GUYS HES HAD A POPTART AND A BAG OF CHIPS SINCE TUESDAY AND ITS MY FAULT HE DIDNT EAT DINNER CAUSE HE HAD TO BRING ME MY PHONE AND THEN HE HAD A CHEM REPORT AND APPARENTLY THAT EQUALS NOT EATING DINNER AND HE DOESNT EAT LUNCH ANYMORE CAUSE HE DOESNT HAVE MONEY THIS IS NOT OKAY

I've already gone through several of my friends doing this intentionally and I don't plan for it to happen again

I HAVE AN UPDATE ON THE GAY

UPDATE US

YES

GIRL NUMBER ONE IS STILL HOT AND WORE EYELINER A G A I N WHICH IS ILLEGAL AND I MIGHT TRY TO MAKE SOMETHING HAPPEN

AND THE "I'M IN LOVE" TEXT FROM GIRL NUMBER TWO WAS NOT ABOUT ME WHICH I'M GLAD ABOUT FOR REASONS I'M NOT GONNA EXPLAIN HERE
BUT LUCKILY THE GIRL I'M REALLY INTO {NUMBER ONE} IS STILL GOING STRONG LOL

Ye ye! Awesome! And uhhh I wrote a whole page of how I hate crushes…..

I hate crushes.
You may wonder, “Why do you hate crushes so much?”
Well, I’ll tell you why.
Recently I have fallen. Fallen so deep I don’t know if I can ever get out. I have fallen in love. With one perfectly perfect human being that could easily rip my heart out and I wouldn’t bat an eye. He could throw me off the highest cliff and I wouldn’t care. I would probably only think, “Wow! He actually thought about me enough to throw me off that cliff!” And then I would hit the rocky bottom and shatter into a thousand heartbroken pieces.
The worst part is, is that I know I’ll never be with him. He’ll never notice me. He’ll never care about me. I hate it. I hate him and I hate myself. I hate how when he walks past my heart skips. I hate how when I hear his name I perk up. I hate how when I talk about him my voice wavers. I hate how when he looks at me and I stop breathing.
Crushes suck.
I have found myself thinking about what “he” thinks and what “he” wants and what “he” likes. Why does it matter? “He” doesn’t care about what I think or what I want or what I like. “He” probably doesn’t even remember my name. Forget about it. Stop wanting him and stop liking him.
But how?
I can’t stop liking him. I can’t stop wanting him. I can’t stop myself from loving the way he smiles — with soft dimples and bright eyes — and from melting when he sings or when he laughs and from feeling significant when he speaks to me. He makes me feel important when he acknowledges me, but at the same time, I feel like nothing when he doesn’t.
So that’s why I hate crushes. They ruin people. They tear you apart like hungry lions disguised as heart shaped eyes and soft kisses and warm hugs. Crushes are useless and worthless, and they do no one any good other than destroying you. Crushes are nothing but stupid dreams and painfully awkward moments and aching hearts. Crushes are prisons designed to make us swoon and giggle and smile until we realize far too late that the door is locked and there is no way out.
The only way out is through him. Through the crush. He has to be willing to unlock to door and set me free and into his waiting arms. He has to want to free me and to want to love me the same way I would for him. His choice is the only thing keeping me in this jailcell.
So please, I beg of you, to free me. The pain is too much. The torture is too much. I love you too much.
Either break my heart or love me back, otherwise, I’ll be trapped here forever.

Accept the cell. Accept the chances of being caught, accept the chances of hitting a sharp bottom, and let yourself free-fall while you still can. Let his smile, voice, eyes, words affect you - given that you're being affected a healthy amount. Now I know I'm young and inexperienced, and if anyone else has a different opinion don't hesitate to shoot mine down. But I think you're going to try to make yourself stop liking him, eventually, and when that happens you'll be restricting your emotions. Never, ever, do that. Don't try to push the feelings down or bottle them up, because they'll continue bubbling under the surface and eventually explode. If that happens, it'll become a long and miserable cycle of hating your heart and wrangling it to like and dislike certain people, when it just wants what it wants. So accept the risks and take the fall, enjoy the occasional thrills of hope while still being internally, somewhat grounded.

I, too, hate having crushes

i love how dramatic this conversation is

also i have new tea
my new classmate is extremely pretty, major fem bottom vibes, is bi, and is possibly flirting with me (we shall call her red bc her lipstick was red on the first day)

GUYS GUYS GUYS GUYS!!!! I'M FREAKIN' BACK AFTER A SUCKY SUMMER AND I HAVE NEWS!!!

Ok guys, sorry, I had to drop this and head to trade school {I'm doing fashion design so I can sew and sell cosplays as a part-time job eventually} But anyways….

My mutual crush actually asked me out over the summer {we were both doing a chalk mural together at an art festival} and _{She gave me my first kiss and I stopped functioning correctly for a full half hour….}

i love how dramatic this conversation is

But aren't we supposed to be dramatic here?? XD

Guys help I can't stop thinking about him and I hate it more than words can describe. More than whispers ducks. I'm supposed to be doing stuff but I can't

this is so soft to read especially coming from you

It's a lot worse today ew

Also I now have official Girlfriend/Boyfriend {they're non-binary like me} so yeah. I'MSOSOSOHAPPYYYYYYYY!!!!

Guys help I can't stop thinking about him and I hate it more than words can describe. More than whispers ducks. I'm supposed to be doing stuff but I can't

this is so soft to read especially coming from you

It's a lot worse today ew

Oof. I'm sorry my friendo.

Part of my lack of concentration I think comes from me having random songs stuck in my head and all the boring stuff we're doing but still. That was a very grammatically incorrect sentence wow

Also I now have official Girlfriend/Boyfriend {they're non-binary like me} so yeah. I'MSOSOSOHAPPYYYYYYYY!!!!

congrats!!!!!!
you can call them a datefriend btw

also i have new tea
my new classmate is extremely pretty, major fem bottom vibes, is bi, and is possibly flirting with me (we shall call her red bc her lipstick was red on the first day)

also she says she wants 2 cook me various chinese food that i think would taste bad just to prove me wrong sksksksk

congrats!!!!!!
you can call them a datefriend btw

I thank you for this info. This is very useful. I shall tell them about this. Squee!

also she says she wants 2 cook me various chinese food that i think would taste bad just to prove me wrong sksksksk

Ahh! This is so pwecious!!

Also, just got back from walking my datefriend [I love this new term] to their study hall. I have finally gotten my huggles today that I needed!!

Oh yesterday at band practice I was talking to him and we went on the field and one of the girls in our section whispers something to one of the other girls and I heard "is it just me or does" and "I just noticed it today" and the other girl said yeah and I think it was about me

Have you changed anything about yourself or do you think they were commenting on you and him…?

I haven't really done anything other than right before when I yelled at him for not eating which is something I would do anyway but if you didn't know me freshman year you'd think I would say "then starve" which I totally would if someone was just hungry and we talked a lot more than usual but idk I'm probably just paranoid

Cause she looked right at me before she said something and I'm just going insane it's fine

Nah, something's probably up. Maybe you just need to ask some friends to listen up for anything going around about you.

So some things changed and so going to the football game today was optional (marching band) and so we were both going and now apparently he's not going and we just left and I'm already wishing I wasn't here

hey cool I'm going to a football game too
and ZACAHRY BATON