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Started January 17, 2019 by @The-N-U-T-Cracker

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Ugh rant coming this way… my friend is so drunk right now. She just texted me from a party and it wasn’t even complete or resonable sentences. Her boyfriend is there with her and he is doing nothing to stop it. They are not even old enough to be drunk. And all my other friends seem to be okay with it. I don’t even know at what party she is and even if I knew I wouldn’t be able to go over there and get her out of there because of 1) my overprotective parents who really doesn’t want me to go out at night (it’s 01:36 am over here) and 2) if I told them, they would probably tell her parents and she would get caught and hate me forever. So all I can do is hope that she doesn’t mess up things way too much, and that sucks.

Update on this… I didn’t hear from her anything more last night and she hasn’t responded to what I texted her this morning. Should I be worried? None of my other friends does this kinda stuff so I’m not sure…

I think if it was at her house that means she's fine….cuz if something happened she probably would have texted you if she could

Yeah… hopefully. Imma try contacting my other friends and see if they have talked to her.

She just texted me… she’s okay but her boyfriend fucking broke up with her and I wanna kill that bastard

alcohol related vent:

yesterday i was at a party and sneaked some of my parents' beer and it rlly wasn't a lot, just enough to get giggly and work up the guts to dance, and i texted julian abt it and he was rlly against it and i didnt know why and then later he told me that his mom finally came home at like 11 pm and she was drunk as fuck and i didnt know his mom was an alcoholic now i feel insensitive

Oops

im gna apologize later

Yeah, that’s probably best…

I have to agree.
Tell him a we wish him best luck!

<333

OH GOD I'm so embarrassed. I was at school and it was raining so they let us have lunch in the auditorium and there are two doors to the auditorium one on either side and I had my lunch and I went in one side and it was the board meeting with the head of school on that side but I didn't know and they all looked at me and then I ran out and went to the other side which was separated so that the kids having lunch wouldn't hear or see the meeting and it ruined my day because I have anxiety and I couldn't stop thinking about it and AAHHHHHHHHHHHHH. ok I'm good now thank you.

you ran out? I would have stayed frozen in that spot and probably cried lol

hi! i hate my motherfucking dysphoria. thank you for coming to my TED Talk.

hi! i hate my motherfucking dysphoria. thank you for coming to my TED Talk.

Aw poor BB. I'm here if you wanna talk

naw, it's normal at this point.

You know what sucks? Having insomnia and only getting 15 minutes of sleep during finals weeks

Oh gosh, my "too anxious to speak" thing is back again, I want to isolate myself in a corner, lose my voice, and die there

Oh gosh, my "too anxious to speak" thing is back again, I want to isolate myself in a corner, lose my voice, and die there

mood

(ok this is abt bugs and it's ew so just warning)

i was trynna sleep last night and it was like 1 fucking AM and i felt smth on my elbow and there was a CENTIPEDE IN MY FUCKING BED AND I PANICKED AND MY DAD TOOK CARE OF IT AND IT TOOK ME LIKE ANOTHER HOUR AND A HALF TO FALL ASLEEP

me: uhhhh god of fate (or whatever bitch up there takes care of this) can i uhhhhh have one(1) cute boy to sleeb in my bed bleas cuz i'm kinda haunted by when he laid down in his bed when we were videochatting and i keep thinking abt waking up next to him dkfjbkdbktb please?

entity, throwing centipede from the ceiling: yeet i guess

So this was my first year homeschooling. My parents made me do it so that I would focus on school and not get distracted, EVEN THOUGH I NEVER GET INTO ANY TROUBLE. I've been in accelerated classes all my school life, I've never gotten in any trouble other than teachers telling me to stop talking, and I'm known as shy and quiet. I'm actually one of the good kids. But my parents decided to rip me from my friends anyway. The last time I saw any of them was May 18, 2018. And even though I've tried to stop the pain, I just can't get over how much I miss them. I'm not allowed to see them. Besides that, I'm doing dual enrollment which is really hard for me. I'm going to technical college with a bunch of adults now and I'm still a teenager. And it's like my parents don't even care. I can count the number of good friends I have on one hand.
BUT THERE'S MORE.
My parents separated in August of 2018, and ever since then I've been going back and forth to where they're both staying. I want to just stay with my mom, since I literally hate being around my dad, but he keeps dragging me back to his gross apartment. There have been so many times that I wanted to tell someone about it, but my dad doesn't want me to. The only person who knows about it is one of my friends from my old school, who I never see and she's off living her best life in high school. The only people who ever really showed they care are all at that school. Not to mention this boy who I liked for four years finally asked me out after I had already left.
ONE MORE THING.
Because of all of this, I think I have depression. Bout as most of you know, clinical depression is very different from just being sad. Because of this, I don't want to tell my parents about it because they'll think I'm just asking for attention if I don't actually have it.

So I usually drown my sorrows in music and drawing, but today it's just too much. I had to get that off my chest.

Definitely tell someone if you think his place isn't safe. I've said this a lot but I don't give a sht if he doesn't want you to. He should clean up especially if his child has to live there. Or tell him that.

periwinkle ur fucking valid and i rlly get the being ripped from ur friends thing and fuck what ur dad wants, complain abt him to anyone u want, it's not like he's gonna know. he cant stop u from hating him so

The thing is, me, my mom, and my sister have all been telling him that for literally years, along with some other stuff, but he won't listen. And it's not necessarily unsafe, just tiny, unclean, run down, that sort of thing. Although I usually wouldn't mind the tiny part, for 9 years there was four of us living in a tiny two bedroom apartment.

thanks you guys

So, my boyfriend. He's pretty fricking awesome. But sometimes, he's hard to read. I feel like I'm super clingy, like every time we talk.
I try not to walk on eggshells around him, but it's hard. It's not his fault. It's just how I am. We can't call one another because of my aunt or we're busy.
Sometimes I wonder if he just doesn't want to talk. Maybe I'm paranoid.
Sorry for this.

look, there's a pretty big chance you're just paranoid. i used to feel like that, and then two days ago my boyf said he wants to move to canada to go to college here because he wants to be with me and i freaked out (in a good way). like, it's likely he's just not as verbally expressive as you are and that worries you unnecessarily. he's probably just busy and that's all. everything will be alright <33

Thanks!

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