forum Even Serial Killer Get Lonely (o/o Open)

Started May 05, 2019 by @ElderGod-yellowqueen

tune

"well, I didn't know about your side activities until last night. It doesn't change how I feel about you, not how much I value you in my life." Raz said, "you are my world, Eth. I only want you."

Ethan pressed his forehead to his. He kissed gis nose affectionately. "And you are my world. I will never let you go."

He smiled and nudged him affectionately "good."

Ethan smiled and hugged hin tight

"correction from before, you're very, very, clingy today." He laughed softly and kissed his cheek

"Im aloud to be clingy. I almost lost you yesterday." Ethan said quietly.

"you will never lose me." He kissed dhim softly "if they kidnap me, I'll just annoy the heck until they're forced to give me back."

"Or they might kill you insyead. Or awful, awful things. You dont known what these people can do. I do. I just- I dont want anything to happen to you."

Raz brought both his hands to Ethan'd face "nothing is going to happen to me love. Because I have you. But I don't want anything happening to you because of me."

"I dont care what happens to me as long as youre okay." Ethan leaned into his hands.

Now it was time for Raz to tilt Ethans face towards his "you think I'll be alright when you're lying dead somewhere in an allyway? You think I'd be able to live with myself knowing that you died trying to protect me?"

"I think you would go on living your life vecause that's what I would want you to do. Even if I'm not here. I want you to draw to your heart's content. I want you do what you love evn if I'm not here. My life would be filfilled if I knew that I died to save you." Ethan gripped his cheeks firmly

"the things I love to do would bold no meaning anymore if I lost you." Raz tilted his head into Ethand touch "I don't want you to for me, I want you to die with me. I want to live a life time with you, and when our time co.es I want to live my afterlife with you."

Ethan kissed his forehead tenderly. "If we live lifetime together, we can go to the afterlife together. But if I die young, unearthly to live the rest of your days. I want you to do what you love for me. And i want you to move eventually. Find someone who will love you just as i do."

Raz glanced away and shook his head "I can't….I won't…." He scooted away from Ethan and burrued himself into the blankets

Ethan grabbed him and held him. "Please, promise me. I don't know how long I'm going to be here. If I leave early, I wamt to make sure you're going to take care of yourself and be happy."

"I can't promise anything. Yeah I'll be taken care of because I'm not a child anymore but I can't promise that I'll be happy or that I'll move on." He pulled away again and stood, heading to the bedroom

Ethan sighed. He put his head in his hands, taking several deep breaths. He needed a small breather before going to the bedroom to talk more with Raz. He got a glass of water from the kitchen and drank it. Then he walked to the bedroom, stading in the doorway

Raz was on his side, laying in bed curled up in the blanket.

Ethan watched him for a minute before climbing into bed amd just holding Raz.

Raz turned over and burrued his face in Ethans chest "my statement still stands. I can't promise anything." He muttered "I don't like thinking about my life without you, much less talking about it as if it's going to happen soon."

Ethan rubbed his back in circles soothingly. "I want you to promise that you'll try. Just try your best if I leave too early. I just want you to try." He murmured.

He hugged a sighed and nodded "I'll try. Doesn't mean I'll try hard, but I'll try," he glanced up at Ethan "you're stubborn."

Ethan chuckled. "And so are you." He kissed his lips gently, giving him all the support and comfort Raz needed.

He closed his eyes in content "don't start something you don't intent to finish." Raz teased, quoting Ethan from earlier

Ethan chuckled. "I love you. So much." He murmured.

Ethan chuckled. "I love you. So much." He murmured.

"I love you too. Promise me you'll try to stay alive. For as long as possible." He said caressing his cheek

"Every fight I will fight for you. I will do eveyrthing in my power to come back to you." Ethan whsipered

He smiled softly and kissed his cheek "thank you." He curled up comfortably next to Ethan