forum Private roleplay with @Otaku_Is_Anime_Trash

Started June 26, 2019 by @Fraust

tune

"Then why won't he leave me alone?" Lucas dug his nails into his forearms behind Nick's back, disturbing the wounds.

"Because people can be blinded by hate and rage that they take all of those pent up feelings and take it out on others. All he does is blame himself, to get his mind on that he blames it on you to make himself feel better. It's not your fault and it will never be your fault. So, listen to me when I say this. The universe is a bitch, unfair, and mercenary. So, don't ever think it's your fault okay?" he smiled.

(He's digging his nails into his own skin btw)
"B-But I could've done something more to help him… I should've been a better brother…" Lucas hiccuped and bit down hard on his own wrist, which was still hidden behind Nick's back.

(Fixed it!)
He shook his head, "You shouldn't have to do anything. It's not a could've, should've, would've situation. If your brother felt like leaving this world so he could be free of his grief, then that is his choice. There is nothing you could've done to stop it. If really thought about everyone else for a second then he would see that leaving you was the wrong choice. There is nothing you could've should've would've done to stop his choice in life. If anything it's his own fault for leaving everyone like this especially you." Nick leaned back against the couch and sighed.

Lucas pulled away, still biting his wrist and breathing heavily. "Why… w-why wouldn't he just ask me for help? Because he was proud, and I was struggling just as much as him…" He answered his own question, biting harder. "I-I need him… but… but he's gone… he left me alone…"

Nick pulled Lucas's hand away from his teeth, "You know what? I don't think you need him. Yes, he is a very important part of your life just like everyone that you are close with, but I don't think he would want this for you. Now, Kiss me if I'm wrong but, the more you grieve over him the more you're going to want him back, the more you'll go into depression, and the more you'll start to want to be where he is. He didn't leave you alone because you have us to help you through whatever you're going through. Stop thinking he left you because then where will I be in the mind of yours if it's clouded with thoughts about your brother. I was at least three-quarters of your mind to think about me," he winked.

Lucas looked up at Nick, tears pooling in his eyes again. "S-Should I kiss you if you're right, too?" His face flushed and he looked down at the bite mark on his wrist guiltily. It's almost like I can't control myself at all…

A light blush crossed his face, "W-Well, I guess that's a reward for being right so yeah you should." he scratched the back of his neck looking the other way.

Lucas hesitated before kissing Nick, his face flushing bright red. Oh shit oh shit oh shit. What am I doing. Oh god please help my gay soul.

He pulled Lucas onto his lap not breaking the kiss until he ran out of air, "I didn't think you would actually do that."

Lucas didn't respond, hiding his red face in his hands. He was noticeably shaking and it felt like his heart would beat out of his chest. Hhhhh he's gonna hate me now…
(Lucas's thoughts are such a mood)

(IKR!)
"Hey, look at me," he lifted his chin up. Nick put their lips together while pulling Lucas close to him.

Lucas was clearly incredibly anxious at first, but eventually managed to relax and kiss back. He wrapped his arms around Nick's neck and his legs around his waist, still blushing a deep red. Well, if there was any doubt about me being gay…

(Lucas is me right now tho XD)
He opened his mouth and put his tongue in the others. Nick pulled way leaving a line of saliva connecting both of them, "Damn… you are hot Lucas."

Lucas looked away, still trying to get his blush to fade at all. "I-I… no… you are. I'm not old enough to be hot yet." He grinned a bit, nestling his head in the crook of Nick's neck.

"No, you are definitely old enough to be hot, sexy, and cute at the same time." he stroked his hair. *I really need to stop talking, but I have to tell him the truth right?"

Lucas hid his face in Nick's shoulder. "Hhhhhnnn… nooooo…" He whined softly. "I'm not cute…"

he laughed, "Do you have any idea of how cute you're being right now?" he asked raising an eyebrow.

"I'm not cute…" Lucas covered his ears with his hands. His legs were still wrapped around Nick's waist by now.

He removed his hands from his ears and whispered in his ear, "Sexy~"

"Noooo…" Lucas's face turned bright red again and he closed his eyes. "Even less that than cute."

"I won't stop saying it until you agree, Cutie." he smirked.

Lucas shook his head, covering his face again. "I can't… I-I'm not…"

"Come sexy Cutie just agree with me. Kiss me because you know I'm right," he chuckled.

"Fine!" Lucas huffed and kissed Nick again, letting his hands fall to the other's shoulders.

He smiled into the kiss then pulled away, "You take everything way too seriously. You realize kiss me if I'm wrong or Kiss me if I'm right is an expression to emphasize the point you're trying to make?"

"W-What?" Lucas looked at Nick with a confused expression. "I've not heard that before… I'm just following orders."

"You are way too cute for your own good…" he chuckled, "Maybe you shouldn't fallow all orders."