forum There are voices in our heads rp (Closed)

Started October 16, 2018 by @basil_

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“I don’t think so..” Tyler said, looking down at the floor.

“Just breathe,” she choked out, throat constricting as soon as she spoke again.

“Don’t be scared, just take a deep breath. It’s okay Macha..I’m..I’m okay..”

Macha drew her knees up to her chest, harshly reprimanding herself. Why couldn’t she just be strong? Why couldn’t she just forget about that awful night?

“I’m sorry..” Tyler mumbled. “This is why I left..”

And Macha just…. broke. “Don’t you understand?” she demanded, voice much quieter than she’d intended. “You leaving just made it worse— stop saying things like that—“

Tyler stood up, walking to the door and opening it. “I do understand that if I hadn’t left, neither of us would still be here having this argument right now.” He said, not looking at her as he went downstairs, finding all the knives they had and putting them somewhere where she wouldn’t find them.

Macha didn’t realize she was digging her nails into the soft flesh of her wrists until sharp pain drew her back to the present. A tsunami of hopelessness threatened to overcome her, and she was just about the drag her nails down her arm when her phone dinged again.

MORRIGAN: I’m right outside.

The doorbell rang a second later.

Tyler stared at Macha in disbelief from the top of the stairs. “You had someone come..that’s..smart I guess…if I were you I wouldn’t trust me either..” He said quietly, looking at the ground.

“Tyler.” She spoke through clenched teeth, tears streaming down her cheeks. “I texted someone so that you wouldn’t come to any harm. I don’t give a shit about myself.”

“Why? Why would you even give a second thought about me?! There are a million things I’ve done to you that are unforgivable.” Tyler responded, wanting to wipe the tears from her face and tell her it was okay.

“Because I love you!” Macha nearly shouted, her voice cracking on the word ‘love’. She hurried down the stairs, pushing past him to open the door.

“Hey, Morrigan. Sorry. I forgot to text you back. Everything’s back to normal.”

Tyler stood still, staring at the ground. His mouth was open like he was about to say something but he didn’t.

(G’morning
How’re you?)

Morrigan’s eyes narrowed as she gave Macha a worried once-over, then peered over her shoulder into the house. “Are you sure?”

Macha bit her lip, then nodded. “Yes. “

Tyler slumped down against the wall and rested his forehead on his knee, wondering how he could be so selfish and stupid.

(Should Morrigan come in?)

Morrigan said something in a hushed tone, to which Macha replied something in a quiet, agitated voice. The words ‘upset with me’ and ‘don’t know how’ and ‘fix this’ we’re audible, but the rest was too whispered to hear.

(Yeah She can)

Look at you. You’re a mess Tyler. Just stop trying, give up. Let me in.
A voice snarled in the back of his head.
You know she’s lying to you. Why would she still love you after what you’ve done?
She isn’t lying.
Then why couldn’t you tell her that you love her back?
Tyler fell silent, his hands clenched at his sides.
You wouldn’t let me.

(Oh and if that didn’t make sense
Demon
Tyler

(I’m sobbing)

After a moment, Morrigan sighed. “I’m coming in.”
Macha nodded and opened the door wider for her friend. “Tyler?” she called. “Is it okay if Morrigan comes in? It’s really late, I don’t want her taking the bus alone.”

:)

Answer her Tyler. Why are you ignoring her?

“Yeah..” It came out as a choked whisper, all that he could manage at the moment.

Letting someone else see this side of you? Have you given up on trying to hide me?
I’m not giving up yet.

(yet???)

Macha gave Morrigan a look, and the young woman took the cue to excuse herself and go to the washroom. Meanwhile, Macha had approached Tyler and was reaching out to lay a hand on his shoulder.

(Rip)

Ooo here she comes. Come to comfort you? Tell you everything’s okay? Lie to you again?
She isn’t lying to me. Stop saying that.
It is true though. Does everything seem okay to you Tyler? Is this how it’s supposed to be?
A cold laugh echoed though his head and Tyler flinched a little, not aware that Macha’s hand was on his shoulder.

"Tyler." His eyes were terrifyingly blank, glazed over. Macha fought the wave of panic that threatened to rise and tried again. "Tyler, listen to me. I trust you. I love you. I'm not afraid of you. But I can't lie to you and tell you that I feel the same about the Demon. I'm not going to tell you that it's all okay. But I am going to say that never in a million years would I ever hate you for this. Don't resent yourself. Please, just come to the couch and sit down."

She doesn’t love me? I’m offended. I was the one that made you remember where she was, after all.
Why would you keep that from me?
Tyler asked timidley, not moving.
Why do you think? Your precious Macha wouldn’t be affected by any physical pain but mental? If you light a match in that fragile girls head, it’ll set off a reaction, destroying everything she thought she had under control.
She still has me..
Not for long.

Tyler’s head snapped up and he gasped for air.

(I swear to god)

Mache flinched back in surprise, worry immediately overtaking her expression. She placed both hands on either of his shoulders, forcing him to look her in the eye. "Tyler. Answer me. Please." Her voice was panicked—had she lost him forever?

(Ha gottem)

“I’m okay..I’m..here.” He told her, breathing like he had just been nearly suffocated. A small chuckle echoing through the back of his mind but he ignored it, instead taking Machas hand.

(agsdhfjgkhhlgkfjdl)

A huge sigh of relief blew past her lips. "What just happened??"

(Hehehehehe)

“Nothing. Let’s just go downstairs..” Tyler said, not meeting her eyes and pushing himself to his feet.

(kmart)
(they're already downstairs lol)

Macha caught both his hands and pulled him back. "Tyler," she begged him, "Please. What just happened?"

(Ha)
(Wait srsly..okay. Oof I thought they were upstairs)

“A lot. But it won’t happen again..” Tyler said, taking both her hands and helping her up again.
_{Stop lying Tyler.}