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Deleted user

It’s not- besides that sounds desperate

THANK YOU FOR UNDERSTANDING

@Oakiin

Wow, this is a long thread
Hi
I need to throw this out somewhere where hopefully no one I know will find it, sooo
Warning, graphic. Possible suicide/self-harm triggers, just don't read if you're easily brought into a bad place, I'd hate for that to happen to anyone.

I've been struggling a lot with my depression lately, and it's getting to the point where I'm feeling suicidal again. Everything's just a torment of confusing thoughts and overwhelming situations. I've been dissociating (or however the frick you spell that) and dealing with thoughts of extreme self-harm. I want to gouge my ribs out and break them, I want to tear the bones out of my hand just to have them there, sticking out of my flesh. I want to smash my face in until it's a bloody mess, I want to bleed, and hurt, and ultimately die. I've been beating my head and triggering myself with music, and all I want is for everyone to forget I exist, so I can take care of myself the way I need to, and by that I mean jump off a cliff into the ocean and sink under the waves and never come back. But I can't, because of my family, my dog, my counselor, and my youth minister. None of them will stop bothering me, and I just want to let go.

Thanks for listening.

Deleted user

Hey Sunny, I'm Miriam. I'd like to talk to you more about this. Are you more comfortable here, or in PMs?

@Oakiin

Either is fine. I don't know how PMs work, I'm not on this site much, but whatever you think. Thank-you, by the way.

Deleted user

Of course, we're all here for you. Would it be easier to stay here, to avoid confusion about PMs?

theinnocentchild

Wow, this is a long thread
Hi
I need to throw this out somewhere where hopefully no one I know will find it, sooo
Warning, graphic. Possible suicide/self-harm triggers, just don't read if you're easily brought into a bad place, I'd hate for that to happen to anyone.

I've been struggling a lot with my depression lately, and it's getting to the point where I'm feeling suicidal again. Everything's just a torment of confusing thoughts and overwhelming situations. I've been dissociating (or however the frick you spell that) and dealing with thoughts of extreme self-harm. I want to gouge my ribs out and break them, I want to tear the bones out of my hand just to have them there, sticking out of my flesh. I want to smash my face in until it's a bloody mess, I want to bleed, and hurt, and ultimately die. I've been beating my head and triggering myself with music, and all I want is for everyone to forget I exist, so I can take care of myself the way I need to, and by that I mean jump off a cliff into the ocean and sink under the waves and never come back. But I can't, because of my family, my dog, my counselor, and my youth minister. None of them will stop bothering me, and I just want to let go.

Thanks for listening.

There are people who love you, reach out and cling to those people, and their joy will be your joy. PM me if you want and I can help. hugs

@SupernaturalSyGuyIsTIred group

Hot, calls me "b" or babe, pretty nice, memeful…

Seriously, just txt the guy. If he's calling you things like 'babe', there's pretty much a 99.9 percent chance that the feeling is mutual. You don't need an excuse to txt him, and believe me, he'll appreciate the fact that you txted him.

Deleted user

Hey, I gotta go… Sunny, I'm always here. Try talking to Amber or Shuri for now.
Love y'all <3

@Oakiin

Hey guys, thank-you so much for the support. I don't know how to PM people, but I'm open to talking, if people PM me. Thanks again. I'm going to have to leave too, but I'll be back on tonight or tomorrow to reply.

@Shuri-the-Floof-Doggo

Hey guys, thank-you so much for the support. I don't know how to PM people, but I'm open to talking, if people PM me. Thanks again. I'm going to have to leave too, but I'll be back on tonight or tomorrow to reply.

Thanks for coming to us
You seem like a good person and we would like to help you

Deleted user

ugh… i hate being sick …… also there is about 3 guys that like me and only 2/3 i like back… one is emotionally the other is physically… { as in hugs, hand holding and cuddles…and some other kinky stuff , but only sometimes.}

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