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Started January 17, 2019 by @The-N-U-T-Cracker

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Y'all can call me Sy; It's a shortened version of my actual name!

I remember that I almost made all year A and B honor-roll my senior year, but a freaking C tripped me up at the end of the year!

Guess who only slept 20 minutes non-consecutively and now has to go do a nature photo shoot. I am in that state where I have a headache but am hyper.

I have a headache too
I got about 2 hours of sleep but also woke up sore so mood

Headaches are fun. You know whats even more fun though, feeling like your head is going to explode after taking 5 tests and feeling like you will pass out too. But i got to play with dangerous chemicals, so it was fun

Oh
hugs

Ibuprofen helps me all the time!

i'm feeling a bit better about the high school stuff but…

some shit went down in orchestra today and i'm just kinda stressed about it…

Oh you do orchestra? I do orchestra too! What do you play? I play violin. (but cello is frickin awesome)

i hate being dragged places i don’t want to go,, i’m sure everyone else does too but if going to this were my idea then i’d be fine bc i’d want to socialize and wear cute clothes and shit but since i’m forced to be here and came halfway through i feel like i’m going to cry or have an anxiety attack or something and i’m so uncomfortable but i can’t tell anyone and i don’t know why
i wish i could just go with it and be a normal fucking person but anxiety sucks sometimes even if mine is fairly mild compared to others
also talking to anyone feels more like screaming into the void rn bc they either don’t get it or i’m trying too hard to be the “happy” person i act like on the outside most of the time

Oh I so feel that. We're here if you need to talk with someone at any point.

Hey MQ
I have a surprise for you in pm

hahah all i want rn to have someone actually attempt to understand and also not burst into tears in front of everyone

i'm feeling a bit better about the high school stuff but…

some shit went down in orchestra today and i'm just kinda stressed about it…

Oh you do orchestra? I do orchestra too! What do you play? I play violin. (but cello is frickin awesome)

ooh nice! before i answer your question, i have got to tell you. i know i know this is super cliche cause everybody plays it nowadays but… YES I PLAY VIOLIN TOO!!! What orchestras do you do? Like I do two orchestras outside of school, but I know that some areas don't offer youth symphony orchestras.

hahah all i want rn to have someone actually attempt to understand and also not burst into tears in front of everyone

elle. i totally get that feeling.

I do Sinfonia

hahah all i want rn to have someone actually attempt to understand and also not burst into tears in front of everyone

elle. i totally get that feeling.

yeah hahah it sucks,, anyone bored or whatever and wanna talk to me?

Woah guys- blood moon

I'm auditioning for this one orchestra and I'm in another orchestra too so yeah.
Man I really get what you guys or feeling, especially you Elle, since I also have this super happy facade which is kinda hard. And I think that's when the people around you that you hang out with are really important. You have to have friends that you can joke around with and have fun with, but also friends that you can be real with and really talk about stuff. It's kinda hard to find those people, but when you do, you'll know, and you'll never want to leave them. I think family and stuff is important too, being able to be real with your parents and maybe siblings and telling them how you feel even if it's weird sometimes. I think it's a good thing to be vulnerable and open sometimes. Just tell someone. I see you told us, and we're here for you. We're here for anyone who feels like you. I hope everyone here knows that.
big hugs

thanks i really appreciate it,, i’ve just been feeling so alone

hahah all i want rn to have someone actually attempt to understand and also not burst into tears in front of everyone

elle. i totally get that feeling.

yeah hahah it sucks,, anyone bored or whatever and wanna talk to me?

yeah sure anytime I'm legit watching a bob ross tutorial someone talk to me I'm an introvert finger guns

hahah all i want rn to have someone actually attempt to understand and also not burst into tears in front of everyone

elle. i totally get that feeling.

yeah hahah it sucks,, anyone bored or whatever and wanna talk to me?

yeah sure anytime I'm legit watching a bob ross tutorial someone talk to me I'm an introvert finger guns

hahah thanks!! also bob ross is the best :)

hahah all i want rn to have someone actually attempt to understand and also not burst into tears in front of everyone

elle. i totally get that feeling.

yeah hahah it sucks,, anyone bored or whatever and wanna talk to me?

yeah sure anytime I'm legit watching a bob ross tutorial someone talk to me I'm an introvert finger guns

hahah thanks!! also bob ross is the best :)

Yeah honestly I need a canvas and all the stuff he uses I really wanna actually do one of his tutorials that would be so awesome!!!

omg yesss!!! i’ve never actually done that before and it sounds super awesome!!

