Section One, Part Three
A handful of long, hard days passed by at the mansion like a tornado, tearing away whatever tidbits of energy the servants had gained from the successful first night and leaving them all to futilely flounder about like fish out of water in hopes of catching their breath. The only time they hadn a smidgeon of privacy was when they were climbing exhaustedly into their own beds at night. Even then, however, they couldn’t always expect to be entirely unbothered. Cyprus had woken them all up one night with enough fury blazing in his eyes to make it feel with his every glare as if he were burning holes straight through their skin. He’d snapped his whip once at the ground, commanded them to be up and dressed within the next ten minutes, and strode out of there like he was off to partake in an honorable battle. They’d found him in four minutes flat in the entertainment room on the third floor with a cluster of darts in his hand. One by one, he’d lined them up against the wall by a dartboard he’d recently hung up. Alastaros was the closest to it. Luckily for him, his khasta was actually decent at the game. He hadn’t hit a single one of them. When he’d finished with the sport just about an hour later, he’d sent them back off to bed without another word. The next morning, none of them appeared to have gotten any sleep. They were clumsier, slower, shakier, and louder than normal, resulting in complaints from Eleanor. Every time they made a mistake, she’d whack the back of their legs with one of her canes as if to remind them of how they were supposed to act. Smack!—stand up straight—smack!—don’t let any glasses remain unfilled—smack!—offer Nikolai blankets if he even so much as shivered—smack, smack, smack! Their calves had blossomed with so many different shades of blacks and blues that they resembled some of the mansion’s more abstract pieces of artwork in the prize room.
During the middle of the forth day of Nikolai’s visit, Alastaros finally got a temporary reprieve from her frustrated attacks. He was told to go to the garden to pick fragrant buds from one of the bushes to put into the candles that he’d been ordered to make that very same day. Out he went into the freezing, biting cold in a thin black jacket that was about four sizes too big for him. It dangled off of his slender frame like a cape, not a coat, and threatened to fall off with his every step. Funnily enough, he remembered a time in which the loose article of clothing was actually almost too tight. The amount of weight he’d lost working at the mansion was shocking even to him. He didn’t hate it, oddly enough, feeling a guilty sort of pleasure whenever the sleeves slid down his arms. There’d always been guys in his village that had been better than him, whether it’d been physically or mentally, and, as a result, his old body had been much too soft for his liking. Though he knew it was silly, part of him hoped that if he just kept working to erase that softness—kept dropping pounds, kept pushing himself—then he’d manage to impress his khastas and they would cease their painful mockery of his looks. He was tired of the shame that erupted inside of him when they prodded at his stomach or cheeks with their canes or knives, snickering to each other loud enough that any other servants in the room could hear. Of course, he wasn’t the only one they treated in such a way, but he couldn’t help but take their jokes to heart.
His sister had always been gorgeous, his mother transcendent, but him? His
cooking was always the thing that’d set him apart, and even that was something he’d been teased for as a kid.
A deafening gust of wind brought him back to the present. Snow had caught on and weighed down his shoulders during his wallowing. He swiped it off with his bare, trembling fingers, then continued on his way to the bush. If his memory was right, it was in the back behind a row of particularly tall ferns. With the swiftness of a blind, deaf ox with a missing leg, he smushed, slid, and tripped his way around several flowerbeds and hopped a decorative vase. Panting, he stopped and looked around. His sense of direction was terrible, and it wasn’t helping that snowflakes had begun to gather on his eyelashes.
The rhythmic crunching of footsteps in the snow behind him caused him to startle. He spun around, expecting Cyprus to appear, but sighed as a much more welcome figure approached. Pierce smiled at him sincerely. He was in a knee-length black coat and matching pants that stood out against the stark whiteness of their surroundings.
“Hello.”
Alastaros nervously looked back at the mansion. He couldn’t really see it from so far out, but that did nothing to staunch the squeamishness that rose in his stomach.
Pierce followed his gaze. His smile turned grim. “Oh. Don’t worry, they can’t see us. They aren’t looking, anyway. I just set up a card game for them. It’ll keep them busy for a while. Louisa’s keeping watch on it for us.”
“Why’re you out here?”
“To help you.” He laughed, his breath turning to a cloud of mist in the frigid breeze. “I saw you come out earlier, and you didn’t come back in, so, well, I thought you might be lost. You don’t come out here that much—it’s mostly Louisa and I. What’re you looking for?”
“The mismaya bush. I’ve been trying to find it for a while now.”
“We’re not far from it. Want me to walk you there?”
“That sounds great, thanks.”
The two servants walked side-by-side through frozen hedges and over frost-bitten roots. Unlike Alastaros, Pierce had a natural talent for navigating the garden’s twisting corners and archways. He had to stop and wait several times for the other boy to catch up.
