forum Schoolidoots (PRIVATE-ISH)

Started May 25, 2019 by @ShadeStar

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She sat next to him, drawing him into her arms loosely. She didn't say anything, knowing it was better for him to just cry in silence.

Lloyd sobbed quietly, trembling slightly. I can't do this… I don't want to do this to her… but I can't move, and I can't stop, can I? He leaned against Belle quietly, trying and failing to stop himself.

She smiled a little. Lloyd had been like this since they were kids, never wanting to burden anyone else with his problems until she forced him to sit down and talk about them.

The tips of Lloyd's slack wings were visible through the bottom of his hoodie, but at this point, he didn't really care. He started holding his breath again since it occasionally helped him to either force himself to calm down or pass out, which was typically a win win situation.

"Lloyd, you are not going to make yourself pass out again. I know you want to but it's healthier to just let everything out, not hold it all in."

Lloyd hesitated before letting himself breathe, hiccuping a bit. His sobs were muffled because of the way his face was hidden, but they were still noticeable. "I-I'm sorry…"

"Shh, it's okay. There's nothing to be sorry for."

"You have to deal with my crap all the time… t-that's enough cause to be sorry." Lloyd said quietly.
(Lloyd doesn't like swearing lol)

"Lloyd, if I didn't like dealing with your crap, I wouldn't do it."

Lloyd bit his quivering lip, tears still streaming down his hidden face. "I… I really love you, Belle… in an entirely platonic way, of course, considering, you know…" I'm gay and stuff.

Lillian started wandering about the school. It was lunch and then she had a free period, thank god for that. She wanted to find Lloyd and Belle.

"Since you're gay, I know. But I still love you, ya dork."

Lloyd looked up at the sound of footsteps, moving closer to Belle. "W-What was that?"

"Probably Lillian coming to look for us. Relax, worrywart."

Lillian heard voices and turned a corner to find Lloyd and Belle. She let out a little sigh, "There you guys are. What was that back there?"

"Lloyd's having a breakdown and I'm trying to help him out."

"Oh no," Lillian moved over to crouch nearby, but not in there bubble, "Can I help in anyway?"

Lloyd shook his head and hid his face again, still trying and failing to stop crying.

"I'd just leave him be for now. He needs some time to cry. I'm just here for emotional support."

Lillian nodded and sat back, "Yeah, okay. I can do that."

Lloyd stretched out his wings a bit, exposing more of them underneath his hoodie. He leaned his head against Belle and brushed a few tears away with one hand.

She just held him, not saying anything. She knew better than that by now.

Lloyd tapped one foot on the ground anxiously, trying to at least control his breathing if he couldn't stop crying. "How long… h-how long until we have to be at our next class…?"

Belle quickly checked her phone. "10 minutes ago. Next period isn't for another 30 minutes."

Lloyd groaned softly, hiding his face in his hands again. "I-I might as well just be skipping school… ugh…"

"Hey, as far as anyone knows, you're in the hospital. You're not skipping anything."

"But I'm… I'm not in the hospital, though…" Lloyd said softly. "We're lying…"

"Lying isn't illegal, Lloyd. However, telling the truth would be that you show up at the hospital and we already decided that's a suicide mission."

"Yeah…" Lloyd drew in a wavering breath, trying to gradually start calming himself down. "I've just got the bad feelings again…"

Lillian sat there and listened. She still didn't get why they were so against going to the hospital, but they seem to keep avoiding the questions. Yeah he was a bit…. Different. But that didn't mean he was going to die or get dissected!