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Started January 17, 2019 by @The-N-U-T-Cracker

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Exactly!!!

Asdfghjkl idk how to relationship idk how to significant other idk the rules, the way things work idk and I told my parents and they are s t r e s s i n g me out saying ‘are you sure that’s what he meant’ ‘did he use those words exactly’ and i dont know! I’m not trying to get anyone to like me because at this point they’ve already asked me out, we’re already together I didn’t think there’d be all these hoops to jump through good lord

I really can't help you because I don't know either. Good luck with it!

Thanks

Just want to vent about my fucking hand and how shity it is. I really hate this. Wish I hadn't broken it, damn it.

Oof. hugs (carefully)

Thanks.

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I am filled with the most angry frustration at everything I want to scream and punch someone and as much as I love my irl friends they aren't helping at all except for like two and I swear to Gaia the next "How are you? / Are you okay?" is going to tip me over the fucking edge

But isn't that them trying to help?

No it's a stupid question they already know the answer to. How is asking that supposed to help in any way?

I friggin hate my principal so much but I don't even have a good reason for it. Like she just causes me general intense anxiety every time I see her and I know why sorta but I still dislike it. And I know that what happened was literally her doing her job but now every time I see her, I literally look away and walk past her as quickly as possible. Something on my chromebook got flagged and I thought it might've been this one scene I wrote where one of my characters almost kills himself but then she was like "You seem to be extremely stressed…" so I knew it wasn't that because that conversation would have been so much more different. What's worse, however, is that this most likely doesn't just involve me but also one of my friends. We were emailing each other about some heavy stuff and there's a good chance that that was what was flagged, except that means that if my principal reads those emails, and she probably will, she's gonna find out about so many more things. And when she tried to talk to me during gym today, I just sat there tight lipped and fighting back tears. I couldn't form coherent words without crying and I did NOT want to cry in front of her again. So when I was finally allowed to go back to class, I ended up fighting a rather strong panic attack. And the people who were there in gym were like, "what happened?" (because if you talk to our principal, there is a 99% chance you're in trouble) and I was just like, "nothing" when in fact my brain was saying "E V E R Y T H I N G"
But anyway I have absolutely no clue what got flagged on my chromebook and that causes so much anxiety which is kinda ironic considering she was worried about my anxiety

It's whatever tho. I'll be fine. Just needed to vent :)

That's something similar to what I used to experience. I hope things get better.

Ok. I fucking hate this week. I hate life right now. I hate hate hate hate hate it. I need stuff to stop breaking. I need my mom to listen to my feelings and stop making me scared of trying to voice them. I need to be able to go to my youth group and I can't because the car won't start and my dad won't answer and mg friends can't help. Why is the world failing me right now?????

Ok. I fucking hate this week. I hate life right now. I hate hate hate hate hate it. I need stuff to stop breaking. I need my mom to listen to my feelings and stop making me scared of trying to voice them. I need to be able to go to my youth group and I can't because the car won't start and my dad won't answer and mg friends can't help. Why is the world failing me right now?????

I know what you're feeling come you are feeling like everything that can go wrong, will go wrong, and that it has gone wrong in some way, shape, or form. That's kind of what I'm feeling right now as well! I have one of the worst days of my life yesterday. But let me tell you, to keep trying, and to persevere, because I know for a fact that it gets better! After all, it got better for me, I know it can get better for you! I can't pretend to know everything you're going through, because we are rather different. But I will offer my support, my love, and I will offer my devotion to you for as long as you need it starry.

Thanks Shuri. As much as that may be true that's what I've been doing for months now and it never seems to get better….

Thanks Shuri. As much as that may be true that's what I've been doing for months now and it never seems to get better….

Hmmm. You might be stuck in a rut if that's the case..i know how frustrated that can make you.
Either way, We're here for you.

Thanks guys…. that means a lot…

Sometimes I just wish I could Cry.

Sometimes I just wish I could Cry.

I find myself doing that too often at night…

Sometimes I just wish I could Cry.

I find myself doing that too often at night…

Me as well.

Sometimes I just wish I could Cry.

I find myself doing that too often at night…

Me as well.

I shouldn't say this but… Same. I know I'm normally super incredibly happy but every once in a while, for no good reason, it all disappears and this flood of sadness, anxiety, worry, embarrassment, confusion, and of course tears decides to swallow me… I've been doing a lot better though.

Well, in any case, I'm glad at least one of us is doing better, Ella! I hope you continue to advance!

I wish I was able to cry my feelings but I haven't been able to in a while…….

Jeez, I honestly know there was a time when I I knew what that felt like, but I can't remember it.

Like the last time I really cried because I was sad was in June. unless you want to count the times I cried because of some very intense panic attacks

Today my friend and I were eating lunch, and we had pretty much just started on our entree when a teacher said, ”Wrap it up.” Ok, whatever. It’s annoying when they do that but we’ve never actually been kicked out of the cafeteria. So we continued to eat our lunch at the same pace. And we were actually eating pretty fast. Then a teacher started yelling at us. Multiple times, until it was, ”THIS IS YOUR FIFTH WARNING! GET OUT! LEAVE!”
We were scared by then, which is not something the teachers should make the students feel! Especially at lunch, which should be one of our favorite parts of the day! If we had stayed down there any longer, we would’ve most likely gotten a demerit.
At recess we were saying (in the kind of voice you would use to sing “Good For You” from DEH), “If they want to give us a demerit for not wanting to get sick, go ahead! But are parents are NOT going to be happy with the school.”
This goes for the coat thing too. If it’s cold and it’s outdoor recess, you have to bring your coat down to lunch with you. If you forget and go back to get it, you can get in trouble. Earlier this year my friend (note that this is her first year at my school and didn’t know about the rule) got yelled at for going to get her coat! The only reason she didn’t get a demerit was because she was new and didn’t know about the rule! And another time I overheard some younger students talking about how a classmate had gotten a demerit for going and getting her coat.
I’m sorry, but I would rather get a demerit than frostbite, or hypothermia, or even a cold. My friend (the one I was eating lunch with when we got yelled at) is proud of her perfect record of no demerits, ever, but she agrees with me.
We had plenty if time to eat before, until the Kid Whisperer showed up. I remember him as the person who ruined our school. Why do we need a kid whisperer anyway? We’re not dogs! It sounds like you consider us not humans, just because we’re kids.

Question-

Why do teachers think it is okay to assign projects over breaks? I have three projects worth a majority of my grade for this last quarter ad they are all like " Your high school students you can handle this, I'm the only teacher doing this you're fine" Um first, no your not, second, if you are the only one doing this then why are you doing it in the first place, and third, people have lives, I don't but that doesn't mean i want to work on English, Spanish, and a science project. I only have one week, I want to be working on teddy bears and not trying out how to make rape sound kid friendly for a children's book. Thank you for reading my rant. I apologize.