“How are your legs?” he asked, clearly trying to make conversation as Alastaros huffed for air.
“They’ve been better. Yours?”
“Mm, they ache. I’d like to ice them, but, well, you know. I don’t have a lot of time for that.”
“Why not do it now? You’re not busy and you’re knee deep in the stuff.” To illustrate his point, he kicked up a cloud of frosty white flakes with the tip of his shoe.
Pierce chuckled. “True, but I don’t have a cloth or anything to wrap it in. I can’t just put raw snow on my leg.”
“Raw?”
“Yeah, you heard me right.” They both laughed. Alastaros was surprised at how good it felt; he hadn’t truly done so in a long time, too long to remember. “Also, we’re here. The mismaya’s in that purple pot.”
Mismaya bushes were breathtaking in the winter. Literally. They were so aromatic that the scent of their leaves alone flooded the lungs like a cloud of smoke. Delightful smoke, nonetheless, but still smoke. Alastaros and Pierce both gasped a little as they neared it. Going from the weak, clean smell of winter to such a blast in the senses was indescribable.
Picking the buds from the bush was a difficult task because of its thorny branches. His slippery fingers managed to pluck a couple without getting pricked, but he couldn’t avoid his fate forever. When he pushed his arm in deeper to pinch and retrieve an elusive light blue bud, he was shivering so hard that he jerked his hand sideways. He hissed out a curse, pulled back his thumb, picked out the thorn, and frowned at the blood that was welling up on the pad.
“You alright?” Pierce, who’d been picking buds on the other side of the plant, came up behind him.
Alastaros stuck his finger in his mouth and sucked on it. The salty taste of his own blood made his nose crinkle.
“The thorns get you?”
“Mmhm,” he mumbled around his knuckle.
“It’s cause you’re not wearing gloves. Here, I’ve got mine in my coat. You keep your pockets open, and I’ll put the buds in them.”
“Alright.”
They did their job in silence for the first couple of minutes. Whenever Pierce resurfaced from his prompt picking and plucking with a cupped handful of the buds, he’d tug open his coat to pack them away inside of it safely. The petals dripped with thawing ice. Before too long, his side grew unpleasantly damp. He decided to put his mind off the miserable feeling and focus on the young man before him.
“Do you miss it?” he asked.
“Miss what? The smell of fresh air?” Pierce responded, jokingly gagging at the fragrant plant.
“Never mind.”
He lowered himself down from the tips of his toes and shuffled over with three or four of the flowers. “Hey, come on, you can tell me. I’m sorry for messing around.”
“Just… I don’t know. Everything about being,” he gestured towards the closest wall of the garden, “out there.”
“Every single day.” He tried to laugh, but it came out sad. “It’s the little things that get me, you know? Yeah, I miss my family, and I definitely miss my friends, but sometimes I just lie in bed thinking about all of the other things I can’t see or have in here. I used to always go to this one shop and I can’t stop thinking about the curry they make. Sometimes when I’m almost asleep I pretend I’m there. It almost feels like I can taste it.
“And there’s other things too, you know? I miss this river that was by my house. Every spring it’d burst into life with all of these beautiful flowers, and when I was really little I’d go down to its banks and pick a bouquet for my parents. That’s where my friends and I used to hang out. We’d swim, climb trees, and make up all of these games to play. Honestly, I don’t remember a lot of them. There was one where we were warriors defending a castle, I think, and another where we would pretend we were adventurers with these crazy magic powers. We’d have fake fights in the mud, casting ‘spells’ at each other until it was time to go home. When we were older, we mostly just went down there to have a place to talk and relax, but it was still nice. Nothing beat like laying out by the water in the summer. There was always a breeze going, and sometimes it’d rain so hard that we’d take shelter under rocks to avoid getting completely soaked.
“There’s a lot of other junk, but-“ He breathed in deeply and closed his eyes. When they opened, they were glistening. “Look at me. I’m about to cry like a baby.”
“Sorry, I shouldn’t have brought it up.”
“Don’t be sorry. Sometimes that stuff’s the only thing that keeps me going. It’s feels good to say it out loud. Reminds me of what I’m going to get back to when I get out of here someday.”
“You want to go back?”
“Don’t you?”
Alastaros shrugged. “I don’t know. I mean, I want to get out of here and see my family more than anything, but… I really don’t know.”
“Yeah? Are you a big traveler?”
“Not really, no.”
“Then why don’t you want to go home?”
“Like I said, I don’t know. It’s weird to wonder what the people I knew would think of me if they saw who I am now.”
“Are you… uh, are you ashamed of yourself?” When he didn’t answer, Pierce’s shoulders slumped. “You are. Why? Nothing that’s happened to you is your fault—you have to know that, right?”
