It happens every day

From the moment I wake up to the moment I rest my head back on my pillow

I dream

I dream about someone caring

About someone being there for me

About someone loving me

I imagine myself in dire situations just to fantasize about someone coming to my rescue

About someone needing me enough to risk keeping me alive

I imagine living a dangerous life

Constantly needing someone to save me

But I have to wake up sometimes

I have to wake up to admit to myself that no one will ever care

That no one will ever be there for me

That no one will ever love me

I have to realize that no one will come to my rescue

And that no one will need me enough to risk anything 

I will never live a dangerous live

I will never need saving

Not until I fall back into my comforting day dreams