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@The-N-U-T-Cracker

It’s quite pathetic but… Well… I have possibly the most boring, repetitive life ever with basically no hobbies because my parents don’t have the time, money, or space to let me do really anything other than hide in my room drawing. If I want to do anything else, I have to find/buy the materials needed by myself, teach myself, make time for stuff myself, and be completely responsible for everything all by myself. The moment I have to get my parents or siblings involved is the moment I lose that hobby completely…
Well, I’d finally found something new to try so I’m not constantly in a state of complete boredom, and that was making polymer clay sculptures. I made two little figurines that looked kinda awful, but I was really happy with them… Until this morning, when my mom had to bake them. The first figure, a chibi sculpture of Hatsune Miku, decided it wanted to fall apart into 8,000 little pieces. I was able to salvage most of the clay since it wasn’t baked yet, but the figure itself was toast… My mom went to bake the second figure, but she didn’t quite understand that it was supposed to stand up, and laid it down during the baking process, breaking off a leg and the bottom of the cape. I might be able to glue her back together, but she’s not going to be able to stand or really do anything…
So both of my figures were destroyed, about 16+ hours of work went completely down the drain, now my mom’s upset with me for leaving her responsible for my own creations, and since I’m not allowed to use the oven, I can’t make clay stuff anymore.

I shouldn’t be this upset by something so small yet here I am…

@Simon-Says

Aw sis, that sucks SO HARD. One of my drawings got erased after I was like 5 minutes away from being done with it, and I got so frustrated I had to go lay down. And I only spent about an hour on that drawing, so I can't even imagine how difficult that must be for you.

@The-N-U-T-Cracker

They’ve been quite angry with me about how lazy, unproductive, and antisocial I’ve been recently, since all I ever do is sit around in my room drawing. But when I try to find something else to do, it never works out because despite what they seem to think, I can’t do everything by myself. I can’t drive myself to dance lessons nor can I pay for them, I can’t buy myself an instrument to learn, I can’t set up air conditioning in the garage just to have space to paint or sew, I can’t simply walk myself to the nearest pet shelter to volunteer, I can’t drive myself to a friend’s house to socialize, I can’t build a room to exercise in.
What I can do, however, is sit around in my room drawing, but that’s not enough apparently…

@Pickles group

Maybe you could find a place within walking distance to meet a friend for food or something or see if they're parent could drive you

@The-N-U-T-Cracker

Maybe you could find a place within walking distance to meet a friend for food or something or see if they're parent could drive you

The only places within walking distance are two churches, a public school, a retirement home, and I think there’s a corn field somewhere, plus I’m not allowed to go walking anywhere past my driveway without an adult because they think I’ll end up kidnapped.

All my friends live at least 20-30 minutes away, but since my mom is always busy watching my little siblings, my dad is always either at work or out of town, my older siblings are either at work or don’t want to take me anywhere, and there are no other people in the house capable of driving… I see my friends maybe once a month, if even that.

@The-N-U-T-Cracker

Or pretend to take a walk outside and get out of view of your house and just watch YouTube or draw there for a bit

I can’t even get SoundCloud to load while sitting on my front porch, YouTube won’t work once I’m out of view from the house. Plus it’s going to be 85-90+ degrees Fahrenheit all week, even in the early mornings, so sitting outside for long periods of time might not be too good for my health…

@RainClouds_Itachi_

uhhhhh, i need to rant but i don't like talking about my emotions and problems and stuff but-
i'd maybe like some advice or something??? comfort is good too i guess
so uh, my dad just,, died a few hours ago. and i'm not doing good, and idk what to do, and i just,, i'm feeling a lot of things right now

@Periwinkle_

Oh my goodness I’m so sorry! That’s horrible! I guess some advice would be to take it slow, and grieve as much as you need to.

@TeamMezzo group

Rain! I'm so sorry, dear! My absolute deepest condolence go to you and your family. Pm me if you need anything. squeezes tightly

@Musical_Queen

Hey, Just remember that he is at peace and that you can keep his memory alive. You may be sad now, but remember that he is with you. Some people will say in your hearts, which is true, but also, he is a part of you. He is literally sewn into you and will always be a part of you. Just remember that and keep smiling for him, for what he did, and what he will always be a part of. <3

@TeamMezzo group

yeah!! so we're a DID system and we were dumb enough to be close to the fireworks, a total of EVERY ALTER had panic attacks and we haven't slept in three days because it's so loud and bangy. it's shit on the littles(small children in-system) as well, cuz they're like "oh!! so pretty!" but the loud noises make them sob and sob, and i feel bad cuz we're all having panic attacks so we can't help one another.

@hyunjins-eyemole

Guys. I messed up. I messed up BAD! So, today my family had just gotten this new off road car thing. And my dad was all like your 13, you’ve been practicing your driving for years on similar stuff, take it for a spin! And I was like ok! Let’s do this! We get about 200 of something yards away from the house and that’s when I messed up. So I’m just cruising along and not really looking where I am going, so I don’t see the giant mud pit until we are in it. So try going forward. Nothing. Backwards. Nothing. My parents and my dog are with me and my dad tries to get us out. Nothing. The wheels have sunk half way into the mud and we are going NOWHERE. Luckily our neighbors/close friends live just down the street. But we forgot our phones. As FYI we are wearing flip flops and the area we just drove in I snake heaven, not mention so muddy it would sink to our ankles. I’m not taking off my flip flops, walking through mud, then walking through a field unless I ABSOLUTELY HAVE TO! So my dad jumps out of the car and begins to run towards the house. My dog (who weighs 40 pounds) is trying to follow him. She gets in that mud and she will sink to her knees. She is so frickin hairy it’s not even funny. She was b o i l i n g. TO be continued

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