, to talking.)
Sixth: It's not that I have a problem with getting a whole bunch of phone numbers, its that I already have a digital way to contact the important people, it's just one friend in particular, whom I consider my bestie, cadets was kinda the only place I'd ever see her…. so…. :(

-looks around, still crying- w-where's my boyfriend…….

-looks around, still crying- w-where's my boyfriend…….

offers hugs and soft things Idk, but is there any way I can assist?

-looks around, still crying- w-where's my boyfriend…….

offers hugs and soft things Idk, but is there any way I can assist?

-takes in hugs- can i have cuddles……please…..i dont care whom from…

-looks around, still crying- w-where's my boyfriend…….

offers hugs and soft things Idk, but is there any way I can assist?

-takes in hugs- can i have cuddles……please…..i dont care whom from…

Cuddle you If I could teleport through the screen I would…

im so fucking done………………i got blamed for stealing money….even though…..i didn't…..and i fucking HELPED THAT PERSON…. I GAVE THEM THE REMAINDER OF MY MONEY….

Awe, Jake that totally sucks dude! I can empathize with you here, for I too have been blamed for doing something that I didn't, in fact, do….

Years ago I was friends with two kids who were actually quite friendly in face-to-face day-to-day interactions. One day they decided to spray paint their bike seats white, and blamed not only myself but my best friend for the act. These boys, despite having the evidence on their hands, managed to convince their parents to their lie; the parents in tern set sights on my parents, and spread the lie to my parents. While my best friends parents listened to him, and believed that he had nothing to do with painting the seats (our hands were quite literally clean) my own parents refused to look at my hand, falling for the deceit of my so called 'friends' and grounded me as a result. I desperately tried to tell and show them the truth. I was obviously deeply hurt and angry by what happened, and felt betrayed.

thing is tho….im just….used alot…….

-looks around, still crying- w-where's my boyfriend…….

offers hugs and soft things Idk, but is there any way I can assist?

-takes in hugs- can i have cuddles……please…..i dont care whom from…

Cuddle you If I could teleport through the screen I would…

-sniffles- im just…done…….

offers cuddles

offers cuddles

to answer your question from later yes you can PM me..

Okay bud.

-looks around, still crying- w-where's my boyfriend…….

offers hugs and soft things Idk, but is there any way I can assist?

-takes in hugs- can i have cuddles……please…..i dont care whom from…

Cuddle you If I could teleport through the screen I would…

-sniffles- im just…done…….

I know the feeling. I've been done so many times this week… I' honestly just waiting to see when I break.

-looks around, still crying- w-where's my boyfriend…….

offers hugs and soft things Idk, but is there any way I can assist?

-takes in hugs- can i have cuddles……please…..i dont care whom from…

Cuddle you If I could teleport through the screen I would…

-sniffles- im just…done…….

I know the feeling. I've been done so many times this week… I' honestly just waiting to see when I break.

im on the brink of losing my shit, opening night for musical is this Wednesday

Well I'll be right behind you guys tryna help keep everything together!
What do ya say we all be here for each other?

Well I'll be right behind you guys tryna help keep everything together!
What do ya say we all be here for each other?

-hugs shuri-

-looks around, still crying- w-where's my boyfriend…….

offers hugs and soft things Idk, but is there any way I can assist?

-takes in hugs- can i have cuddles……please…..i dont care whom from…

Cuddle you If I could teleport through the screen I would…

-sniffles- im just…done…….

I know the feeling. I've been done so many times this week… I' honestly just waiting to see when I break.

im on the brink of losing my shit, opening night for musical is this Wednesday

Wait wym musical? Are you performing?

yes..for my high school…

NOICE! I'm sure the performance will go wonderfully!

yeah …hopefully i don't have an anxiety attack on stage

Well I'll show you an exercise you can do to help.
First what you do, is take in your surroundings, the colors, the shapes and the way they move, and you focus on those, you can tell me what you see, or you can tell yourself what you see in your head, you can say it out loud as well. Through this method you can distance yourself to an extent, from irrational thought

Also try mindfulness before you perform

it's going to be known because it's an all singing musical…singing 24/7

For the first one,my mom has basically threatened, (Multiple times) to delete/toss anything I have that it writing related, (google docs, my Airtable account, tossing my notebooks) and then threatening to ban it until I'm eighteen.

This actually angers me…. I have absolutely no idea what the hell is going on in your mom's household, life/your life, but I'm guessing that she's miserable and feels like she shouldn't be the only one to feel like that. This in no way justifies her threats; in my opinion making sure that their child/ward has something that they have pride and joy in doing is part of their duties as a parent/guardian. What your mother has threatened you with is beyond wrong; everyone is naturally entitled to have a healthy outlet, activities that bring them joy, whether it be writing, drawing/painting, sculpting, etc. She has absolutely no right to do that!
^{That was longer than what I intended it to be, but oh well! Lol}

For the first one,my mom has basically threatened, (Multiple times) to delete/toss anything I have that it writing related, (google docs, my Airtable account, tossing my notebooks) and then threatening to ban it until I'm eighteen.

This actually angers me…. I have absolutely no idea what the hell is going on in your mom's household/your life, but I'm guessing that she's miserable and feels like she shouldn't be the only one to feel like that. This in no way justifies her threats; in my opinion making sure that their child/ward has something that they have pride and joy in doing is part of their duties as a parent/guardian. What your mother has threatened you with is beyond wrong; everyone is naturally entitled to have a healthy outlet, activities that bring them joy, whether it be writing, drawing/painting, sculpting, etc. She has absolutely no right to do that!
^{That was longer than what I intended it to be, but oh well! Lol}

I know, but the thing is, as much as I would do something about it, I won't. Because if something happens to my mom, then my sisters have to go to their dad's, permanently And that thought is almost as terrifying as losing my writing.
I can rebuild all my work from scratch if I have to. I've been building it repeatedly for 5+ years, I can do it again.
But my sisters? Staying with a man who forces them to do chores they shouldn't have to? Gets my 9 yr old sibling to do the cooking? Who might emotionally harm my autistic sibling? Possibly worse than what he did to me?
I cannot let that happen. I refuse to.
My mom, is way better than that monster.

I agree starry
I hope you know you have a welcoming outlet with us

I know… That's why I came back…

AND WE'RE SO GLAD YOU DID!!!!!!!!!!!
Dude I missed you and it feels good to rolegay again lol