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Started November 14, 2019 by Deleted user

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_{Why do I go out shopping thinking it will be fun but end up just feeling bad about myself?}

It’s called growing up

hon, if you're vain, then i'm fucking Narcissus. whether it's jealousy or unease in her own anything that's making your mother say things like that, the best thing i can really advise you to do is do your damndest not to let her words get to you. people are just Like That, and it sucks, but in the long run, nothing anyone says ever actually means anything, just your own mentality and thoughts on yourself

Yes, I would.

Gotcha! I'm working on it!

oh my gosh I’m not the only one who gets told the “I hope you have a child just like you so you can understand how ___ you are” thing every time I do something my mom doesn’t like

Like, bish, I know I'm awful, that's one of the reasons I'm not having kids

exactly

So the teacher that predicts whether or not we'll have a snow day (he's only been wrong twice in the past lots of years) is predicting a two hour delay tomorrow but there's new people making the decisions and he says he still has to get used to their "tendencies"

On one hand she’s constantly trying to convince me that I don’t know anything and I’m never going to be happy unless I marry some guy and have 15 children with him even though she knows that just worsens my constant hopelessness, lack of self-esteem, and of course, causes me to freaking panic
And then on the other hand she continues to not take proper care of her own children (due to there being so many of us), complains about how sucky her life is cause of us, suffers from all sorts of health issues cause she had seven children, and tells me crap like that right there-

Hot take: if you don't want more kids, don't have them. And if you think abortion is wrong (do NOT fight me about this. Absolutely not.), and you don't want kids, stop having sex

So, for anyone who wants to know what Leo, my first alter, looks like… {sorry 'bout the quality}
I'm still working on the others

Leo sounds like he looks adorable!

Lol thanks!
As a 17 year old, he'll probably roll his eyes and mutter something about how he prefers "hot" or even "cute" {but only if it's from a pretty girl}

He'll appreciate it tho <3

I love Leo!

Hot take: if you don't want more kids, don't have them. And if you think abortion is wrong (do NOT fight me about this. Absolutely not.), and you don't want kids, stop having sex

(can’t fight you if you’re right)

IVE NEVER BEEN SO HAPPY

i need motivation again
i have to talk to my mom in person about some mental health stuff and even though i know it’ll be perfectly fine i’m The Big Scared
_help

Ella.
it's gonna be great.
You're gonna go up to your mom.
And that part will be a little scary but it's okay because you're freaking amazing and you've got this (Don't forget to tell yourself that).
And you're gonna tell her about the issue you need to tell her about.
And she won't even look scary while you're doing it.
She's gonna be totally understanding.
And you're gonna get whatever help you want from her.
And its gonna be freaking amazing.
And you're gonna be so brave.
And you're gonna SELF-FREAKING-ADVOCATE (that's important kids. Advocate for yourself. It's scary but worth it)
And then you're gonna come back and tell us how you killed it and we're gonna be even more proud of you than we already are.
You've got this kiddo.
I believe in you. <3

What Mox said.

_{oh god}

_{it went terribly}

_{i shouldn’t have said anything}

_{i just feel a thousand times worse now}

_{i should’ve known it was stupid}

_{what do i do}

Hey there. Calm down a bit. What happened?

_{I tried to explain to her the severity of what’s going on but I didn’t use the best example and she doesn’t believe a word I said…}

_{She doesn’t think there’s anything wrong with me and doesn’t want to get me help}

_{she just gave me some Korean drama recommendations, talked about her essential oils, and told me to go to bed}

_{which, I mean, I guess there’s worse possible outcomes, but wow there goes all my hope that things will magically get better after the holidays}

_{you know, the one little hope that was keeping me from hurting myself?}

Hmm. Well, that's not good. That's for certain.

Shit, I'm so sorry Ella. And I'm sorry you can't get the help you need.
So many parents don't believe you about mental health problems and it sucks and I'm sorry.
Do you have a phone?

_{I do… why?}

_{I tried to explain to her the severity of what’s going on but I didn’t use the best example and she doesn’t believe a word I said…}

_{She doesn’t believe there’s anything wrong with me and doesn’t want to get me help}

_{she just gave me some Korean drama recommendations, talked about her essential oils, and told me to go to bed}

_{which, I mean, I guess there’s worse possible outcomes, but wow there goes all my hope that things will magically get better after the holidays}

_{you know, the one little hope that was keeping me from hurting myself?}

hey, it's going to be alright kid. It may seem really disappointing, having tried to open up to your parents about your problems and not having gotten the response you wanted to get. I know it's really hard but you're going to have to do us all a favor and keep pushing through, whether you feel like you want to self destruct or not. It's not easy, but I promise you it does get better as you grow up.

also, I just want to throw in a little apology on how aggressive I was at trying to encourage you last time. I should have been a little more sympathetic towards your cause, but I wasn't, so I apologize.

that aside, if you really feel like you're going to end up hurting yourself again, find someone you can confide in and talk to them, they don't have to be your parents. if anything, your parents probably won't understand as well as someone your age would, someone that knows how hard this is going for you.

from my own experience, my mother is anything but a trusting person I can tell my problems to. I don't really have anyone who I can talk about these things without getting a huge reaction out of them, which most of the time is negative. I, however, do talk to someone on here and she helps me get through rough times even though she can't really do much, but trust me when I say that a few encouraging words can go a long way.

I would suggest finding someone like that, whether that be on here on notebook or someone in your life. im not sure what else I could say, but hey, I can always offer to listen and give you my opinion on certain things if you'd like. I really hope you'll be okay kid, just remember that you have a bunch of people on here that really hella mega care for you because you're a sweet person.

_{I do… why?}

_{Cause there's this app called calm harm that might help you with some things. Maybe. Idk the extent of your situation}

_{Would your mom find out about that or be weird about it if she did?}

_{thank you guys…}

_{I’ve calmed down a bit now}

also, I just want to throw in a little apology on how aggressive I was at trying to encourage you last time. I should have been a little more sympathetic towards your cause, but I wasn't, so I apologize.

It’s okay, really, honestly that “aggressive encouragement” was possibly one of the most helpful things I’ve ever received-

_{I do… why?}

_{Cause there's this app called calm harm that might help you with some things. Maybe. Idk the extent of your situation}

_{Would your mom find out about that or be weird about it if she did?}

_{I would but after this situation I’m not sure if I want to download any apps related to mental health…}

_{I’d rather not explain}

_{Alright, that's okay. If it gets really bad though just consider trying it out if you're comfortable with that.}