“I don’t want to talk about this anymore.”
“Why not?” interjected a new voice. They both tensed. Fear hotter than a lump of coal settled into Alastaros’s heart. He turned to find himself facing his worst nightmare.
Cyprus was shaking. Not from the cold, no, but from something deep inside, an ailment of the mind; the kind that turned men into monsters ready to unleash upon the world the agony of their heart. His eyes were wide with venomous wrath, his skin was flushed a bright reddish purple, and he appeared to be staggering. When he dragged a hand across his mouth, it came away smeared crimson. Thin rivulets of blood dripped from a cut in his lip onto the rumpled collar of his shirt. In his white-knuckled grip was the hilt of his black whip. Despite how much he was trembling, his hand was terrifyingly steady.
He looked ready to kill.
“Khasta,” Pierce breathed.
“You two seemed to be having an awfully good chat. Why not proceed?”
“You- you were- playing cards, and I thought-“
“Shut up and get on your knees,” he snarled. They immediately followed his command. Although neither looked at each other, they both seemed to realize the same thing. This was no little game, no round of darts in the game room, no playful jab or scathing remark.
“Khasta, it’s not-“ Pierce started slowly, apologetically, and flinched as Cyprus seized him by the jaw.
“You know what?” he growled, voice as low as it was lethal. “I’m sick and tired of my servants thinking they can do or say whatever they please. I did not send you out here, did I, suvam?” That was a Morrim word that Alastaros actually knew. It meant maggot; rotting one; filth; gutless.
“You did not. I’m sorry, khasta, I just-“
his words trailed off in a squeak as Cyprus dug his nails into his cheek. The blood on his knuckles from his lip smeared the skin by his nose.
“Why should I keep you around if you won’t listen to me?”
“I’m really sorry, I-“
“No. No! I want to hear it. Tell me why you should stay.” His words dropped to a whisper. “Beg for your life.”
Pierce’s mouth opened and closed wordlessly several times. He swallowed a panicked breath of air before directing his wide eyes foolishly to the other servant. Cyprus yanked him upwards so fast that Alastaros nearly missed it. His heart began to race.
Cyprus had a knife.
“You’ve been a real pain in my side for the last few weeks, suvam. This isn’t the first time I’ve caught you slacking.”
“I- I-“
“You what? What is it? You want to tell me that you’re sorry? You want to tell me that you’ll never do it again? We both know that’s not true. You haven’t stopped running your mouth since day one.” He leaned in close. “I think it’s time I shut you up for good. I don’t need you—I don’t need any of you. I can get more of you anytime I please, you especially. See, suvam, there’s nothing you could’ve said to change my mind about this. You’ve always been worthless to me. I should’ve realized it earlier, but I figured you’d change. I figured I just had to beat the disobedience out of you. But I tried that, didn’t I? I’ve beaten you over and over again. I’ve cut up your face and twisted your ankle. You haven’t learned.”
“Khasta, this was my mistake,” Alastaros pleaded. “I asked him to show me where the mismaya plant was earlier, so we came out here together. He wouldn’t have if I didn’t ask.”
“You think I believe that?”
His lungs squeezed like they were in a vice as a wave of bile rose into his throat.
“I’m going to teach you a lesson you’ll never forget right here, right now, garrhas, for lying to me. And every time you think about misbehaving in the future, you’ll think of this.”
“No!”
The world turned into a blur. He didn’t remember getting to his feet, but there he was, standing tall, yanking and slapping at his khasta’s wrists. Thankfully, the knife had fallen into the snow. Unthankfully, his khasta had never looked so furious in his three years of service.
“You do not touch me!” Cyprus screamed, and then there it was, a horrid slapping sound followed by a stinging, slicing, excruciating pain, the first crack of his weapon of choice. Alastaros choked on his own spit in an attempt to cry out. His vision went blank—no, white, he was face down on the ground—and his body spasmed. Someone started to grab at his jacket. Let it be Pierce, he hoped desperately, knowing that it wasn’t. Pierce didn’t have deathly pale hands. Pierce wasn’t rough.
“Do you know, garrhas, what happens to dogs when they bite their masters? Do you?”
“I’m sorry, please, please-“ his sentence was punctured with a wheeze. Cyprus’s boot was pressing into the back of his neck, hard, so hard that spots danced in his vision. “Don’t! Don’t, please! I’m sorry, I’m so-“
This time, he was cut off with a blood-curdling screech—his own, to be precise. The whip had come down again, this time on his exposed back. It bit into his flesh over and over again, raining down in torrential blows, before he could say or think anything else. He couldn’t tell anymore whether the wetness he was feeling was snow or blood.
