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Started January 17, 2019 by @The-N-U-T-Cracker

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What is wrong with meeeeeeeeee

What happened?

ellie, what happened? what's bothering you?

What's wrong Ellie?

why am I so much worse than everybody else? All my friends are prettier, better singers, better at art, better at writing, better at being athletic, better at school and I’m just fading into the background and I’m not funny or super nice or super encouraging and honestly I’m just a waste of oxygen and space and I feel fat and I’ve lost 10 pounds and my weight has gone down to 75 pounds and I’m like five feet tall and almost fourteen years old and that seems healthy but at the same time it doesn’t and everybody says I’m so lucky and live the dream life and people have such worse problems but does that make my issues any less valid or am I really just the stuck up brat I think I am.

Ellie
You have a niche
It's emotional support.
You're so pure and precious
Never give up

Am i?

well first of all

I feel fat and I’ve lost 10 pounds and my weight has gone down to 75 pounds and I’m like five feet tall and almost fourteen years old and that seems healthy but at the same time it doesn’t

ellie. you're definitely not fat. i'm like seventy pounds and i'm probably younger than you, not by much, but still. on top of that i'm not even five feet tall yet. you're fine.

All my friends are prettier, better singers, better at art, better at writing, better at being athletic, better at school

according to you, this is factual. i'm 100, no 200 percent sure that you're gorgeous, and an amazing singer, artist, writer, and honestly, i'm not even going to say anything about athletics. there's a reason i hate p.e. i mean, the teachers are nice, just… the curriculum. anyways, enough about me. but. ellie, you are awesome at school!

I’m just fading into the background and I’m not funny or super nice or super encouraging

aw ellie, you'll never fade into the background while i'm around. i'll make sure of that. and honestly, just knowing that others deal with problems that are worse than mine just help me deal with them. i'd call that encouraging. and not to mention, YOU ARE SUPER NICE just for the record ellie. and of course you're funny! my opinion is that you're just feeling really down, and when i'm feeling down, i never think positive until i'm feeling better and my head is clear

and honestly I’m just a waste of oxygen and space and everybody says I’m so lucky and live the dream life and people have such worse problems but does that make my issues any less valid or am I really just the stuck up brat I think I am.

no ellie, you are not a "waste of oxygen and space" don't let anyone tell you that, not even yourself!
and if people say you're "so lucky" or "live the dream life", that's not true. in their eyes, you're living a life they'd rather have. it's their opinion, not everyone else's. ONLY theirs. yeah, it's true, some people probably do have worse problems, but yours probably feel like the end of the world to you or something similar. yeah, i get that. your issues should just be as valid, and everyone's mental health is important. that's why we're here, and that's why i took the time to type this out, just to help you feel a bit better about yourself. you're not stuck up, ellie, and you're not a brat either. i'm not going to tell you what to think, but i will tell you that honestly, i'm proud to call you a friend!

Am i?

You are

why am I so much worse than everybody else? All my friends are prettier, better singers, better at art, better at writing, better at being athletic, better at school and I’m just fading into the background and I’m not funny or super nice or super encouraging and honestly I’m just a waste of oxygen and space and I feel fat and I’ve lost 10 pounds and my weight has gone down to 75 pounds and I’m like five feet tall and almost fourteen years old and that seems healthy but at the same time it doesn’t and everybody says I’m so lucky and live the dream life and people have such worse problems but does that make my issues any less valid or am I really just the stuck up brat I think I am.

Ellie
FUCK NO
YOUR ISSUES ARE FUCKING VALID
AND YOU ARE FUCKING GORGEOUS.
DID YOU NOTICE THE PERIOD I PUT THERE??
THERE IS A PERIOD.
GUYS HELP ME OUT
TELL HER SHE IS FUCKING AWESOME
sorry
very passionate abt this

Washes face in the background

whelp ok that's random but whatever
I sent you Sans memes
feel better

Hey Ellie I know I'm late but honestly I relate so hard and the only thing i have to say is eventually you'll find something that you're better than your friends at even though it's hekka hard to believe sometimes

Well for one, I would say that Pickles and Gracie both have great personalities that I enjoy, even if they don’t reciprocate the feelings to themselves

Well I'm decent at a lot of things and I'm most proud of how much nicer I've become in the last few years but sometimes it's really hard to think of something I'm really good at

Witty retorts and sarcasm that I love?

Sarcasm is a language
you're bilingual

don't mind me, just sitting trying to do homework under a halloween blanket and wondering how I'm going to stay up until midnight again and then wake up at seven tomorrow

don't mind me, just sitting trying to do homework under a halloween blanket and wondering how I'm going to stay up until midnight again and then wake up at seven tomorrow

want some help? i mean, y'all are probably older than me and i probably can't figure it out, but, in any case if I can't, I have a friend that could probably help

its precalc and i think i got it. just have to look at notes and some youtube videos. if only i actually paid attention during class lol

I see. Well you can do this pickles!
_{-brain disappears out the window-}

i finished all but one question and im just gonna ignore that one for as long as possible

Is anybody on here?? I’m having a breathing panicky thing going on and I need distraction
Please help

Hello what do you need?

Please anything??

Just distraction

Okay, that sounds like a panic attack. So I want you to tell me two things. And you have to try and answer. Even if you don't know, think about it for a moment and then answer. Tell me your top five favorite movies. And your top three favorite songs.

Try inhaling for four seconds, holding for seven, and exhaling for eight. Try doing that until your breathing slows. Sit down or lay down if you can, drink some water

I really like Tangled, Big Hero Six, Sound of the Sea, Secret of Kells, and The Breadwinner
And Fireflies, Bird With a Broken Wing, and Hey There Delilah

Okay, do you read?