post your letters to people. anything you need to say in this format is welcome.
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noah,
god, it's been seven years since that dreaded day. since i lost you. only fitting that my chem's reunion is today, huh? maybe it'll make today easier for once. who knows?
every year on this day, i drive down this old alley behind an abandoned warehouse blasting nana. it's one of my favourite memories with you, and it always makes me smile. i couldn't have been 5 yet, and i probably shouldn't have been listening to that album. and yet, you blasted it. we sped through the alley and lost our voices, smiling wider than we ever had.
it was that day that we gave each other our killjoy names. in that alley, you became major moment. i became atomic diamond. our killjoy names never changed.
i won't be there tonight, but i know you will be. your ghost ass will break every rule in the book of the dead to be there. i'll be behind the old grocery, the same spot where we gave each other our names. i'll put on disenchanted, probably. it always was your favorite my chem song.
before you died, you told me "if you ever meet the boys, tell them that mcr is what made me smile in chemo. thank you for making the end of my life feel like a brand new start. like phantoms forever." and yeah, i never met them. but i had to say it. i hope you don't mind.
i love you forever, major moment. scream loud enough for the both of us tonight. i miss you so much.
xx atomic diamond
(This is so brilliant, but it will be heart breaking to read these…most at least. I think I need this though…)
Dad,
I got into another fight today. I didn't win… again. But they didn't leave without a black eye at least. My grades are still passing… for the most part. College is getting a bit difficult. Mom is worried about me, I think. She keeps calling people about getting me in to see some kind of therapist. Something about me being a danger to others and more of a danger to myself. I'm just using what you taught me though. My blocks are getting better, you'd be proud. I saved a life the other day. We had a call to the bar. Someone pulled a knife on the person, and things got a bit bloody. But I stopped the bleeding and from what I heard the guy's in stable condition.
Sarah's following her basketball career. Her coach says that she's probably one of the best players he's got.
Grace is right on Sarah's heel with basketball. They practice all the time together. She also got a request to sing the National Anthem, for the ceremony.
Elizabeth sold her forth painting. She got something like 2 grand for it. She's also been asked to help Disney with their animations.
James got his electricians master's degree. He starts work in two weeks.
Hannah and Naomi went into acting. They starred in their third movie. I got to see it. You'd have liked it.
Mom's still working at H&R, she got another promotion and is doing really well.
…I miss you. I remember getting up at 4:00 am just so that I could give you a hug before you left for work. I always said that I was worried you'd never come home. I kept seeing and hearing about how dangerous it was getting. There were days that you'd get home late and I'd be a crying mess on the kitchen floor. You threatened to pull me from High School at one point. Because of the bullying that was happening. It was just like when you were in High School.
Daddy… I got engaged. I wish you could come to the wedding in full uniform. I think it would be cool to have my police officer father walk me down the aisle. You always joked about coming to get me from school in full uniform if the bullying got to bad. I wish you could come.
Why did that guy have to do what he did? Why do so many people hate police? Don't they know that police have families to? I don't know if I can walk down the aisle alone. I'm writing this to you sitting by you. As if maybe you'll hear it. Or maybe I hope you'll be looking down at me, happy to know that I haven't forgotten. Happy to see that you weren't forgotten.
Anyways, I have to get back to work. I'm fixing the house for mom. The water pump broke again and she doesn't have water at the moment. Aren't you glad now that you taught me how to fix things like this?
I miss you, and I still love you,
~Daddy's little girl.
Magnus,
It's been too long since I've seen you. You didn't have to run from me. I forgive you.
I stopped running. There's no threat anymore. You should come back now. I miss you. I wish I could braid your hair and although you didn't like it, you still let me do it. I miss teasing you about your weird robes and your necklace. I miss singing those crazy rhymes with you.
I don't care about what you did anymore, I just want you to come back to me. I swear, it's not dangerous for people like us anymore. Well, Caenya isn't dangerous anymore.
Or maybe I could come to you? I hope you're safe, wherever you are. If you could just write back to me and let me know your safe. Do you remember when Caenya aimed that arrow towards your neck? I never told you how scared I would be to lose you.
I realize that you probably have never thought me more than a friend, but I love you, and I want you to come back. I need you.