I know he's frickin awesome, and hey, now you know what to get me for my birthday! hahahaha

hahahah sweet!! :)

I'm watching this like he makes everything look so simple and I'm here like struggling at the first thing like how hahaha :)

omg me too tho,, tbh i probably couldn’t get it right if my life depended on it
but ya know, happy little accidents and all hahah

I'm auditioning for this one orchestra and I'm in another orchestra too so yeah.
Man I really get what you guys or feeling, especially you Elle, since I also have this super happy facade which is kinda hard. And I think that's when the people around you that you hang out with are really important. You have to have friends that you can joke around with and have fun with, but also friends that you can be real with and really talk about stuff. It's kinda hard to find those people, but when you do, you'll know, and you'll never want to leave them. I think family and stuff is important too, being able to be real with your parents and maybe siblings and telling them how you feel even if it's weird sometimes. I think it's a good thing to be vulnerable and open sometimes. Just tell someone. I see you told us, and we're here for you. We're here for anyone who feels like you. I hope everyone here knows that.
big hugs

ALWAYS KEEP FIGHTING moment right here!!! ❤

I'm auditioning for this one orchestra and I'm in another orchestra too so yeah.
Man I really get what you guys or feeling, especially you Elle, since I also have this super happy facade which is kinda hard. And I think that's when the people around you that you hang out with are really important. You have to have friends that you can joke around with and have fun with, but also friends that you can be real with and really talk about stuff. It's kinda hard to find those people, but when you do, you'll know, and you'll never want to leave them. I think family and stuff is important too, being able to be real with your parents and maybe siblings and telling them how you feel even if it's weird sometimes. I think it's a good thing to be vulnerable and open sometimes. Just tell someone. I see you told us, and we're here for you. We're here for anyone who feels like you. I hope everyone here knows that.
big hugs

ALWAYS KEEP FIGHTING moment right here!!! ❤

I think that it's great that you can talk to people who are going through something like you're going through, and that makes it easier to be real and vulnerable and give advice and stuff and yes always keep fighting and push through and you'll make it :)

thanks everyone i feel like a million times better now (i mean it helps that i’m finally leaving hahah)!! :)

I'm auditioning for this one orchestra and I'm in another orchestra too so yeah.
Man I really get what you guys or feeling, especially you Elle, since I also have this super happy facade which is kinda hard. And I think that's when the people around you that you hang out with are really important. You have to have friends that you can joke around with and have fun with, but also friends that you can be real with and really talk about stuff. It's kinda hard to find those people, but when you do, you'll know, and you'll never want to leave them. I think family and stuff is important too, being able to be real with your parents and maybe siblings and telling them how you feel even if it's weird sometimes. I think it's a good thing to be vulnerable and open sometimes. Just tell someone. I see you told us, and we're here for you. We're here for anyone who feels like you. I hope everyone here knows that.
big hugs

ALWAYS KEEP FIGHTING moment right here!!! ❤

I think that it's great that you can talk to people who are going through something like you're going through, and that makes it easier to be real and vulnerable and give advice and stuff and yes always keep fighting and push through and you'll make it :)

So, your in an orchestra, hmm? Cool! I did choir; I could hit a note that would make the entire room ring!

Wow that's awesome! I wanted to do choir, but I wanted to do an instrument, and I'm indecisive so like… but I chose orchestra and I don't regret it, although the choir people sound awesome at my school. I sing for fun, and I also play the piano along with the violin. I just love music. :D

Music is so amazing, if you can't use words use music, I can not tell you how often I've used that logic, I've auditioned an been in my county honor band for the past 4 years and the way it brings people together is just fantastic. There are song's that can just brighten your day get you hyped and make you sad all without uttering a single syllable. Some of my favorite Pieces that we've play'd are ,Incantation and dance, and Fate of the god's, they're Such powerful works of art and I love them.

If a picture paints a thousand words a melody is a billion.

I often wish that singing out of nowhere was more socially acceptable because it's so much easier to express emotions though 12 notes then it is with 26 letters.