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@saor_illust school

Ella, though you always try to be positive, it's ok to be yourself and tell people that you are not feeling just fine. I'm glad you're telling us. Now, for the question asked earlier. Are you, yourself, the amazing Ella ok? If not, what's bothering you? We're here for you, even if all we can offer is someone to talk to :)

@Pickles group

would it happen to be a certain week of certain sea residing creatures or is it rude of me to assume that and it's something else

@saor_illust school

Hmm, are you 100% sure that the app is legit, and not one of those apps that does "research" for you, and based on these symptoms, therefore you have cancer type things?

@amber_is_in_a_loop

It's not really a cancer type thing but I mean I'm pretty sure what I'm feeling is heart pain so it's probably something relatively serious? I don't really know

@The-N-U-T-Cracker

Are you okay?

I guess, I’m better emotionally but physically there is many pain

I have a headache from crying which was only worsened by the 4+ hours of Kpop music we listened to on the way home, plus my little brother loudly “drumming along” with a few tubs and a pen, completely out of sync with the music… Don’t get me wrong, I love the little guy, but oh gosh I wanted to kill him it was awful

I also had amazing luck regarding my… werewolf thing. Started right in the middle of the funeral, luckily I was wearing all black clothing and came prepared supply-wise because it was pretty bad

My eyes still sting a little, as you would probably expect, I cried… a lot…

And somehow I’m feeling even more like a waste of human life than usual-
Like, I look at myself and all I can think is “how the frick can a human being possibly be this unlikable”

So that’s great

@The-N-U-T-Cracker

would it happen to be a certain week of certain sea residing creatures or is it rude of me to assume that and it's something else

It does happen to be that
And a funeral
Both
At the same time
Kind of a pain in more ways than one

@Fraust

Hey y'all so apparently my dad told my brother that there isn't really love between him and my mother anymore, if he could go back he wouldn't have married my mother, and the kids are pretty much the main (or only?) thing keeping them together, so that's fanfuckingtastic

@Fraust

And you know, I'm kinda scared they'll split up after I leave for college in a couple years which makes me a bit scared to leave, but I also don't want to live with them. Like, my mom is very emotional and volatile, and if they split up earlier (if they even do), I would probably have to go between houses or whatever because I would be scared to tell my mom I don't really want to live with her, but I also don't want to live with my dad, so??

@saor_illust school

Wow. So, um the only thing I can really offer is someone to talk to, (not someone to talk about it with) since I am the world's most terrible advice giver.

@Fraust

Yeah idk. There's no guarantee they'll split up at all, and I feel like my parents don't treat my brother as well as they should. Like, I still feel like shit and I hate myself so much despite them pretty much telling me explicitly that I was their favorite. But I feel like I would be their favorite for what they think I am as opposed to who I actually am and I'm really conflicted because I think they'd be really disappointed in and hate the real me. So, I don't want to tell them obviously, but I kinda feel like I'm living a lie?

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