“I should just stab you now.” He was rambling. In between every word was another crack of the whip, another mind-numbing pain that shot through his entire body. “I want to—I really, really want to—but I want this first, I-“
“Please, please-“
“-should’ve been doing this all along. It would’ve saved me so, so much trouble-
“Damn it!” Alastaros howled. He dry retched and wheezed roughly afterwards. He couldn’t breathe. He was going to die. He needed to run- no, he needed to- he couldn’t think, couldn’t move, couldn’t-
The beating halted for a brief moment, and footsteps started in the other direction. Words were said. He couldn’t tell what they were; he could only hear his heartbeat, thready uneven, frighteningly fast.
When the whipping started again, Alastaros couldn’t take it. He went unconscious for a brief, almost pleasant moment, then woke with blurred vision. Cyprus was breathing nearly as hard as him. That made him glad. He hoped he’d run out of air. He hoped he’d die, and that Cyprus would die beside him. He hoped Pierce would get to see his river again.
The pain stopped again. More words were exchanged. Alastaros didn’t care. He drooled onto the ground openly, letting his spit mingle with his tears and blood in the snow.
A hand touched his shoulder—or what was left of it, anyways, it was shredded to bits—and he heard a soft voice buzzing above his head. Not Cyprus’s. Whose was it? Eleanor’s? Surely not. It had to be Pierce’s. That was nice. What was Pierce doing? He was saying a lot of things. He tried to listen.
“—ou’re going to be alright. I’ve got you. Do you think you can get up? I need you to get up.”
“Wha?” Was that his own voice? Why did it sound like that?
“Give me your hands, I’ll pull you up. I’m taking you inside.”
He tried to raise his arms. Instead, he passed out again. When he came to, he was sitting on the edge of a bathtub. Something was being dabbed at his back. It hurt, but he was almost too numb to feel it. He’d been out in the cold for so, so long. Wasn’t that bad? He couldn’t remember.
“Hey there,” Pierce murmured. His eyes swam in the other servant’s vision. Why were they so red? Had he been crying?
“Why’re ‘ou- why’re ‘ou cryin’?” he slurred.
“Shh, I’m alright. Don’t worry about me.”
“But tha’s bad, cryin’. ‘Ou’ll get ‘n trouble.”
“No, no, I’m fine. Save your energy.”
“But- but-“
“Shh, it’s fine. You’re going to be alright.”
“Where’s Cyp- Cyp-“
“Don’t worry about that. You’re safe.”
“Wha?”
“You’ll see in a minute. Just breathe for me, mm?”
“Am I dyin’?”
“I… I hope not.”
The door swung open. They both flinched. Cyprus entered, his clothes still stained red, next to Nikolai, who was blank-faced.
“Are you sure about this? He isn’t in the greatest condition, and he’s prone to acting out,” his khasta said. He still sounded out of breath.
“I’ve thought it over.”
“None other will do? It has to be him?
“Yes.”
“Why?”
“His cooking was exquisite. As of right now, I don’t own a single servant that can do what he can. I haven’t eaten such a wonderful meal in years.”
“But surely you can find someone else who can cook,” he protested. Pierce paused whatever he was doing to Alastaros’s back and glanced down. “He’s a pest. Out of all my servants, he’s the least loyal. He’s a badly behaved mutt; I think it’s because of his blood.”
“I could use a challenge, hava. Life has been a bit too easy lately. Too much wine, too many festivities. It’s all gotten repetitive. Surely someone as passionate and hardworking as yourself can understand.”
“Oh, absolutely,” Cyprus responded earnestly.
“Then will you agree to the trade? The three first editions for this servant?”
“Of course! Anything for you, Nikolai. I think you’re making a mistake, but you know that I respect you and will therefore respect your decision.”
“Excellent. I will take him home with me in about an hour’s time.”
“You’re leaving tonight? But you haven’t been here a week!”
“I know that it’s unfortunate, but I have just received news today that my presence is requested by the court of my city. I am to be granted an award of some sort, and it does my reputation well to show up.”
“I understand. Suvam!” he yelled, changing both his tone and direction. “Get up and pack up Nikolai’s belongings. You too, garrhas. Tell the others to help.”
“Actually, hava, do you mind if I take a moment to examine my purchase?”
“Oh. Ah, absolutely, do as you wish. I’ll go inform Eleanor of your departure. She’ll be devastated, you know.”
“Tell her I’ll be back in two weeks with the books. That should cheer her up.”
Cyprus and Pierce hastily left the bathroom, each heading their separate ways. Without the support of his friend, the aching servant slumped over partially. In doing so, his eyes met directly with a pair of empty green ones.
The door shut, followed by the small click of a lock. Alastaros, not for the first time that day, froze.
He was alone with Nikolai.
-End of Section One-