Short rant.
This is going to be a super busy month for me, and I'm really behind with school. I'm homeschooled, so it's harder for me to keep track and remember what needs to be done when. Over the last school year, I had six weekend retreats. I somehow managed to fall about 5 weeks behind in Science, and 4 weeks behind geography. These are my hardest subjects, and I can barely get one done per week. They take forever and even longer to go over with my mom. Along with that, I've been behind on a bunch of my other stuff to just because I'm procrastinating. So now I feel like a failure who can't keep up, and just isn't good at stuff. I'm making stupid decisions instead of the ones I know are right, and I don't stop. I'm failing at life.
Aw, Mama Hen you aren't failing. Sometimes life just gets hectic, but I promise it will calm back down again. This kind of stuff has happened to me, albeit on a much smaller scale, and honestly, I got through it by imagining myself to be one of those gorgeous youtubers that does videos on healthy breakfasts and how to get up early and stuff (cough cough Ellie June). I don't even know why it helped, but I was a lot more productive. You'll be able to do it, bud. <3
I'm definitely trying that. (I'm going to find that chat soon and just start clucking wildly)
Short rant.
This is going to be a super busy month for me, and I'm really behind with school. I'm homeschooled, so it's harder for me to keep track and remember what needs to be done when. Over the last school year, I had six weekend retreats. I somehow managed to fall about 5 weeks behind in Science, and 4 weeks behind geography. These are my hardest subjects, and I can barely get one done per week. They take forever and even longer to go over with my mom. Along with that, I've been behind on a bunch of my other stuff to just because I'm procrastinating. So now I feel like a failure who can't keep up, and just isn't good at stuff. I'm making stupid decisions instead of the ones I know are right, and I don't stop. I'm failing at life.
As a fellow homeschooler I know the feeling. I used to get months behind in math all the time. All I can really say is keep going, and power through it. Maybe time yourself when you take breaks between work, or constantly switch subjects? Or alternate between schoolwork and chores, that way your brain can rest and your mom can't argue. One way or another I can totally relate to this, so you're not alone…
Yeah, I have a friend who's trying to help me set more specific hours aside for school. We'll see if it works, but it should help. Thanks for listening, it means a lot that people have felt similarly and got through it.
Yeah, I have a friend who's trying to help me set more specific hours aside for school. We'll see if it works, but it should help. Thanks for listening, it means a lot that people have felt similarly and got through it.
That's awesome! And yeah, I know how much of a pain it can be… (I used to live under the threat of doing math all summer cause I had a stack of corrections, cause I had to redo it till I got it right….)
Quick vent.
I am trying to wear heels and I don't know how girls do it. Like honestly it is hard. So far I have learned that if you want to wear them for long balance on your heel a bit and not just your toes. But also it is definitely hard. For some school events we have to wear a uniform that makes us look like we are from a prep school. Last year I went with a large group to work at one of the biggest fairs near us and we had shifts but later that day (thanks to the jackets) 3 people had heat strokes. then after the event we started leaving to get back to school (a maybe 2 hour drive) we went to use the bathrooms and buy drinks and stuff at cumberland farms and it must have been funny to see like 20 kids walk in who look like they are from a prep school because of the black pants/skirts white shirts and the people who were still wearing their ties and scarves.
Heels suck. I relate to that part at least 😂
Heels are literally the worst invention for feet ever. Who even came up with them? I'm scared of having to wear them (I have to wear them on Thursday for a formal thing) and I don't want to trip and hurt anyone.
I can sometimes survive wearing them to church but other than that they kinda suck an I hate them
I can sometimes survive wearing them to church but other than that they kinda suck an I hate them
I often wear my sneakers to church with a fancy dress cause my running shoes are black with flowers and look nice. Imma not emphasize that they're sneakers to my mom cause i hate dress shoes in general.
I like dress shoes for the looks but obvi they are not functional so I rarely wear them
i'm really good at walking on heels and i have to wear them for my own shitty prep school uniform but man that shit hurty after 6 hours
quick rant bc i'm mad at my anxiety
julian: does something really nice that proves he really does love me
me @ my brain: see you stupid bitch? he does love you, this relationship is literally perfect, calm down
my brain:
my brain:
my brain: what if you're not attracted to him
me: that's not what i meant but fuck now imma think about it
and this has happened with every single one of my relationships??????????? i'm so angry??????? why can't i just have a normal relationship like a normal person???
Just remember to love him.
Try not to think about not being good enough, or whatever, he loves you!
wait ok i've thought more about it and im not sure ik what u mean by "remember to love him" (sry im dumb)
wait ok i've thought more about it and im not sure ik what u mean by "remember to love him" (sry im dumb)
I mean try not to get caught up in your worries. I do it all the time.
More often than not, they're dead wrong.
I'm babysitting kids at my church right now I've already been here for two hours and there's still an hour left and I'm only getting $9 I should be doing my homework but my mom wouldn't let me bring it they're being really loud I feel like I'm going to throw up it smells disgusting in here and my earbuds just broke. It is not a good day I want to leave and scream and cry
Aww, pickles, it will be alright just think it is ONLY an hour left that means you just got to fight, ignore, and daydream through 60 minutes. Also a regular TV show now a days is 45 minutes so it won't be that long. YOU CAN DO THIS
Nope, we can't watch any to shows and they're all running around throwing things and shrieking. We tried to watch movies and that didn't work and there's such a huge age gap. 'Preciate the sentiment, though
[NOT RECOMMEND] Give them some Benadryl
No Benadryl here at church or I might
Update: turns out I get $18 because half of the sitters aren't legally old enough to work so they can't get paid
Glad I'm not by myself and the baby left so the place smells a lot better. Not good, but better. Ten minutes left 😅
we were in a university w my boys on a field trip and they saw a gender-neutral washroom and they kept saying "gender-inclusive washroom" in a condescending voice while my closeted trans ass sat Right There and eventually i snapped at them and they looked so confused
i wanna snap their necks
boys are dumb sometimes. that's all I have to say to that
boys are dumb sometimes. that's all I have to say to that
I know a guy who raided my bag, found a tampon, and opened it saying cool, is this for nose bleeds? (I get really bad nose bleeds a lot) and the promptly shoved it up his nose
i know they're dumb, but it's just sad that they think what they're doing is normal
Indeed, I quote this on the regular but "This is why women live longer then men" -me
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